AlexanderJ86

I would go to the beach.

Why the f*ck is there a religious discussion in this topic???

 

still feeling as crappy as always... i just hate it when people look at me coz i start thinking every negative thoughts that there is....

 

This is what fucks my confidence up too. People very rarely comment on my face or ask me what's wrong directly to me. But I KNOW that even if they're not saying it, they're definitely thinking it. And even probably talk about it with other people when I'm not with them

How do you know such things? Can you read their minds? Even then, who cares that they do that anyway? I think that people talk about me too, but that does not stop me from being outgoing, because they are not avoiding me even when they think negative about me.

It is a problem when large groups of people are avoiding you, because then you are being bullied. That is when you have to get out of there and search for new people.

This obsession that a lot of people have with losing their virginity just for the sake of it...

No, I have an obsession with wanting to know that I can get a girlfriend. Sex is not my objective. I just want to discover that there are girls out there who want me. Even if a relationship would only last for 2 seconds, that would be enough for me. I want to be in the market.

And I'm not going to spend my entire life searching. That would be a waste of time and effort. There are lots of people (maybe the majority?) out there who wander from one relationship into another. I find it extremely silly that I have to be alone all the time. I see all my friends get a relationship, they are going to move and live together and I stand still. I don't do that voluntarily.

I hear stuff like "love comes when you're not looking", "you have to be content with your life", "you have to be positive", blablablablablablablabla, but that clearly isn't working for me. So when does love come anyway? Within 1 year, 2 years, 3 years???

I have been "not looking" for over 10 years now.

And if you are the last one left without a relationship, then YOU have a problem and not the society. There is one thing I learned and that is that you have to adapt to society and the society won't adapt to you.

How old are you?