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AmandaSA

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In Topic: How Do You Deal With The Emotional Effects?

06 October 2013 - 09:49 AM

 

I've had acne for about 10 years in varying degrees of severity depending on the stage in my life. As a teen it was bad - kids are mean, especially during middle school I find, and it was really hard to deal with. Like you, my family told me it was superficial and it didn't matter what those kids thought of me, but obviously when you're 15 it does matter! It's ridiculous that that was something I actually lost friends over. Eventually as I grew older, I was less depressed about it, but I also started wearing make-up. To the point that now, I can't go without foundation and it kills me that there are some people who I'm really close with, but I can't show them what I look like without putting makeup on.

 

I was almost clear at 21, but I screwed up (plan B.....i.e. a crap ton of testosterone in my body), and have since dealt acne again for the last year. I think it was almost harder emotionally to deal with (I'm 22 now) because I was so happy about being almost clear for the first time in my life, back to ugly breakouts. I avoided friends, cancelled plans, never made eye contact, hair in front of my face, etc. I would only be happy on the days that my skin wasn't breaking out, and I'd be crying when my skin was. Thankfully, my best friend is the one person who fully understand all my skin obsessions, and talks to me whenever I get depressed about it. I think you really have to have a good support team when it comes to dealing with the emotional side effects. I'm more reluctant to talk about it with my boyfriend, but he gets it and tells me that I'm beautiful to him. I mean, it's obviously a very boyfriend thing to say but it still means a lot to me. 

 

However, currently, I'm clear again!! I've been on Diane 35 for about 3 months and I use clindoxyl gel as a topical to help control any breakouts, and I must say, it is wonderful! It's such a huge weight lifted off my shoulders - I feel prettier, happier and more comfortable in my own skin. It's taken me so so so long to get to this point.

 

Also, I must add at this forum has been very helpful to me. I started using it this January and I really appreciate the community because we truly understand one another! (P.S. sorry for the long post) biggrin.png

I know how it feels to feel like you can't leave the house without makeup. I'm mostly clear now, but I still wear foundation to cover the scarring. i have really light skin and the scars are healing but are still pretty bad.I go out sometimes without makeup, like to the grocery store right down the road, but I'm still so self-conscious. I have to agree though, I've definitely gotten more confident over time. And, gah, isn't it crazy how a "good face day" can make you so much happier about life and a "bad face day" feels like the worst thing in the world (even though it isn't, obviously, but you know what I mean!)

 

I'm really glad I finally joined acne.org. I still don't have a close friend in real life who understands, really, but like the relationship you have with your boyfriend, my husband's very supportive and tries his best to understand (though like you I'm reluctant to complain to him too often because I know he won't really understand). For so long I refused to believe him when he told me I was beautiful and finally realized he was being honest and I needed to stop being so down on myself. Anyway, I can't believe it took me so long to join acne.org. I was mainly creeping around on Cassandra Bankson's youtube and blog and getting support from there.

 

I'm so happy to hear you're clear again! It's great that you've seen such great results in such a short time. I do have to say though that I've done a lot of research in the past year trying to figure out alternatives for myself and I've heard some not so great things about Diane 35 (especially in the news lately).  I think it's banned in certain areas because of the serious side effects so I would just caution you about staying on it too long. I don't mean to dog your methods, I'd just feel very bad if I didn't say anything.

 

I know how it feels though to want to stick with something that works even if the side effects might be bad. In the past 5 years (I'll be 25 soon) I've been on so many oral and topical antibiotics, tretinoin, three kinds of birth control. The birth control worked, but the side effects were horrible. And now I've got serious GI issues due to the antibiotics. I wish I could go back in time. Like I said though I've been doing a lot of research on diet and alternative acne treatments. I've revamped my diet and stopped the Ortho Tricyclen/tretioin/topical clindamycin and started taking an acne medicine called AcnEase that has no side effects. It's been such a relief to not be scared of how I'm treating my acne. It's been two months and I'm seeing great results from it. You might at least check it out, do some research and think about trying it as a future alternative to staying on the Diane 35.

