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Perseverance92

Member Since 20 Apr 2013
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#3406944 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Perseverance92 on 10 January 2014 - 11:33 AM

My acne bickering gave way to a pointless debate with aanabill (Don't know where she is these days).The topic of the debate was ridiculous.I was of the opinion that acne is sometimes more debilitating than fatal diseases like cancer . I quoted "Cancer kills you once but acne weakens you everyday".Aanabill opposed this and said i'm completely wrong.We fought and finally she won.She told me how immature i was . Even though i accepted my defeat i had this nagging doubt in my mind .

 

The doubt has been cleared.What a fool i have been.I have taken life for granted.I have taken all the happy things in my life for granted.

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Recently my grandmother got her inner cheek biopsy done (She complained of a chronic ulcer).To our horror the biopsy report said it was squamous cell carcinoma.My grandmother is one of those few people in this world to whom i'm very attached.My mother despite being a doctor broke down in tears (well a mother is a mother).After many years i cried.And i remembered my debate with aana. My ugly ideology made me squeamish... I felt repentance. Now my grandmother had her mandablectomy done and the cancer has been removed.She's convalescing in the hospital.I have changed my views.This life changing event has made me wiser.

 

(I miss talking with aanabill on various topics . I guess she was a popular figure here.)




#3389561 The Realities Of Acne

Posted by Perseverance92 on 19 October 2013 - 01:46 PM

"Doubt is to certainty as neurosis is to psychosis. The neurotic is in doubt and has fears about persons and things; the psychotic has convictions and makes claims about them. In short, the neurotic has problems, the psychotic has solutions."


Thomas Szasz,

-renowned psychiatrist and academic in the field

 

 

Read it. Think about it. Then apply it to what you've read in this thread. Maybe you guys can learn something about the different ways some people choose to deal with their issues; whether it be acne or anything else. 

If it's something written by CBIOT13...well,you don't miss it! I love your quotes man!




#3389559 Something That Helped Me

Posted by Perseverance92 on 19 October 2013 - 01:36 PM

Reading this was very reassuring  . You're a beautiful girl :)




#3378337 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Perseverance92 on 27 August 2013 - 03:21 PM

Scars make me feel debilitated...eusa_wall.gif




#3374750 Masturbation / Acne Experiement 2010 // 2011 // 2012 !

Posted by Perseverance92 on 14 August 2013 - 11:08 AM

My 8th day.And this time i'm not going to deter from my goal.I AM NOT GOING TO FALL FOR THE TRAP.I'll throw the iphone ,the moment my fingers wander and type unwanted website addresses on the browser.




#3370539 Ideas Of Dishes/preparations/food Items Okay For A College Student(Dorm) Or A...

Posted by Perseverance92 on 31 July 2013 - 05:19 AM

Well the place from where i hail, children who have a problem sweet tooth and who crave for sweets all the time are given a healthier sweet dish.They mix sattu + cold water +lots of sugar.It's a delicious thick paste which kids gulp like pre- digested food smile.png . I loved it when i was small. 
                                                                          Now, people also eat roasted sattu. And it tastes pretty good.

lots of sugar?

ur health won't like it.

 

use a lil' jaggery.jaggery is good in terms of nutrients too.

arey i was talking about childhood... went in an anecdotal mode. Yeah i love jaggery :)




#3369830 Ideas Of Dishes/preparations/food Items Okay For A College Student(Dorm) Or A...

Posted by Perseverance92 on 28 July 2013 - 10:18 AM

Well the place from where i hail, children who have a problem sweet tooth and who crave for sweets all the time are given a healthier sweet dish.They mix sattu + cold water +lots of sugar.It's a delicious thick paste which kids gulp like pre- digested food :) . I loved it when i was small. 
                                                                          Now, people also eat roasted sattu. And it tastes pretty good.


