Sorry for the rambling but I feel really alone and I need someone to hear me.
My name is Mike and I am 30 years old. It has gotten to the point where I can't wear a t-shirt anymore because the Folliculitis has reached the inner elbows. Psychologically it has been soo bad for me. I have no confidence anymore and my self esteem is at an all time low. I dont see the point in being around anymore. It's funny because I receive stares and compliments from many females that I am an attractive man and that I must have soo many girlfirends. If they only knew the truth.
During the Winter time I can get away with wearing long sleeve shirts and that is when I have some confidence and the opposite gender is all over me. But when Summer comes , it just ruins me when I am wearing a t-shirt and my Folliculitis and Eczema is exposed on my arms. I see friends looking at it by the corner of their eye. I lie to everyone but my best friend because I am soo embarrassed. I say it's a sun burn I am trying to control. I also lie about the fact that I have a girlfriend because I am a decent looking guy and they would know something was up if I didn't have one. I dont have a girl because Folliculitis has made me anti-social. I cant deal with the fact that when I undress, the girl will be horrified by my skin condition. My condition is moderate but it spread everywhere, like I said this disease has damaged me psychologically. I regularly get it on my neck, chest, arms (even my forearms), stomach, back, and sometimes on my face. I cry sometimes because I have tried a lot of things with no prevail. A grown man crying.
My dermatologist has put me on Vitamin A - 50, 000 IU a day. I tried prescribed Salicylic Acid lotion and soap , It cleared up my body for a week but came right back- so I stopped. On my own I discovered Tea Tree Oil. The soap works good but its very tough on the skin. The first two weeks of using it , it totally cleared up my skin and I proudly walked around bareshirt. When I ran out of the soap I tried Tea tree oil extract, it was very strong and it agitated the Eczema located on my inner elbows causing redness and irritation. On the advice of my doc I have stopped fighting with the Folliculitis and right now I am trying to control the redness on my eczema laced arms with Elidel. Currently I have redness as well as Folliculitis acne on them.
I feel sooo alone because no one at my work site has this problem, and it's not just Folliculitis, I have eczema, and allergies to everything including a work shirt which agitated the eczema. I feel like I will be alone for the rest of my life while everyone around me has a relationship and is getting married. Thanks God
MikeCossevaMember Since 30 Jun 2008
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