 

here's a about the birth control issues. (I did Yaz, Yasmin, and Ocella, too--luckily I didn't have any life-threatening side effects from those though)

 

P.S. Sorry for my long post too. whistling.gif)

 

Yeah, I believe that it's banned in France but in Canada (where I'm from), they decided that benefits outweigh the risks. But I think with any high-estrogen pill, it comes with an increased risk of blood clots. There were around 11 cases tied to Diane 35 and 23 to Yaz/Yasmin in Canada, which I don't think is sufficient enough proof to demonstrate any direct correlation. Besides, I don't smoke, I'm not predispositioned to have blood clots, and I live generally healthily, so I'm not too worried about the side effects. My doctor and I are pretty close so we had a lengthy discussion about it. But still I don't plan to stay on Diane 35 forever..but we'll cross that bridge when we get there! smile.png

 

Luckily I haven't ever gotten any bad side effects from my acne treatments....sorry to hear about your GI problems. sad.png I've heard about AcnEase before (also from Cassandra!) and I thought about going on it, but I ended up going to the doc to treat my acne instead. Also I thought it was kind of weird 'cause you have to take so many pills a day, LOL, don't you start off with like 8 or something crazy like that?! But Cassandra's skin has gotten a lot better over the years, but I don't know what the rest of her regimen looks like. 

 

I've been checking the forums every day since I've joined! I've only recently started to post a lot - I used to just creep and get support from reading other people's posts, but now I feel like I want to contribute to the forum since it's helped me so much. It's a great place to ask for suggestions, tips, help with products, etc, so I'm glad you finally joined. smile.png

I'm really glad to hear you've done your research too.  smile.png I was on Yaz then Yasmin for three years, then ortho for (2 I think?) years, so that's why I crossed my bridge this year, so to speak. Plus I want to have kids soon so I needed something safe for that.

 

That's good you haven't gotten any bad side effects. Cassandra's where I first heard about AcnEase too. (Don't you love how excited she gets about stuff? It's hard for it to not rub off on you lol) It took me a whole year to research, talk to my doctors and finally get up the nerve to stop all my acne medications and switch to AcnEase. I felt like such a dork trying to explain to people why it was such a big deal. Like, my husband kept saying, Haven't you quit already? What's the big deal? But yeah, hard to explain how scary it is to quit something that's essentially working for something else to people who don't understand.

 

And yeah, it is a lot of pills a day (especially if you have severe acne) but I think that's how botanical products are because there's no preservatives/chemicals/etc. I hate taking pills, but these are pretty small so I just toss them down all together. Lol

 

I'm pretty much still in creep mode on here, lol. That's how I was on Twitter too for the longest time, and now I'm on Twitter what sometimes feels like 24/7 (not lately though...too busy). Thanks for the warm welcome to the forums! smile.png


In Topic: Nuts And Acne

04 October 2013 - 01:17 PM

I've heard some things too about nuts aggravating acne, but I've been ignoring it because I eat almond butter and drink almond milk like three times a day and don't want to stop. lol. But the last thing I read was saying how, if you have digestive problems, nuts might be making them worse, which could be affecting acne flare-ups. I guess I need to try cutting them out too and just see if it makes a difference. But maybe in butter/milk form, they're okay? That's something I need to research.

 

One, almonds aren't nuts.  Two, you could still be intolerant to them. And no, eating them in butter or milk form won't help.  Soaking them until they sprout can help and that might be done prior to making butter or milk, but it's doubtful that was done in whatever commercial product you are buying..

Oh, wow. I can't believe I thought they were nuts for so long. Thanks for the info!


In Topic: How Do You Deal With The Emotional Effects?

04 October 2013 - 01:15 PM

I've had acne for about 10 years in varying degrees of severity depending on the stage in my life. As a teen it was bad - kids are mean, especially during middle school I find, and it was really hard to deal with. Like you, my family told me it was superficial and it didn't matter what those kids thought of me, but obviously when you're 15 it does matter! It's ridiculous that that was something I actually lost friends over. Eventually as I grew older, I was less depressed about it, but I also started wearing make-up. To the point that now, I can't go without foundation and it kills me that there are some people who I'm really close with, but I can't show them what I look like without putting makeup on.

