man, this is tough. I'm reaching out everywhere I can for help right now. My photos in my gallery do not show the true extent of why I am miserable. I have gotten a couple of more scars now, and things have gotten very, very bad. I do not have a lot of money, I do not have a very nice car, I need dental work, I am in debt, and my face is effed due to scarring. I'm not sure why I even want to stay alive, but I kinda do, I guess. I want a relationship more than anything, but I believe I could not function properly in one to say the least. I do not want to go out, I do not want to see other people, I do not have any confidence, self esteem, or anything of the like. What's left? What do I have left to live for? Anyone else who feels this way, please help. How can I ever find happiness in this situation? maybe I could find a girl, but I don't think I could make her happy and if I can't make her happy, she can't make me happy. I am effed. I am going to spend the rest of my life alone and I don't want to.
I have started playing the lottery. that's not a good sign because I never did that before. (joke) (but seriously)