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As of late I've been really taking into mind the state my face is in. For the longest time I just put up with my occasional breakouts and constantly having red bumps all over my face. After finally coming to the conclusion that I indeed do have the money and patience to spend on finding the right acne regime for me I began to search.
As a background story on my acne, I've had a problem with it since middle school. Being around friends that never had acne to the extent of mine made it really hard to live with. I tried many many many different acne cleansers and still have yet to find the perfect one for me. I started out with Clearasil. Gee. I was in middle school living on 5 dollars a week as allowance...what was I supposed to do? So yes. That didn't work at all. I also tried Neutrogena and clean & clear which didn;t do me any good.
My older sister had problems with acne too in which she tried Proactiv but didn't like it so gave the rest of what was left to me. It worked great for me. But....as a poor middle class child I had to give it up and go to something cheaper as my parental unit didnt want to shovel out 60 bucks every 4 months for me. Hey, whatever. What could I do?
They put me on AcneFree. It worked ok....kept most of my acne at bay but never gave me a clear complexion. But I was ok with it...I had some self confidence that I could live with a couple pimples on my face at a time! But, after I got a job and had money to use, I tried to go back to Proactiv since it worked so well for me in middle school. Horrible idea. Blew up my face and ruined everything. I stopped that and went back to AcneFree but tried the severe kit to see if it would be amazing. Nope. Helped the pimples but the general welfare of my skin? It got so dry that i could literally peel off my face. I was slapping on moisturizer like my life depended on it.
After that I heard about Lush. I read into their products and learned that everything was organic and handmade and all for a pretty decent price too! I decided, what the hell. What did I have to lose? I tried it out for a month and It really helped! My face was better off and my acne was tamed. Bad thing is...the only Lush store nearby is downtown so I have no way to get there since I don't drive. I either have to order....or get my friend to take me down there. As of now, I am out of my cleanser...my face is horrible and I'm awaiting my shipment that I ordered online hmm...about a week ago.
I've also taken my chances as far as birth control (which Im still on....not sure if its helping or not) and hair/skin/nail vitamins that I got through Amway.
What am I to do? I'm scared to try anything else because I'm scared that it'll ruin my face even more. I don't want to spend too much money on anything and I want my face clear...not just a few less pimples.
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my face is flaky so i washed and exfoliated
then i applyed honey on my face. hopfully this will improve it
The doctor told me to discontinue the topical antibiotic a week ago. She stated that I would get too dry once the Accutane kicks in. Well, I cheated. I used it last night. I really just wanted to dry up one or two newbies. In my defense, it was only day 2. But, I suffered the consequences. BAD drying that is only my fault. Life goes on. *
Day 3. I have been having a dull headache. I can only assume that it is due to the Accutane because I never get headaches. At this point, I am only taking one a day. I am going to start to take it before bed so maybe I can sleep through the headaches. They are tolerable, but thinking that they could last six more month is sort of intolerable. Which makes me think...Why am I doing this? Is all of this worth the side effects? Ask me when I have a minor breakout and I would say no. When it is full blown, gross, unbearable, everyone-is-looking-at-my-chin breakout, it probably is worth it.
*I may "cheat" again tonight. Apparently, I am not good at learning lessons.
The main cluster of acne that i had on the right side of my mouth and chin continues to clear! However, i cant be sure that im one of those lucky people that starts clearing very quickly on accutane because i think this breakout may have actually been caused by my old face wash. I was using triaz wipes twice and sometimes even three times a day so i think it was just drying the hell out of my skin. So now that ive stopped with that and started using cetaphil, which is really gentle, its starting to clear up.
Still no side effects although im starting to get a little dry on the breakout thats clearing up but that always happens to me when i have a breakout thats going away. Fingers crossed that this stuff is already working because i really REALLY dont want to have an initial breakout where its gets really bad before better.
Well, it's still pretty early, but I think I'm maybe having some side effects. I really don't want to blame everything on taking this drug though, so I'm hesitant to say that these are most definitely due to Claravis, but let's just say I feel a little different lately.
First off, OW! The corners of my mouth hurt so bad! I can barely open my mouth or smile without them hurting, especially the right side. I think I put aquaphor on three times today and even though it helped, it still stings like a biznitch. It really sucks. I hope it heals soon!