 

I was almost clear at 21, but I screwed up (plan B.....i.e. a crap ton of testosterone in my body), and have since dealt acne again for the last year. I think it was almost harder emotionally to deal with (I'm 22 now) because I was so happy about being almost clear for the first time in my life, back to ugly breakouts. I avoided friends, cancelled plans, never made eye contact, hair in front of my face, etc. I would only be happy on the days that my skin wasn't breaking out, and I'd be crying when my skin was. Thankfully, my best friend is the one person who fully understand all my skin obsessions, and talks to me whenever I get depressed about it. I think you really have to have a good support team when it comes to dealing with the emotional side effects. I'm more reluctant to talk about it with my boyfriend, but he gets it and tells me that I'm beautiful to him. I mean, it's obviously a very boyfriend thing to say but it still means a lot to me. 

 

However, currently, I'm clear again!! I've been on Diane 35 for about 3 months and I use clindoxyl gel as a topical to help control any breakouts, and I must say, it is wonderful! It's such a huge weight lifted off my shoulders - I feel prettier, happier and more comfortable in my own skin. It's taken me so so so long to get to this point.

 

Also, I must add at this forum has been very helpful to me. I started using it this January and I really appreciate the community because we truly understand one another! (P.S. sorry for the long post) biggrin.png

I know how it feels to feel like you can't leave the house without makeup. I'm mostly clear now, but I still wear foundation to cover the scarring. i have really light skin and the scars are healing but are still pretty bad.I go out sometimes without makeup, like to the grocery store right down the road, but I'm still so self-conscious. I have to agree though, I've definitely gotten more confident over time. And, gah, isn't it crazy how a "good face day" can make you so much happier about life and a "bad face day" feels like the worst thing in the world (even though it isn't, obviously, but you know what I mean!)

 

I'm really glad I finally joined acne.org. I still don't have a close friend in real life who understands, really, but like the relationship you have with your boyfriend, my husband's very supportive and tries his best to understand (though like you I'm reluctant to complain to him too often because I know he won't really understand). For so long I refused to believe him when he told me I was beautiful and finally realized he was being honest and I needed to stop being so down on myself. Anyway, I can't believe it took me so long to join acne.org. I was mainly creeping around on Cassandra Bankson's youtube and blog and getting support from there.

 

I'm so happy to hear you're clear again! It's great that you've seen such great results in such a short time. I do have to say though that I've done a lot of research in the past year trying to figure out alternatives for myself and I've heard some not so great things about Diane 35 (especially in the news lately).  I think it's banned in certain areas because of the serious side effects so I would just caution you about staying on it too long. I don't mean to dog your methods, I'd just feel very bad if I didn't say anything.

 

I know how it feels though to want to stick with something that works even if the side effects might be bad. In the past 5 years (I'll be 25 soon) I've been on so many oral and topical antibiotics, tretinoin, three kinds of birth control. The birth control worked, but the side effects were horrible. And now I've got serious GI issues due to the antibiotics. I wish I could go back in time. Like I said though I've been doing a lot of research on diet and alternative acne treatments. I've revamped my diet and stopped the Ortho Tricyclen/tretioin/topical clindamycin and started taking an acne medicine called AcnEase that has no side effects. It's been such a relief to not be scared of how I'm treating my acne. It's been two months and I'm seeing great results from it. You might at least check it out, do some research and think about trying it as a future alternative to staying on the Diane 35.

 

here's a link about the birth control issues. (I did Yaz, Yasmin, and Ocella, too--luckily I didn't have any life-threatening side effects from those though)

 

P.S. Sorry for my long post too. whistling.gif)


In Topic: Has Anyone Else Got To The Stage Of Not Leaving The House?

03 October 2013 - 01:08 PM

I feel the exact same way. I'm 18 and have been suffering with acne for so so long. Its a combination of genetics and hormones so I get the really huge painful ones under my skin, on top of the regular breakouts all over the face as well. I've been obsessing to the point of where I would just examine how ugly my face is with each pimple. Comments flow in from everywhere saying "do this, do that, do you wash your face?, etc. At this point, I've given up going out in the daytime unless it's either my family or my best friends that i'm with, because they know how my skin is, and this makes me feel ALOT better because I can get out and enjoy life without being so self-conscious about myself.

