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Doddy46

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What The Hell Happened? Suicidal Now...

10 July 2013 - 10:39 AM

Please bear with me, and thanks for reading this as it it kinda long....

 

I've always had super oily skin. but it was always smooth, no visable pores unless I got REALLY close to the mirror, then i could sorta see them from certain angles. A massive amount of antibiotics plus huge amounts of emotinal stress (from developing permanent tinnitus) followed by several xrays on my neck, and my skin was drying out and i was getting a couple large headless red zits (i popped one and only water came out?)

 

So, in an attempt to correct this i got a 2% salicylic acid moisturizer. Used once normally twice a day for about 2 weeks. wasnt doing ANYTHING but drying out my skin. So I bough "derma E microdermabrasion" DIY at home facial scrub.

 

After using this 2-3 times a week as suggested (and followed sometimes by the sal acid) I woke up one morning and I had all these black dot holes all over my face. (this was in march) my face was also mildly burning.

 

I stopped using the products and the black holes look went away, however now i have large open pores all over the insides of my  cheeks (only where i used these prodcuts) I only ever had visable pores on my forehead, now the ones on my cheeks, (which were non existant) and all very open and everywhere, and it look s stupid being only in one area of my face.... it draws all the attention, and its in the WORST spot, right in the middle of my cheeks, *sigh*

 

its been almost 4 months now, and im not seeing much if ANY improvement. what gives? am I doomed for life to look like hell now?

 

Im also getting very blotchy and sometimes my skin flushes (for a couple minutes)

 

When this first happened i noticed small sin flakes forming inside the newly opened pores, so id wash my face a gently remove these flakes with a towel. Was this a mistake? was that my skin trying to regenerate and I F@&!*D it up?

 

I could keep going but im maily convered with the crappy over all texture of my face. I had 8 small acne scars that i actually LIKE the look of on my face, when i looked into a reflection these were all the marks i ever had, and there were oily and smooth. Now i cant ever find these scars in some reflections because of the porous/bumpy/shitty texture of my skin all of a sudden...I know this is pathetic..but I'm feeling more and more suicidal every freaking day.

 

Girls wont even look at me, where as before they would almost compete for my attention, I tried bringing up small talk with the mail lady and she looked at me like I was some Perverted freak or somthing, I cant live like this. I cant talk to girls anymore, cuz they all get the "omg stop talking to me" look... whats the point of living now? I'm 28 and havent started a family, and now will never, unless I hook up with someone who has poor health and bad genes. And why the fuck would i do that, and give my son/daughter bad unhealthy genes?? I dont think so, I want a healthy good looking G/F so I can have healthy good looking children, As I was once healthy and good looking. I  WILL NOT condem a child to the possibility of poor health / genes.

 

PLEASE, HOW CAN I FIX THIS!!???

 

I also lost ALOT of weight from chorinc stress (tinnitus) and not eating. Now I have oral thrush from a massive amount of antibiotics and I cant digest any food.

 

My neice is terrified of me all of a sudden asking me why i look so old and ugly now. coming from a 6 year old, you know shes being totally honest and innocent, so this hurts.

 

*MODERATOR EDIT*   A paragraph contained ideals that are not encouraged on this board, so it was removed.


Need Some Advice/help

26 June 2013 - 10:41 AM

OK, so Ill keep this short. Hopeing someone will provide me some straight up no bullshit thinking, hopefully with some proof or somethinbg of some kind.