And also, I have had maybe 3 headaches in the past few days. Again, I'm not sure if I can attribute this to Claravis, but it's not so fun. They're not AWFUL, but working at a toy store with a headache all day is kind of sucky. Also, I'm really, really thirsty. Last night I had a water bottle on the chair next to my bed that I kept reaching for, until I finally figured hell, why not just sleep with it. I'm thinking that's going to become a regular habit for me. And it has a little squirty top so I can at least get it in my mouth (that's what she said...sorry)
One more thing, I woke up last night in a PANIC!! And I'm pretty sure I was dreaming about my skin, which kinda freaks me out. I basically woke up making frantic sounds and with my heart beating really fast, and it was really unpleasant. I don't remember that ever happening before when I wasn't having some kind of nightmare. Who knows, maybe I was, but I really felt like I was dreaming about my skin and my scars. Ugh. I really hope that doesn't continue. So to sum it up, I'm not feeling too hot today. I'm dry, headachy, tired, and ...dry. But at least I've got 8 days down, so that's something to be happy about I guess.
Ok, so now for a non skin related story. Sorry if this is really boring...it will be, I can tell you right now, I'm adding this after I've written it. You should probably stop reading now.
I had the sort of a shitty night at the bar a couple nights ago. I was only going to have like one drink, because my friend wanted to buy me a belated birthday drink, but then she bought me a shot without telling me. It was nice of her to do that, but I was almost a little annoyed. I've told her that I can't drink that much alcohol right now, and it seems like she forgot or something. I'm almost positive I told her it was because of a medication. I don't know, I guess it's silly for me to be annoyed about that, but I was at the time. Also we were in this bar I hate...Brothers. It's basically full of bros and hos and people trying to grab you. The guys me and my friend were with were acting all jealous and possessive and didn't even want us to talk to anyone else. They're convinced they have to save us from all male attention, because everyone is a creeper. (And actually, we were at Brothers, so I guess everyone WAS a creeper. But still.) I was talking to a guy I've known since 3rd grade, and one of the guys came up and just awkwardly stood there until my friend was just like, ok....I'm gonna go now. And then he wanted me to dance with him. UGH! And it was all hot and crowded and I basically became lodged on the dance floor while looking for my friend. Being semi sober and annoyed in the midst of a drunken orgy is one of my least favorite things. And THEN I was talking to this guy and we were having a pretty normal conversation, and after that he wanted to hang out more but I said I didn't really want to and he started getting all up in my business and telling me I would never take a chance, aren't I adventurous, am I going to live my whole life this way, blah blah blah. I just wanted to smack him. Sorry dude, but maybe I'm not looking for the same things you are right now. And then when I finally just got up to walk away he acted all disapproving. Usually I don't let things like that bother me, but I guess I was already sort of feelin funky (not in a good way).
So yeah. I surprisingly like writing in this thing a lot. It's kind of neat to know that someone out there will know about my sleeping with a water bottle or becoming uncomfortably stuck in a sweaty sexy inferno of dancing. BY THE WAY, usually I love dancing, but not when I'm all pissed off. And I think I've rambled enough for one day.
It's day 32 of my Taz journey and the "Initial Breakout" started on day 23 (I started blogging about the breakout on day 25... if you want to read.)
Yesterday, I had several hard whiteheads and a couple of blackheads. Throughout the day yesterday, I could really tell how fast Taz helps the skin turnover because several blemishes surfaced before I went to bed yesterday... and the blemishes that were SOOOOO obvious yesterday, are hardly noticeable today. I didn't pop or extract any of the blemishes... although one didn't survive the face wash last night.
I have several new blemishes today, in which two of them hurt... not terribly... but they hurt. Again... I'm not picking, poking, or extracting... just waiting.
Until next time...
Okay so I got my blood work back and all systems are a go... they even upgraded my meds to 60mg a day so I am really looking to see some serious progress!
I continue to see how the effects of stress can wreak havoc on my skin. I had some er, personal problems at home and then BAM! I woke up with like 5 zits within 24 hours. So now I am exploring way to relieve stress that do not involve hitting the wine bottle (my previous method) such as yoga, bubble baths, or running perhaps? I didn't think I was a high stress person, but my skin seems to think otherwise....
Also I talked to my doctor about the whole birth control thing and how my skin might relapse once I am off of it. She wasn't too helpful and said she had topical things I could use when I am no longer required to be on bc. Seriously? Ummmm... isn't the whole point in this mess to clear up my skin on a more permanent basis? That was what I thought I signed up for after all.
Anybody out there with some wisdom about birth control and what happens when you go off of it? Please send it my way!!!
Zit count: 0
My scars are clearing up nicely, with only 3 really stubourn ones. I only have 1 pimple on the bridge of my nose but its not even noticeable. I have 14 days until my vacation, lets hope things keep getting better!
