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Pianina

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#3485514 Spiro Ruined My Face

Posted by Pianina on 23 June 2015 - 05:06 PM


Now I thought about my boyfriend's comment, that he made some time ago. We looked at my pictures from 1,5 or more years ago and he said that my face was so plump (he personally didn't think the plumpness was cute, but the point is, he saw the difference) and now I thought that my face might have changed after I started taking spiro. The difference is that I've been taking it waaaay longer than the thread's author and it's weird to me, that something would drastically change after just three week, but shit happens... Anyway, this topic made me consider getting off spiro.   


As you age you lose volume so that was probably why. It happens to us all ;)


I don't think it's that, not that much aging going on between ages 22 and 24, I hardly have any wrinkles and my parents look youthful in their late 40s. The loss of face volume happened rather quicly for me as well, just not during 3 weeks as the author of this thread experiences. It's easy to track down my pictures.
Btw you shouldn't write down other people's negative experiences with some "simple" explanation. That's insensitive of you... This drug clearly has side effects on a lot of users. 
Anyway, sick and tired of spiro and a throbbing pain on my jawline from yet another hormonal breakout doesn't make me encouraged to go through all the dizzy spells and about-to-faint experiences spiro causes me. Why take it, if it doesn't even do it's job - keep me clear. 

To the author - well just know that I understand your despair, but all spiro's side effects should be gone once you stop using it, maybe it takes some time while it gets out of your system. Good luck! 




#3485487 Spiro Ruined My Face

Posted by Pianina on 23 June 2015 - 02:15 PM

Now I thought about my boyfriend's comment, that he made some time ago. We looked at my pictures from 1,5 or more years ago and he said that my face was so plump (he personally didn't think the plumpness was cute, but the point is, he saw the difference) and now I thought that my face might have changed after I started taking spiro. The difference is that I've been taking it waaaay longer than the thread's author and it's weird to me, that something would drastically change after just three week, but shit happens... Anyway, this topic made me consider getting off spiro.   


#3481106 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Pianina on 15 May 2015 - 03:04 AM

I stopped using cleanser and moisturizer on my face. Only hemp oil from now on, even taking off eye makeup with it. So far I haven't broken out from it, hopefully it will stay that way, cause I like how my skin doesn't crave for the moisturizer anymore. I'm hopeful that not using all those comedogenic ingredient will help me clear up those persistant little pimples I'm still getting despite being almost 2 years on Yasmin and Spiro. 


#3476650 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Pianina on 01 April 2015 - 03:39 PM

Hopeless, Completely hopeless that it will get better, the acne is slowly getting under control, but the pitted scars left behind are absouletly horrendous, now amount of makeup can cover them up. I can't look in a mirror without completely hating myself, I don't go on dates, and when I have and it's ended up badly, I feel it was my acne, and scarring that they couldn't get over. I feel ugly and hopeless. I was feeling a little better earlier when I heard from my dermatoligst that fraxel lasering was the way to go, but then I read reviews, and now I am as hopeless as ever


Don't read reviews. The internet is full of horror stories about almost everything. I did 4 Fraxel Re:store procedures during September-February period, and taking a break before next autumn. My scars are deep. The improvement I saw was of 15-20%, but the thing with lasers are that results are getting more visible by time. I'd say my improvement right now is about 22-25% and getting better. No need to lose hope cause of bad reviews. Just find a good specialist. Dermarolling over a long period of time gives good results too, been following few youtuber's progress over a time (though improvement takes at least a year to see). One thing that will get you nowhere - it's feeling hopeless. There are loads of procedures out there that can help, good luck! 




#3473026 I Could Really Use Some Support :)

Posted by Pianina on 27 February 2015 - 06:38 AM

You're gonna get there, Emmygirl! Think of these 18 days as a time to prepare your body for Accutane round 2, so use it well and take some acion instead of plainly waiting! Eat well, get plently of rest and stay focused - you can do it! Imagine the clear skin you're gonna get on Accutane and send that imaginantion to the Universe. :) 




#3471409 Hormonal Imbalance With Normal Blood Work? My Story

Posted by Pianina on 12 February 2015 - 02:27 PM

All my blood tests used to come back fairly normal, yet I was diagnosed with PCOS. Do the ultrasound to find out, many symptoms points to it. 
I'm very sceptical to all kinds of naturopaths and herbal remedies. With persistant moderate acne those things rarely effective 




#3469141 Someone. Anybody. Please Help. Scar Driving Me Insane.