 

Anyway, went on massive amounts of antibiotics, which ruined my digestion and gave me thrush, which i cant get rid of. My Super Oily skin (I could smear oil arounbd my face in the mirror and watch it spread around up close, likes little pools of oil under where my finger is) Is now dry and greasy. Also started getting pimples, which i havent had in 2 years, perfectly acne free. So, i freaked (having dealt with acne for 10 years, and it went away all on its own, with no effort on my part) and went and bought neutrogena 3-1 hydrating salicylic acid treatment. Used this once normally twice a day (ive never washed twice a day befor this either ... but, instructions...) after 2 weeks, it had absolutly no effect and zits were still cominig (thanks antibiotics for messing up my internal plumbing). Then I saw Derma E microdermabrasion at shoppers drug mart, on sale so i bought it. After the first use i could sorta see pores (which were completely invisable at this point) or i thought i saw pores, anyway, shook it off as part of what ever it is it does (said gets rif of mild acne scarring, which i have a small few really light acne scars, so i though PERFECT) anyway long story short, i rubbed it too hard into my face and woke up one day with black holes all over my face. This had gone away, but all my pores are still very visalbe and open all over my face, some are as big as the acne scars. it has been almost 3 months. My skin when i first did this burned every morning, that has gone away. but large pores and flaking skin still everywhere. I didnt use it on the sides of my face and it still has smooth skin, smooth nose, smooth forehead. But on the inside cheeks, where i used derma e, the texture is a mess, and its also congested now from shit getting stuck in pores, and still getting some acne from antibiotics. Ill worship the ground of whomever has any advice on how to deal with this, or if my pores wil eventually return to normal. Please helps guys, face looks like HELL, literally, like my cheeks have aged 20 years over night. Skin still dry from antibiotics too (Amoxicillin, large amounts and Clindamycin, also, large amounts. Both orally)

 

PLease someone with some knowledge help me out here, Am I doomed to Dry, greasy, red, irrated, flakey (id get occasional under skin bumps, that would pop with little pressure, and go away, no redness and no large pores in less than 1 hour) Now if i pop a pimple the skin around it (where im puttting pressure with my fingers) flakes off leaving a red blotch. And acne prone skin forever now? FML!!...

 

any chance these pores will return to anywhere near normal from this damage caused by at home DIY microdermabrasion (aluminum Oxide crystals) If it helps I rubbed them into my skin till i couldnt feel anymore crystals..... i think that was wrong. please advise!!


Don't Know What To Do Anymore

10 April 2013 - 02:35 PM

Long story short, had mild, very mild cystic acne that stated along jaw line from 15 to 19 almost never washed my face, went away. Started getting it on cheeks instead from 20 to 26 would wash everyday first few years with just regular bar soap, nothing to serious acnewise, redness always healed after awhile. By 26 totally cleared, had a few scars and some large pores, but otherwise blemish free skin. Was always super oily, I'd wash and it would get slightly flakey type dry, but a few hours later would be nice and oily smooth again. The odd blackhead, tiny whitehead, or most often odd underskin bump that didn't turn red and was almost unnoticeable, I'd pop all these and by the end of the day, upto maximum of 3 days, I'd have absolutely no reminence of it left, not even a red spot. Fast forward to today went on antibiotics first for "ear infection, wasn't an ear infection. Then more for accessed tooth, followed by more for strep throat. My oily skin is now greasy and dry at the same time getting ass loads of small red pimples, irrational marks I guess (just small reddened marks that looks like a scratched myself) with no pimples. My overall complexion of my cheeks is slightly reddened and my pores are almost as large as my scars... I don't know what to do anymore, it gets worse everyday. If I pop a pimples the area I pop flakes off in a large flake off skin, this has NEVER been the case. Hoping someone has any ideas as to what is going on...become very depressed, quit job, broke up with gf and am beggining to abandon my friends... I'm now 27. Less than a year of clear skin, what is with this shit. I'd love to kick those antibiotic pushing doctors straight in damn teeth...


