okay so this is my sleuthing blog, dedicated to the immense amount of research i have done regarding hormones, gut health, bad habits, etc, all relating to skin.
i dont really know how im going to format this blog, i guess ill just add new entries as i learn something new about the body in relation to acne formation.
now to start, im going to be talking about contraceptives (i have lots of experience with this devil)
so i'm considering getting bangs.
i've been considering bangs for a while because of my acne.
i do have a phobia of things touching my face, even my own hands and hair, so it would be something......new. *mentally screams at the thought of hair grease staying on my forehead 24/7*
but i've been experimenting with it in the mirror, i don't think it looks bad, i just don't look as good as i think i look now, hair wise.
i really do like the way i style my hair now. i think its r
i have one class this morning.
obviously i dont want to go, i am dreading it.
im just going to wear my cap to cover my face.
its not going to make me feel any better though.
i just feel so fucking tired.
last night after i wrote my first three depressing entries, i made myself draw and write in my journal.
i found that it did calm me a little, and made me forget about crying and hating myself.
because the reality is, i dont hate myself. i do love myself, a
ive been crying for 8 months straight.
this is the third entry for tonight, i am just so tired.
i remember a few months ago i was feeling this way and i tried to get in contact with the national suicide hotline. i waited for an hour, never got connected to anyone. i really needed someone then. maybe i need someone now. i just dont even know how i would attempt to describe, to a therapist, the fact that my depression solely exists because of my acne. the fact that i have self harmed a
this experience with acne has exacerbated my ocd.
i have always had obsessive compulsive tendencies, but thats all that they were. tendencies.
im going to be completely honest here, and i hope i dont trigger anyone.
before all of this, i would do this thing where i had to repeat this phrase in my head until it sounded right, whenever i thought about something that i did not want to happen.
i would also knock five times on wood with my right hand (only my index finger knuck
please read my first forum before starting this.
today, i stayed home from school again
woke up to a zit
i cant help it
i try not to let my acne control my life, but it literally will not let me go free
ive noticed lately i do not cry as much about my acne like i used to. when the acne first started creeping up, i would cry over small teeny pimples.
now that i am getting regular painful cysts i have become desensitized, yet still so sensitive when it comes to my ski
Hi can you guys help I’m kinda tired of the redness and pimples on my nose since everyone’s Calling me the red nose reindeer but I had the redness and pimple on my nose for about 3 years and it still doesn’t go away if you can help pls tell me what it is or if you can help please and thank you
Saw the dermatologist and she said everything looks good. she's keeping me on 60mg and says i only have 2 more months. woo! i'm happy w the progress rn. i'm using a vitamin c serum with the red and dark post acne marks and i think that's helping.
I know I said in my last post I would make a decision about ending the caveman regimen. I basically DID decide to end the regimen. But it’s been two weeks since then and I haven’t stopped. I even did research and bot a new moisturizer and cleanser. I was so ready to end the regimen. But then...my skin actually started to look a little better.
What I’m experiencing: Less dry than usual over the course of two weeks. Today was pretty bad tho. I SAW the skin flakes an
I guess i was thinking my skin would be clear by day 100, but here we are still consecutively breaking out on my chin and cheeks. I am lucky with my symptoms and dryness though because i know some people get it bad.
Wow can't believe it's been four years since my last post and seven since my very first. Ever since my skin cleared with birth control and differin my journey has been pretty smooth. My skin texture hasn't always been great and this has been my biggest 'struggle' but I did manage to get my acne under control after a pretty traumatic outbreak back in 2012/13.
I am still on my anti depressants. I did successfully come of them but after about six months my mood and anxiety ch