Believe me I've been there. I can't say I really ever thought suicide was an option but around 18 to 20 years old I was certainly at that obsessive point where I was constantly looking at mirrors and feeling horrible about myself. Laying in bed at night with that wretched feeling. It was really bad at times.
I first came here over a decade ago and you can probably look back through my posts and see a 22 year old kid who was on this site everyday, researching, trying many different scar revision techniques. Driving over 900 miles to have needling done,flying out to San Diego for Exoderm, enduring smoothbeam as it stung my face to hell, mederma, silicone microdroplet(my favorite). Saving money. Getting procedures done. etc etc.
I don't know what happened but gradually along the way I just really stopped caring and obsessing about it. In the past 10 years I've went out on dates and had relationships with incredible women. Met awesome friends and have just really enjoyed life WITH a few acne scars here and there.
Was there times when I got turned down because my skin was not 100% perfect. Maybe. But so what, at the end of the day most people really don't even care. We are 100X our worst critics when compared to other people.
I write that to you and alot of the younger people on here to say that as bad as it seems now for many of you a few years from now it will be a fraction of an issue.
Keep your head up Sneakers, you still have alot of good moments in life to live.