 

Feel a bit relieved to see that someone is on the same boat as me though! As for makeup, after much experimentation I have come to the conclusion that with cystic acne, the only makeup worth putting on is concealer for the dark spots as it does nothing to cover the size of the pimples. Although it may not seem like a good thing, this means that there is less makeup on your face, and I don't know about you but that makes me feel a lot better! What I do is I go a bit heavy on the eye makeup so that at least I get compliments on my eyes shy.gif .

 

Thank you so much for your reply! I'm really sorry to hear you're going through this as well but it is also nice to feel I'm not totally alone in experiencing this. I hate it when other people make comments when really they don't have the first clue about acne. I know they're only trying to help and all but it just makes you feel so much worse! That's great that you can go out with your family and friends without feeling self-conscious. Only my parents know what my skin is like without make-up so I spend most of the time in the house at the moment. I'm just really worried about going back to university after the summer now because I'll be living in a house with three of my friends who have never seen me without make-up before and are just going to think I look like a monster sad.png

 

Make-up with cysts is such a nightmare! I always still go for the full foundation but it does nothing to cover the bumpy appearance as you say. If I put less make-up on I just feel more self-conscious and therefore much much worse so it's not even worth me trying to cut down on it because I just end up not talking to anyone. Haha good shout with the eye make-up! I used to always do that in my teens but now I don't wear eye make-up at all because I don't want to do anything that draws any extra attention to my face. I also don't wear jewellery except on my wrists for exactly the same reason. Kind of sad really...

Have you guys ever checked out Cassandra Bankson on YouTube? She has a full foundation routine that works amazing for her and I'm pretty sure she has (or had, at least) cystic acne.. I haven't actually tried her routine though. I just bought an airbrush makeup system  a few years ago because I have no patience for layering on foundation. But it could be worth a try.

 

And I agree, it's so frustrating when people who don't understand how it feels to have acne make comments about it. I've always had a hard time dealing with  it emotionally because people will always say, like, you're just being superficial, you shouldn't let it bother you, etc. etc. There's a free webinar next week about this actually. It's from Herborium and they're talking about how to empower yourself to overcome the physical and emotional effects of acne. You also get a personalized plan for how to break the cycle of acne. Maybe I will see you there! whistling.gif) *Moderator edit, URL removed – please read the board rules*
 


In Topic: Nobody I Know Can Relate To My Acne.

30 September 2013 - 06:03 PM

I'm so sorry you had to deal with than man at the movie theater. I've been there, only it's always been little kids saying things (I worked in retail for forever). Little kids and old people--I guess sometimes they just don't know when to NOT voice their thoughts. I didn’t struggle with acne until college but let me tell you, it hit me hard. It doesn't really run in my family, I don't think, but my younger brother who's your age has it too. He's never seemed all that affected by it emotionally, which always surprised me, because when my acne was at its worse it was all I could think about. I missed out on so many opportunities because I was embarrassed. And even now, when my skin is relatively clear, the emotional effects are still there. I'm still not as confident as I know I should be. All that to say, my heart goes out to you. I truly believe it makes you a stronger person. It's like, you first have to make sure you're doing all that you can to treat your acne, and then you rest easy knowing you're doing all you can, and you just have to focus on enjoying life. you only get one life, and you don't want acne to control it. (I still have to remind myself this, but I know it's true!!) 

You said you wash your face every day, but you might try going beyond just washing and doing toning, moisturizing and exfoliating too. I know guys aren't into that stuff (my husband still insists on putting rubbing alcohol on his rare pimples) but it could help. *Moderator edit, URL removed – please read the board rules*
 

 

It sounds like your girlfriend really cares about you. I've had those same thoughts about my husband (who was my boyfriend for 8 years before we got married, all through HS and college when I was dealing with severe acne), wondering how on Earth it didn't seem to bother him. I think the only thing that bothered him was that I let it bother me. He hated seeing me so sad and insecure. I want to cry (okay, I am crying) thinking back to when my acne was at its worst, when he would tell me I was beautiful and I did not, WOULD not believe him. But this is what I eventually did: think about the roles being reversed. Wouldn't you still care about your gf just as much if she were dealing with acne? She sees past that, so you have to, too. We're always the hardest on ourselves.

 

P.S. if you're not into the DIY skincare, you can always find products with those same ingredients/properties. The point is to still do those things (clean, exfoliate once a week, tone and moisturize--even acne-prone skin needs to be mosturized, otherwise it'll just produce more oil)