Candida Cell Wall Suppressor

31 March 2013 - 03:40 PM

First off, I want to say I realize this is my first.and maybe only post, so please don't be turned off by that far fact. Generally if I see anyone promoting a product with only one post it raises a huge red flag for me. Anyways I've been doing alot of reading recently, for the fact that, I had acne since 14, never terrible but few whiteheads, and the odd red cyst. I never washed my face and these cleared up in time. Then I started getting them only on my.cheeks (which is oddly the only place I wash frequently now, for the last 6 years) this started at about 19-20 getting zits on cheeks. However I never went to any extremes, I did some proactive, half assed. All it did was causes dryness and red skin, so stopped using. Had a dermatologist prescribe bezac wash (10% bezoyol pefoxide) and stevamycin topic for and clindamycin topical. Didn't like how any of these made.my skin feel so I abandoned ship after 2 weeks of half assed usage. Then around 25 acne started to stop on its own and by half way thru age 26 all I had was some ice.pick scars and a rolling boxcar scar.or two. Even toned oily skin, nothing except the odd underskin bump that I'd pop and have no reminence of it by two days max, usually after a couple hours.There wouldn't even be any redness. Shit was great! Life was awesome, I was being. Social and even dating for again, which I hadn't do everything since 17!! Then it all changed, I developed a case.of.Tinnitus, which stupid GP gave.me.antibiotics for (500mg amoxicillin 3x daily) finished that, suprize, ringing still there, ok not.infection. 2 months after I started getting good small inflamed.red.bumps 3 on left cheek one on right and a few large under skin bumps on right. So naturally I popped all these, cause that's what I've.always done, and seemed to always work (after temporarily making my skin loom like shit) and noticed.the redness never healed. Then I got an accessed tooth and took 1000mg amoxicillin 2x daily. Now my skin is started to get dry with a bunch of what looms lime post inflammatory hyper pigmentation mark, except there's no zits...... My skin literally looks lie he'll. Then I got strep throat and was put on IV clindamycin for 2.days every 8 hours followed by 14 days of 300mg 3x daily clindamycin. My skin is now absolutrely dried the fuck out, and getting new "PIH" everyday. Also getting some closed.comedies, whiteheads blackheads. Antibiotics have ruined my nice skin, that I got finally for the first time since 14 (now 27) I only got to enjoy clear skin for maybe 8 months (by clear I mean no PIH either)

 

Anyways, all the research I've done has led.me.to believe candida overgrowth (I've always had a thich white.coat on tongue, sometimes even of the head of my dick) and.always had dandruff, so fungus was always thezre. By the way, my skin looks like shit, without having pimples, it's all red special,otcby and irrated not to mention. super.flakey dry I'VE NEVER HAD DRY SKIN...EVER! This is all due to antibiotics...*rant*...sorry, back to the point. I've noticed alot of ppl on here think they have candida so I want you all to check out "candida cell wall suppressor" and tell me what you think. It supposed to act like a flea pill and remove.chitin from the candida, which protects it.from your immune even system, allowing you to kill it off yourself. It actually sounds promising as it appears to have been discovered half assed by accident (the main ingredient is used to kill fleas and other insect that have exoskeletons, turns out fungus also uses this to protect.itself. Anyways please.check it out again Google "candida cell wall suppressor" and please.tell me what you think. I have a feeling this might actually work for candida. (sorry I don't know ow how to post links) and also sorry for bad typing, as I'm using a tablet to type.this.and its.very hard. Any comments ts on the product or.my life story greatly appreciated, especially if you have any idea as to why my skin might be so dry and flakey and irrated, also my pores looks almost as large as my scars now, which when I had very oily skin, this wasn't a problem as my ski. Looked.smooth.

 

Fuck dry skin, stay oily, DO NOT TAKE ANTIBIOTICS, and DO NOT OVER WASH YOUR FACE! Dry Skin is worse.than oily skin, and if your ski. Is oily it is.protected and doesn't.produce more. If you over dry your skin uou will try to make more sebum which your dry skin will trap and cause pimples. Use.the towel method (soft hand towels that are SMOOTH, not fabricky as this will suckered out all your sebum and dry your skin, BAD IDEA. Your Skin will heal itself so long as your healthy, antibiotics cause.poor health, again DO NOT TAKE ANTIBIOTICS! Please!!!!