Posted by Pianina on 23 January 2015 - 06:06 AM

I wish I had only one scar... Been feeling very low about myself and my scarred cheeks, not much changed after 4 fraxels... But keep on trying different things, it's worth doing everything you can, be it one scar, or many


#3469012 Someone. Anybody. Please Help. Scar Driving Me Insane.

Posted by Pianina on 22 January 2015 - 09:42 AM

I agree with Tracy, on the side of getting another subcision, you should go check your mental health - might be you're devoloping body dysmorphic disorder, it's a serious thing :(




#3466833 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Pianina on 06 January 2015 - 11:02 AM

Winter climate is my worst enemy, especially when it's below zero... Breaking out a bit and struggling with dryness. Hope it will soon turn into a milder winter :/




#3461712 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Pianina on 28 November 2014 - 01:33 PM

 
Im thinking about going to the derm to talk about red marks, it cant be normal for red marks to last over a year, every pimple ive had since summer, there's still a red mark.

                                I've got some red marks that has been on my face for about two years now. Just saying so that you dont feel alone :)


#3459006 Ever Feel Suicidal?

Posted by Pianina on 07 November 2014 - 07:20 AM

Hey my scarred fellows! Hope you are doing well today. On monday i got my second fraxel re:store done, much more redness this time cause of higher settings, but otherwise fine. Dont have too big expectations this time either, this laser requires patience and i've got loads! :D one day those scars will be reduced to barely visible and ill celebrate that day!! :D


#3456874 Ever Feel Suicidal?

Posted by Pianina on 21 October 2014 - 05:18 AM

 

 

 



Khaled, I would maybe say stop having expectations based solely on clearing acne. We, who suffer from this condition, try out diets and medications with the only goal - to clear our faces, often forgetting that we should first of all start off by improving our overall health. Try making steps to a generally healthier lifestyle, without expecting that it will directly clear you up. Like really, take up something thinking : I'm doing this for better sleep/digestion/energy or whatever it could be. Like with the apple cider vinegar (I'm not preaching you should use of course, just using as an example to illustrate what I mean), if you start drinking it before every meal expecting that your face will improve, you will most likely be disappointed, because no change will occur in any reasonable time, but the step towards getting to the problem is taken - maybe it will slowly start improving your digestion, regulate blood glucose levels, then you improve your diet, workout, improve sleep... You know, cause it's good for every human being! When we have a good base it's much much easier to clear our acne as well, cause why would it thrive in a healthy body?
So my point is - don't do things for acne, do things around it, if that makes sense. A cure for each of us is usually a combination of things, not one solution, as much as we would like to...
As for relationship part - same here, don't make it your goal. Make being happy your goal.

 

Well that's actually a very insightful resolve but it's easier said than done, The most important concept I try to implement into my daily overthinking routine is a tool of emptying my brain of negative thoughts and replenishing it with optimistic ones but there's always more to it than meets the eye. I can't just snap out of the mentality that has been stuck with me my entire life "oversensitive to an indescribable extent in addition to obsessive-compulsive disorder" it's something tattooed into my genes so being stressed-out, Worried and terrified about every little detail is not something I've any control over that's just how my brain involuntarily functions.

 

Recently I've been going through hell to even have a good night's sleep because I'm always under the impression that I'm gonna have a pile of nightmares and that's actually what happens most of the time in a really disturbing way it takes me about 4 hours to get out of my absent-minded mood thinking about all the freakishly bizarre stuff that happened in my sleep it's a horror festival down there Lol, My mind has always been so malicious to me if only it listens to the voice of reason for once just for a change and stop being overwhelmingly strict

 

Sorry for rambling on about unnecessary events needed to vent out.


I don't know who told you that it's "in your genes", but please don't believe that crap we are told to believe to make ourselves feel useless. I was also convinced by my relatives, that being mentally unstable was meant for me, because of my dad and his parents, where one was an alcoholic, and the other committed suicide. Not only was I told that I'm mentally fucked up because of bad genes, but I was always treated like this fragile, sickly child who'll break into two if not careful enough. My mom always made every single cough a huge deal, and pitied me, which made me grow up thinking I'm weak and meant to have acne and be sick and act crazy. It's like programming yourself for failure. When I found a way to not let such things get to me, I couldn't understand why I let myself believe that. 
If your mind is stuck in a certain way of thinking, like compulsiveness and negativity, there's nothing wrong in seeking help in psychiatry, just think that there is a certain chemical process happening in your brain, and modern medicine have already figured out how to active certain brain parts and deactivate the others. Just don't be paralyzed by "I am meant to be this way", cause we can modify ourselves.

