What im worried about is how they'll react when the see my face full of marks and some active acne.
They won't care about it, I swear.
But I know it's hard, and that in your head it must sound like "I'm just an ugly and huge spot walking on the street". But you're no
Never going to have a girlfriend with the way I look.
There are plenty of people here who have acne AND a BF or GF.
Clear skin can bring self-confidence, I cannot deny it does (and trust me I'm not on this forum for nothing...), but, still, it's not what will make someone like you or not.
And by the way, I deeply understand what you've just said...