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Day 35 - dry eyes

Fifth day taking 70mg. I usually wear contacts daily -- I have the kind you can sleep in. I typically (and definitely on Accutane) take them out day and night. My eyes have been pretty dry and seem to get tired more easily while working on the computer? Anyone else experience this? They are almost hard to keep open after working with a screen for awhile. I bought some eye drops, brand is called blink, for contacts. ~$8 at CVS. I'm trying to wear contacts only when I have to (I work in a lab) otherwise just wear glasses, and take my eye drops with me. I seriously take a skin emergency kit wherever I go that contains a tiny travel sized container of facial moisturizer, travel body lotion, tweezers, eye drops, contact solution, contact case, Aquaphor, powder makeup, liquid makeup, and makeup sponge. anybody else do that? Pimples are still coming and going. What I'm most frustrated with is the bumpiness of my face. god it was SO SMOOTH after Accutane. When will that smoothness return ): I'm so impatient. Its just one side of my face is crazy bumpier than the other -- the pimples aren't even active, just huge non-painful bumps. whatever tf those are.

acneruinsmylife

acneruinsmylife

02/13/2019

 

Day 33 - just complaining about being ugly

I have pictures from last round that show I didn't have dramatic improvement until after the third month. I just started my second month so I know I shouldn't see dramAtic improvement, but damn am I tired of looking like this. Been on 70mg for 3 days now, worried about a second IB. so far my skin does look a little worse honestly but I don't feel as sad and frustrated about it as I did that one day last week. I've also been working out (speaking of which, i need to do today) which i think makes me feel better. joint pain kicked in a bit ago, mostly just my back. after washing my face in the sink it takes so much energy to stand straight up again, its such a huge dull pain. Question if any accutane users are reading, does anyone still ever use benzoyl peroxide or epiduo as spot treatment? maybe to hasten the process of getting rid of active pimples? I did put the TINIEST of epiduo spot treatment on a few last night. i know my skin is already dry so I'm not tryna burn it off. just wondering. Even before accutane, epiduo has been pretty great at (not preventing, but) getting rid of existing pimples. heres to another day of being ugly.

acneruinsmylife

acneruinsmylife

02/10/2019

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02/11/2019

 

Day 31 - What is a low-fat diet??

Had doc appt yesterday. I fasted for it bc last round I got blood tests done every month. This doc only wants a blood test every two months I guess? weird. I like to know my blood test results bc it assures me that my triglycerides and cholesterol aren't clogging my arteries and leading to a heart attack . Anyway, he increased my dose from 40 to 70!!! I'm very happy, but also nervous. Last round I took doses 30/40/40/60/40. My doc took me off of 60 bc my triglycerides were getting very high. So on 70, I feel the need to change up my diet drastically so that doesn't happen again and I can stay on the higher dose and finish Accutane earlier. (I'm dreading taking it during the summer bc I love being outside and there's sun). So, that leads me to.. WHAT IS A LOW FAT DIET? I'm not worried about cholesterol bc I cut out meat and eggs from my diet. That was easy. I also cut out dairy knowing that it is high in fat. So I've been looking at nutrition facts and trying to eat foods that don't have a fat content over 30% DV pretty much. (but if I eat 10 servings of food that are 10% DV fat each, I'm at 100%, right?) If anybody is reading this and understands what a low fat diet really means, could you tell me what daily percent I should restrict myself to? 50%? 30%? It's hard to say 0%. I almost wish somebody could make me a meal plan. And then I realize that sugary foods can be converted to triglycerides too. And, alcohol! So I cut out alcohol completely for next few months. Should I decrease my sugar intake, too? To what percent? Please help, any nutritionists out there. I don't want to die

acneruinsmylife

acneruinsmylife

02/08/2019

 

Day 30 - I feel good (:

Don't get me wrong, I'm still breaking out a bit. But its definitely better than 2-3 days ago. I feel a lot better today. I was almost dreading seeing my man this weekend because of how my skin looked and hoping so badly that it would heal / look better by the time I see him, and I think that will be the case. I don't get to see my doc for another 4 hours, so I get to starve (fast) all day, woohoo. I keep reaching for food and have to remind myself not to eat XD. Will try to schedule next appt in the morning but honestly this doc is hard to schedule with, I was told he was the only one at this hospital who can even prescribe Accutane. I'll let ya know what dose he puts me on, tomorrow. P.S. I'm glad to see in some comments others going through the same thing as me! I forget other people deal with this too when I'm surrounded by clear faced people and bombarded with perfect flawless skin in the media every day. One day that will be us!

acneruinsmylife

acneruinsmylife

02/07/2019

 

Day 29 - my dry nose

I literally have nothing to say besides its day 29 and my nose is annoyingly dry and crusty and needs to be tended to probably every 2 hours or boogers will form YAY -__- Oh, my doc appt is tomorrow and I get to find out what dose he puts me on. Its almost like waiting for Christmas. Fingers crossed that I get a dosage boost!! I'm tryna kill this sh*t asap.  hahahahahaha f*ck acne, am I right? P.S. note to self: I think I felt so sh*tty yesterday because I got little to no sleep and hadn't eaten all day. so lets not do that again.

acneruinsmylife

acneruinsmylife

02/06/2019

 

Day 28 - Social consequences

Hi Day 28 symptoms are the same. I usually break out on one side of my face more than another but not these days, they both are horrible. I don't have much to update besides to vent to feel better. Acne has the WORST effect on my self confidence. I knew I had to get back on accutane because I started skipping out on social gatherings just because I felt so ugly but would have otherwise attended. And I'm feeling the same way now with this IB (initial breakout); its so bad -- there was a social event today that I was going to go to. I looked in the mirror and decided not to. I want to go into hiding the next few months, but also don't want to miss out on life. I keep making excuses when friends ask to hang. And, its not that I want to look good or impress and be sexually attractive -- I just hate when people stare at my skin and it grosses people out and I feel like an alien. I'd do anything to get rid of that. Okay. I'm going to go wash the makeup off my face, let my skin breathe, and hope that things look a little better and brighter tomorrow. I'm just not in the mood ):

acneruinsmylife

acneruinsmylife

02/06/2019

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02/06/2019

 

Day 27 & sex on accutane

Hi. I basically use this as my diary bc I don't know anyone on accutane right now and I need to get my thoughts out so I don't go crazy. Maybe someone can relate and this could help somebody. I finished round 1 of accutane in 2016, had amazing beautiful skin until 2.5 years later in 2018. I have no idea why, but I do know I was under a lot of stress at that time. I started round 2 January 2019 because of all the stupid ass hoops female patients have to go through. I'm on Day 27. I know the side effects to expect but doesnt make them any less annoying. The most annoying right now is the dry nose. (maybe its worse because im in cold climate too). but the inside of my nose will crack and flake and make boogers and I have to pretty much clean it 2-3 times a day. I put vaseline inside at night, I think it helps but not sure. I am easily putting up w dry skin, lips, joint pain. Never noticed this last round but I had a crazy breakout of blackheads around day 22? I used an exfoliating scrub from CVS about twice a week that cleared it up pretty damn well within a week. Going to maintain weekly gentle exfoliation.   Okay now for the juicy stuff. Last wound of accutane I was celibate. This round, I'm in a heterosexual relationship with a man and I was very nervous how it would affect my sex life. My biggest concerns were -- how am I going to kiss him if my mouth is covered in vaseline/aquaphor? How will dry lips affect oral sex on him? How will the overall dryness affect the ability for vaginas to get wet? And, its okay! I'm on 40mg and symptoms may be worse or intolerable on higher doses, but. So far, before I kiss him, I pretty much kiss the back of my hand to get most (but not all) of the aquaphor off. Or do this before I see him. When you make out your lips will feel tight at some point but as long as its not for over an hour, its bareable. His saliva and your own tongue will sort of moisturize your own for the time being lol. Oral sex on him is also okay (for maybe 20 minutes) if you focus on using your tongue and throat to create as much saliva as possible. I know this is TMI but this might help somebody out, I wish somebody told me! Also, does not seem like accutane affects vaginal wetness at all, at least for me. As always, use two forms of birth control!

acneruinsmylife

acneruinsmylife

02/05/2019

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02/07/2019

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