Does anyone else find the Claravis blister packs IMPOSSIBLE to open?? And seriously all the pregnant lady tabs??? It's kind of funny actually. Just in case i forgot to NOT get pregnant, I can look at the tab before I take the pill and go OH YEAH, I FORGOT I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO REPRODUCE. THANKS BARR LABORATORIES!!! Anyway. Thats it haha.
Sooo I'm actually starting to notice changes! And of course by changes I in no way mean acne clearing, but the lips/eyes are definitely starting to dry, and I noticed after I came home last night from seeing a karaoke band play that I had two brand new white head pimples on my face. They literally cropped up in THREE HOURS. But the great thing about that is that I NEVER get whitehead pimples. My case of acute onset adult acne just bypassed blackheads, pimples, whiteheads, etc and went straight to CYSTS. Woke up this morning with three more whiteheadish, small pimples too. Is it weird that this actually makes me excited? I'm just thinking 1.Ok, meds are working 2. Thank GOD they aren't cysts! I'm not afraid of this IB, my skin has looked way worse than this in the past (I currently only have one diminishing cyst, the whitehead pimples, and of course, everyone's fav face full of inflammation) Face is also a little tight after washing, so I may skip clindamycin gel and do it either once a day or every other day depending on how my skin feels.
Tomorrow I start classes for my LAST SEMESTER as an undergrad. Because I changed majors 3 times in my long and illustrious college career, I had to take an extra year of school (hence the 23 year old graduating senior. Whatever, it's extremely common these days). So, its not going to be long before I'm kicked off my parent's insurance (around June) so it was extremely important I do accutane NOW, cause lord knows when I'll have a job with health benefits...anyway. Thats about all, stop by and say hi if the spirit moves you!!
I have some (but less) papules and almost no pustules but my jawline and back are the worst areas for still developing papules.
I have almost cut out dairy (apart from chocolate and coffee at work), drinking soya at home with my drinks and cereal. I have noticed much more improvement since doing this and I soon hope to become very observant with this
In the future I want to try a diet of low GI foods (but a diabetic diet as low GI includes chocolate and I think there must be a reason why diabetics shouldnt eat chocolate even if it is low GI) .... we shall see. been really interested in hormones and insulin resistance recently.
I went to the doctors today about continuing with lymecyclin, i have done alot of thinking and was about to find out if my doctor was a jobsworth or a true physician and I found he was at least open to my ideas.
I said my goal is to be able to wear a bikini in the summer in my 20's with clear skin and ejoy the way I look. He seemed on board with my goal
i talked about fungle folliculitis and my experiments with head and shoulders
my interest in hormones and in insulin resistance
dietry effects on acne
and how I didnt see anti-biotics as being the way forward long term... he agreed with this
he agreed that my dietry changes could only benefit me in general (was expecting that)
he also said it would be worth checking my hormones and cholesterol and glucose.
looking for PCOS (Poly cystic ovary syndrome) and any insulin resistance.
which i am very grateful for
my doctor is WIN at the moment
he also agreed to prescribe me any antifungal/antibacterial washes I wanted to try... i decided to hold fire on this until i finishantibiotics/ i have read more.
No more redness!!! i can actually go out in public now after being a prisoner for 3 weeks!!! my face has cleared up significantly. still a little dry but all the red is gone and the severe flaking has gone down as well. scars have lightened a little also. I have been using the bp only in the areas where i break out, i use cerave with no jojoba in the am because it makes my face look toooo greasy if i add the jojoba, i use dan's moisturizer with jojoba in the pm. it has worked great for me! everyone has said my face has improved a lot since i started. thank you godddd! i just hope it stays like this forever
RESULTS: redness gone, not as flaky, still a little dry, scars have lightened
I saw on tv recently a commercial for Neutrogena's Oil-Free acne wash that has redness soothing aloe and chamomile. It supposedly reduces redness from post acne...... so I washed my face with it yesterday..... and when I looked at my face this morning..... it defiantly improved already! No it didnt boom vanish my redness from my scarring but boyyyyy it defiantly made a difference and I am so excited to see what my face/redness/scars are going to look like after using this product for a while
Well, I think things are going well. It appears that many of the cysts along my jaw are coming to a head, after only two days of using Azelaic acid. The problem is that I am tempted to pop these huge cysts......which I actually have to some of them and they appear to be getting better. Is this bad???? I noticed there was someone with an anti picking blog, I think I might need to join forces.
There are two new pimples on that cheek, but I think they are actually old pimples that are being dragged to the surface by the azelaic....these I am not going to pick, I DO NOT need any new scabs!!!!!!!