#3369269 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Perseverance92 on 26 July 2013 - 02:54 AM

This place is full of beautiful people.I sometimes get overwhelmed by the goodness here.If everyone in this world becomes like people here then "heaven" wouldn't be a vague concept anymore. :)




#3367777 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Perseverance92 on 20 July 2013 - 11:40 AM

I've never felt more inferior.Today my  friends went to a club accompanied by their stunning girlfriends.They hogged before going .The food which they ate might be the last thing an acne afflicted individual might want to ingest.It was full of salt,butter etc.They drank 6 Heineken cans each so that they don't have to pay for alcohol at the club where beer is sold at thrice it's price.The girls looked so beautiful...The guys had flawless skin.They eat everything ,drink beer and even then they have immaculate skin which shines.I sat there watching them.I clicked photographs of the couples with lecherous smiles ,the smile which a guy has on his face when he knows ...that the night has something in store for him.

                                    I am so fussy about my food.I eat only the right food.Egg whites,green tea,less salt,almost zero sugar,no simple carbohydrates...And then what result do i get? Red inflamed skin... Life is a drudgery for me.I am not living it the way a guy my age is supposed to.While my friends are having the time of their lives with their girls at the club,i'm reading economic times(i'm not jealous)... About the sinking Indian economy and the draconian steps of the RBI to counter it.My whole life would be spent alone reading... I'm sick of being alone.My life is a drab.I hate my life sometimes. 

                                                                         What's the bloody purpose of my life? To study all the time? To prepare for exams ...so that i can redeem ? Redeem for not becoming a doctor ...Redeem for not fulfilling my mother's dreams and ambitions ? Get into a top B school... But what will i do after that? Because i'll always have a SHIT life.And no i'm not being negative... It's SHIT. ALWAYS!

                                                                           I drink beer=breakout. I workout=breakout. I eat my favorite food=breakout. I service myself=breakout. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH MY BODY. Wouldn't being dead be the same as the life i'm living?

 

 

It stinks to be living the life i'm living.




#3366764 I Want To Give Up.

Posted by Perseverance92 on 16 July 2013 - 02:50 AM

Posts like yours are really heart wrenching.I can feel how distressed you are because of your current predicament. In fact i am in the same situation as yours.I feel shameful sometimes that i let a puny skin disease namely acne to cause mood swings in me.A few blemishes and scars on my face plays with my confidence and ruins my day.Am i so weak?... 

                                Acne stymies me.I can't get to live like others.I have developed certain complexes which manifest themselves in the form of anti-social behavior.

I get regular stares by people in my college.I don't know why they stare.Is it because of my scars? Active acne? Or because of my seemingly dismal countenance?...It's a mystery for me.But it's disturbing.I tend to ignore it but every now and then it saddens me deeply.But i cannot help it.I cannot ask people to not stare...And this gives rise to a feeling of desperate helplessness.It throws me in a downward spiral.The entire day becomes gloomy.

                                      To battle this empty/sad feeling in the class and college iv'e started to carry a book with me.So whenever i am free i read my book instead of sitting idle and looking here and there.It really helps me.It actually heals me.It's pure catharsis.

                                                     Another habit of mine which you may find absolutely ludicrous is not wearing spectacles.I have myopia.Iv'e seen when i don't wear my spectacles i am happier.Because i miss unnecessary details which only bring unhappiness to me.Like i can't register faces of people very far away ,so even if they stare at me i don't give a shit because they are invisible LOL. I know this may sound really dumb to you but it's my solution :)



And don't give up  . Your perseverance will be rewarded :)




#3363780 Sudden Itchy Red Skin Which Left Red Uneven Skin,zit And Bumpy Skin(Feels Lik...

Posted by Perseverance92 on 04 July 2013 - 08:48 AM

Don't let all the problems (personal,professional and skin) affect you at once.The pressure would be too much to gauge effectively.The trick is to deal with one problem at a time.And since you are a student ,try focusing more on your studies rather than stressing over your skin because again ,stressing won't make it better.

Try meditation when you think things are getting out of your control.Dance to DE-stress which i'm sure you must already be doing.

