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It depends how my skin is in real life. If I have good skin I dream about bad skin, but if I have a huge breakout I dream that I'm clear and wake up hugely disappointed.

Still breaking out a bit..waiting...waiting...

Yeah I was kinda shocked. I got a massive breakout in the last two days. It seems like it never ends:/ just when it looks like its getting better it break out all over again. I don't see an end in sight..

Breaks*

I just had my derm appointment today and she bumped me up to 80 mg a day now. She said the 40 mg was to see how well I tolerated it and since my bloodwork was fine I can go a little higher. Hopefully I'll start seeing results now. I'm soo dry! My lips drive me crazy and the inside of my nose hurts from being so dry:( hopefully it'll all be worth it!

Yeah, that would not surprise me! I think many people don't realize just how bad for you it really is. It messes up your adrenals so much, and the thing is, they don't just instantly return to normal if you stop drinking it for a few days. Now that I've been mostly free of it for months I am starting to see a major difference in my adrenals. I used to always get these weird surges of adrenaline and I think always having caffeine in my system had something to do with it. They were almost like mini panic attacks, but they would come on because of random things, not emotional upset. For example, someone would come to my door to deliver something and I would literally get this massive surge of adrenaline as if I had just run for my life, heart pounding, sweating, shaking, can barely stand...and this wasn't a social phobia type of thing, it was the fact that the knock on the door would startle me SO bad that it would trigger this crazy response... any sort of loud noise or startling thing would do it... except the adrenaline would last for like a half hour after I was startled (where as most normal people would probably go back to normal quickly afterward)
I don't know... I always thought I was just a more high-strung person with a tendency toward panic and anxiety, but now that caffeine has been out of my system for months I notice I'm not getting these adrenaline surges as much anymore. I think caffeine really messes up your "fight or flight" response.

Omg that is so crazy you described what happens to me to a T. I haven't been able to kick my habit fully but I've cut back a lot and it makes such a difference with my stress and "panic attacks." I thought maybe I had some panic disorder but I've come to think it may just be my caffeine intake. Especially about it lasting for hours. Once it's set off by driving or some little glitch in my day get ready!