The being really healthy thing is going really well, still haven't had any sugar...it's actually been one week now without sugar, and its been totally fine. First few days I had a pretty bad headache, but now everything seems fine. I'm pretty sure that my skin is purging. I did however have a glass of wine on saturday, but that's better than my normal one bottle of wine.
I also hink that stopping all the antibiotics is taking its toll, antibiotics are not good!!!!!!!!
I have also been told by a derm here to start taking Beta Careten supplements, three a day. Beta caroten converts to vitamin A when the body needs it, preventing the liver from being overloaded by vitamin A which can be toxic in high does aka Roaccutane. I feel more confident with this than drugs. However pregnancy is not advised when taking this much beta caroten. Once benefit is that maybe i'll be a bit more tanned than usual.
Mentally, it's been hard looking this terrible. I am also trying to avoid too many cosmetics and other cheicals in shampoos etc. I have bought some baby shampoo for both my hair and body. This doesn't have the same detergents in it as other types of products. I just hope that simplifying everything will help.
Hmmmm, realising this was a bit boring today, but it's been one day.....have booked a back up derm appointment in exactly two weeks when I'm back in Aus. However I have a funny feeling that I will be lookin much better by then if I can avoid the picking and get my butt to the gym to sweat a bit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyone got any other good natural skin products which have worked wonders???
Feeling good right now, crossing my fingers that it keeps going like this:)
I'm confused on why I started last Wednesday but this Wednesday will be day eight instead of day seven. Oh well. So yeah, got back from honorband yesterday. I managed to get sick. My throat is really dry no matter how much water I drink, and I have congestion pretty bad in my head. It makes me dizzy and really full of snot whenever I just wake up. I have been doing a lot of traveling though so I guess its to be expected. Thank god for Martin Luther king day! I can use today to recover and not have to miss anymore school,.. I'm still going to play trumpet today. Its either going to hurt, not make a difference, or feel REALLY funny. I wonder how it feels to play high notes with this much snot in my head o.o As for my skin I'm noticing improvements, I think its adjusting to the benzoyl peroxide, at last! A lot of the inflammation and redness has died down, despite the fact I used make up yesterday. A lot of the existing acne had gotten smaller too. As much as I wish I could permanently damage the oil glands in my face and not have to be a slave to an acne program, I guess its worth the extra time to have clear skin. Also I used an eyebrow razor for the first time yesterday. It was going fine but I got greedy and started pressing harder,..then I believe my elbow slipped on the wet counter or something,.....My eyebrow will fill out again eventually
I forgot to write an entry for this day. It was a very long day and I had the honorband concert.
No improvement really but its not getting worse. I'm usually paranoid about how shiny my face is even if its really not that bad. There's been more stress lately, less sleep, more greasy food, and I'm probably going to wear make-up tomorrow. But it'll all be good. I'm still using the Regime, . . .!!
Also I wrote life advice, here's the best three out of twelve.
1. If you're afraid its going to happen again without any proof or intuition to support yourself with, come to terms with your fear, accept it, and stop feeding it attention. Eventually even if it really never goes away, it will to you.
8. Love those who are worthy/innocent, and tolerate those who are not.
10. Don't spend so much time looking for answers from other people you forget to fail so you can learn your own answers.
So I woke up at three this morning, did the Regime, then basically traveled and played my trumpet until now, 10:30pm. I'm currently waiting for the Benzoyl Peroxide to dry. I'm looking forward to sleeping to night very much so, then tomorrow comes and its another long but amazing and awesome day (honorband). I'm going to miss the people (here) a lot, I wish they went to my school. But oh well. I'll see (most of) them next year. Next year will be the last year I see a lot of these people. It seems like everything's ending rather then beginning. As if teenage years ARE life, and not just a prelude to adulthood. I don't know. I'm not afraid of the future,...but I hate watching my life fly by. It feels like everything is already over. As if I'm living in the past, as if the present was just a vast collection of memories instead of currently reality. I know I'm going to miss this year's seniors a LOT even though we don't hang out much outside of band stuff. The junior class I have mixed feelings about,...its like everything dramatic happened because of one person in that class and every one of the nine other girls he dated while I thought I was special to him. Big mistake. It's been years in the making,...but maybe once he's finally truly out of my life I'll come out of this slump and my shell. I do here, despite the fact I have acne. Hes not here. I know its wrong to blame my problems on him, for its my own fault I'm depressed or resentful every now and then, but if he wouldn't have been so stupid things would be more than adequate, thats for sure. Being on the honorband trip makes me miss some of the ex-seniors. But only one or two of them for some reason. I was fond/indifferent of all of them, but some of them just stuck closer to me I guess, treated me like a friend instead of a band acquaintance. A lot of people do that now. It makes me pretty happy with my life, no matter who intentionally/unintentionally tries to screw it up.