 

Don't be distraught.I know things get ridiculously bad when there are a lot of bad things in combination with your bad skin.But we can't really help it by stressing.Like i have bad skin and currently i'm stressed over shifting in my apartment and getting my things set.But i have been observing that sleeping well WORKS :) .So sleep well and sleep on time.

 

At the end of the day skin is just skin.Like CBIOT13 said.Don't let it usurp your life and happiness :)

 

And ,yes ice or even icy water does wonders to me.It reduces the swelling remarkably.




#3363770 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Perseverance92 on 04 July 2013 - 08:13 AM

Great :)




#3363252 Don't You Hate It When...(Pet Peeve)

Posted by Perseverance92 on 02 July 2013 - 01:26 AM

Well i don't know much on this since i'm a guy.But yes if i were a woman and had somebody commented on my makeup and skin,i'd sure feel uncomfortable.It's nobody's business but your's. 




#3362567 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Perseverance92 on 29 June 2013 - 10:20 AM

I saw myself on video today, and I'm completely clear, but... I look so awkward and ugly. I feel like no one could ever find me physically attractive. I never thought I was unattractive when I talked and moved and laughed. But, I am... My front teeth are different lengths, my eyes get all squinty, my smile is too big, and my face stretches weirdly when I talk/smile :*( 

 

I got a 36 on my MCAT though!!! And I thought I did awfully! A 36 with my GPA and extensive shadowing, volunteering, and campus involvement (I didn't do it for the resume, though. I've filled my life with my passions, and hopefully, it will show...) is good enough to get an interview in any medical school in the country! 

With that MCAT score you can possibly  apply to any medicine college! You have a really bright career girl .May you become a compassionate doctor someday! I wish you become a great dermatologist and do some groundbreaking research and smash 'em all pimples in their roots smile.png

 

My good wishes.



I'm not gonna type anything negative here from this point on wards.You know talk positive and stuff... I'll type all ++++ stuff. So here's my first ++++ "Beautiful day! All clear! I love everything.I'm in love with my life!" . YO  beautiful people out there. 

 

Hugs. 




#3361942 Do You Guys Ever Feel Lonely Or Out Of Place Becuase Of Your Diet Or Lifestyle?

Posted by Perseverance92 on 27 June 2013 - 09:02 AM

While i was reading your post i actually relived moments of my life which happen like everyday when i'm in my college and hostel.Being fastidious about your diet and lifestyle may reap benefits but it's an eyebrow raiser for sure.Your life is not in sync with your friends and hence they think you're trying to act smart or want to be different when in reality you're desperately trying to calm down your skin with the food YOU think is good.You get pooh poohed... And that is heart rending.

 

I'm distraught that others can eat anything,drink,smoke,take drugs,have an erratic sleep-wake schedule and YET they have immaculate skin.And then there is me.Finicky Joshua they call me.I conscientiously follow a good lifestyle just because i want good skin.And EVEN THEN i face the wrath of my sebaceous glands.Oil trickles down my face like the Niagara falls.

 

Acne.org does peps up my mood.I just love being here.I feel so happy talking to like minded people who share the same woes and grievances like me .But unfortunately there is a REAL world out there waiting for you.Waiting to pounce at you ,waiting to obliterate your faith in the goodness of humanity by their snide remarks and callous behavior.

 

My college is soon going to begin and i will have to leave my home and parents to live with my friends in an apartment.I feel gloomy the whole day.I just don't want to go back to that pathetic college life.I don't want to face the indifference ,i'd rather go to the gallows.I feel like crying sometimes but then i remind myself that i'm a 21 year old boy and that i'm not supposed to be a cry baby.Feelings build up in me continuously and there's nobody to listen to me.I live alone with my mother (My father is living in another city).I cannot tell my problems to my mother,she'll be distressed.I love her.I want to see her happy.I don't have siblings.I don't have a confidant.I have to be a MAN.I have to make my own way...

 

So you see you're not the only one tired of your life dear :)