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So I went to my derm, signed all the stuff, got my booklet. My letter with my user name and password just came in the mail but is not letting me log on? Do I have to wait for my second appointment and get something else? Do I have to wait to get my second negative pregnancy test then take the quiz? I'm so confused. If anyone has been throught the process help! I'd hate to screw this up..

What was one time frame, could be a year or just a couple of days when your skin was it's best or worst? How different did it make you feel? What did you do while you "had the chance"?

My worst- 2009 was awful. I don't know where it came from but I had broken out so bad. On my transcripts it's the only semester I failed completely. I felt so low and all I wanted was to hide out in my house and pick my skin. I had no motivation and my relationships suffered greatly.

My best- usually when I first start a medication. I first started Retin-A in 2008 my skin had a brief few months of being good before the 2009 occurrence. Then I started Spiro around 2010 and had an amazing 2-3 years of great skin. I was doing so much better in school and my confidence level was amazing. It really was day and night.

I just started back on 100MG a day after taking a break for a couple months. I know my androgens are still high because my oil and acne came back almost immediately and was way worse than I remember.
My question is should I take the full 100MG at once or 50 twice a day?

I gave up and went back on it. The reason I stopped is because I turned 26 and got kicked off my parents insurance and figured it was a good time to stop for a few months and see if my oil and acne would return and if I'd be fine without it. I also wanted to get my hormones back to normal because my cycle was pretty messed up from going off the pill about a year ago.
My oil returned full force. My hair started getting gross feeling by noon and I cold literally wipe the oil off my skin. I've had two months of a normal cycle so I think everything's good with my hormones enough to "start from scratch" again and hopefully I get the awesome results I had when I originally started.
I really really didn't want to pay full price for it but its the only thing that's ever worked for me. :/
I have no idea what's going on with my hormones but I've noticed a lot of new hair coming in on my head since I stopped so I think it was causing hair loss before?
I took my first pill last night. I remember it working pretty quickly, within the first month when I first took it. Right now I have a lot of red marks and one cystic like pimple near my nose. I'm also using Atralin gel for skin texture.
So heres my log so i can keep track of my progress, symptoms, and also as an outlet to vent. i hope I'm clear by my wedding day, March 3rd.Please let it work again!

Ahh please let my skin look somewhat decent before the dinners, and family, and parties and the worst, having to stay over at their houses using their bathrooms, mirrors etc. I feel like my excitement for the holidays is based solely on how my skin looks. This year it's not too great:/ my spiro I was on now seems ineffective and I started using retin a again so now I'm in the middle of the initial breakout. I also just lost my health insurance turning 26 so I really have no means to go back to my derm or try new prescriptions so all I have left are some tubes of retin and and clindamycin that I'm hoping at least help.
I can't believe I'm back where I started again. Will is EVER end?