It's week three!
I must say that it wan't going very well last week. My skin was less irritated, but the spots came back. I don't know if this breakout is normal. It could also be because I had a really stressfull week. I really should stop stressing
Anyways, I'll try to use a little bit more of the product this week. Let's see how it goes. I hope it will get better again. I just had to make a photo for my identity card and I felt bad about it. I tried to put on a little bit of consealer, but again it didn't work. My skincolour changed since I use the BP and the consealer didn't match anymore. Guess my skin is still to red ... Well, I'll just have to deal with this stupid picture. Maybe my face will look better for the next ID
since using benzoyl peroxide i have noticed fine lines under my eyes and im only 22 has anyone else noticed this and also if people have had these how did they get rid of them? also i have got some lumps on my face which you can only see in some lights and you can feel them but there under the skin but you can feel them! has anyone else got these and again how do you get rid of them?
thanks all help is appreciated!!
Hello Hopefuls (isn't that what we all are )),
I've been online a lot lately checking different blogs & EVERYTHING Accutane and I just can't seem to find the information that answers my specific issue. I'm an African American woman who developed adult acne at 23. I'm considerably older now and 5'11 with an athletic frame )) Iâ€™ve always been athletic, out going and attractive (hope that doesn't offend anyone). While in high school I had the very occasional zit but never needed makeup for anything until 23. That's when the frequency and number of bumps increased. Blah Blah Blah tried everything- finally got placed on Accutane.
Today is day 17 but according to the blogs Iâ€™m very a typical. I'm on 2 20 mg pills a day (40 mg). Day two my lips were super dry as well as my skin. Perhaps it's because I had retinoid in my skin two days b4 starting the treatment or maybe because of hypersensitivity. Either way I noticed. Day five I noticed my skin was really red (I figured this stuff is really working). Then on day 10 I one of the dumbest things to date. While at a spa, I did what I had so many times before, lay out on the rocks - hello the red lights were UV. Stayed for, oh about 20 minutes. Didn't occur to me that I was artificially sun bathing until the next day I noticed my skin was not only red but darker. It took two more days for the full color to come in. Needless to say when I walk by a mirror it's shocking. Now most of the redness has gone but my skin seems to have an olive tone - quite interesting.
On an acne note (my skin broke out like it does when I've received a sever sunburn) but now is almost 100% healed and I have little bumps under my skin that look like clogged pores. Other side affects include dryness through out my entire body *, shedding of hair (had some of this before but now it's pronounced) and yeah dried out discolored skin.
Spoke to the nurse and explained what happened she said I was probably more sensitive to the lamps and tanned but that it too shall pass. This is a shade I've never been before and it's uneven and it's making me look old. My fiancÃ© is running around calling me mocca - he thinks it's hilarious. I'm usually considered a light skin African American but looking at me now I think my tone is that of a darker skinned Indian (from India) or a native of Morocco. Needless to say my make up, NOT GOING TO WORK.
SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME IT'S OK.
PS Going to a HUGE event in 26 days ) Would like to look close to â€œnormalâ€ for it.
Creating better tomorrows,
So I'm no longer going to be a voyeur and I feel like it's only fare that I start a blog. I'm kinda off the cuff so this might not be the place to post this but I'm sure you guys and gals will get me pointed in the right direction.
Who I am: I'm a 30+ African American woman with zits that I never want to see again!
Skin type: Combination -Oily forehead, nose & chin and dry everywhere else (Until Tane & now just DRY-LOL)
Days on Accutane: 17
Trouble areas: mostly lower half of my face back and chest.
Vitamins/Supplements: Omega 3, FlaxSeed, Super B-Complex & Echinacea plus vitamin C
Water: At least 1 gallon daily
Face wash: CeraVe
Moisturizer: Cerave/ Shea Butter
Toner: None. Should I?
Side affects: Skin discoloration , dry skin, dry lips, hardened stool & the consequences thinning hair and extra cracking in knees (I'm an athlete so cracking comes with the territory).
I will continue to update this as a way to document my progress and side affects (not sure if I should say effects here).
Join me on my journey feel free to comment and help and laugh and cry with me along the way. I'll try to keep it interesting but in the days that it's not - Sorray (please say it out loud and if that doesn't make you laugh then say it again)
Also have to ask my doctor what's the hard limits on adult beverages ... Next month I really planned on getting it in for at least 2 days. Does anyone know ?