About the sleeping part - I understand you completely, it's a hell for me too - every time I go to sleep my brain is switched on to start analyzing things from the past, and if I finally fall asleep then I have a myriad of vivid, exhausting dreams. Tonight I finally slept well and what helped me was simply earplugs. Somehow, when all the world around you is muted, my brain was muted also. Didn't have bad dreams either, cause maybe when you're not actively thinking before falling asleep, it doesn't activate it somehow, I don't know. Try earplugs, feels weird at first, but it works to shut that nasty brain! :)




#3456563 Ever Feel Suicidal?

Posted by Pianina on 18 October 2014 - 01:01 PM

Hey guys, hope you're all doing ok. I started my fraxel re:store course, so far it's looking bright. I didn't have too big expectations from the first session as it was promised to me, that I'll see 15% of improvement and I'm sure that's exactly what I got. Every % matters when it comes to improvement. I was told that I'll need approximately 5 sessions, it's a lot of money, but I'm borrowing them from my parents, who aren't even rich, but they understand how important it is for me. I'm really thankful. 
I became a bit more obsessed with my scars after getting fraxel done, because I was forced to follow the progression and it affected me negatively. So now, when the result is final, I started avoiding any bathroom mirrors. I literally use the wc and wash my face in darkness. It helps a lot to keep my spirit, cause I'm not staring at my scars so much. Bathroom mirrors are terrible! Who invented such unflattering lights lol :D Don't look at them, it's not how other people see us!! Scars are not that visible in normal room lights :) 




#3455357 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Pianina on 10 October 2014 - 04:20 AM

Hey guys! Just wanted to share my experience with Fraxel re:store so far, treating my rolling scars left over by cystic acne. 1,5 weeks ago I got my first treatment done and I can't tell you how excited I am about the results!! No, my scars haven't magically disappeared yet, but I am very pleased with the improvement. Before going under the laser, I made sure I have realistic expectations from this treatment, maybe that's why it wasn't a disappointment. Fraxel re:store promises 15-20% improvement each time and that's exactly what I got. I noticed that the scars are not as deep and some smaller ones have become smoother. I haven't gotten any side effects! The Fraxel reviews are pretty low on this site, but I suspect that it's all about not having hopes that 1-2 treatments will solve it all. We'll see how it's gonna go later, but so far I'd recommend fraxel for sure. :)




#3451981 Ever Feel Suicidal?

Posted by Pianina on 14 September 2014 - 06:30 AM


"I was battling borderline personality disorder, depression and self-harming at the age of 17-21, along with cystic acne until age 24. But as dark as the world can look at that moment, somewhere in my mind I kept a voice telling me that there is light in a tunnel and it's really not worth taking more serious measures like ending my life. That is what I would tell other people nurturing some suicidal thoughts - however bad is it right now, there are no reasons important enough to commit suicide, just like you seek for support in a forum (which means you're conscious about the problem), look for ways to help yourself. It can really get better, at least the depression part! "

 

 

Ohhh. I'm sorry if I sounded harsh, and I'm sorry you've suffered. Didn't mean to have a go, but I just thought you were coming from a different place with things you'd said. But for what it's worth, next week I'm having my blood taken by my GP, then finally getting my referral to a dermatologist. I'm trying to stay positive as much as possible, and keep away from mirror checking all day every day
 


That's great! I really hope you will find a way out and not checking mirrors is good to keep yourself from obsessing with the scars. Myself I always avoid the mirrors in the public bathrooms or my reflection on a smartphone screen, when the sun shines directly to it. That's when it looks really bad, so I just put the phone away, hehe. My friend always laughs at me, cause I have a very weak light on while I'm in the bathroom or sometimes I don't take it on at all. Just choose to not see my flaw! 



u might not believe in destiny but things will happen every day that you have no control over ...if u don't believe me look at your past


Destiny is just a justification to make yourself feel better about the outcomes of some things...Nothing more, but a coincidence though...