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Pianina

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#3451981 Ever Feel Suicidal?

Posted by Pianina on 14 September 2014 - 06:30 AM


"I was battling borderline personality disorder, depression and self-harming at the age of 17-21, along with cystic acne until age 24. But as dark as the world can look at that moment, somewhere in my mind I kept a voice telling me that there is light in a tunnel and it's really not worth taking more serious measures like ending my life. That is what I would tell other people nurturing some suicidal thoughts - however bad is it right now, there are no reasons important enough to commit suicide, just like you seek for support in a forum (which means you're conscious about the problem), look for ways to help yourself. It can really get better, at least the depression part! "

 

 

Ohhh. I'm sorry if I sounded harsh, and I'm sorry you've suffered. Didn't mean to have a go, but I just thought you were coming from a different place with things you'd said. But for what it's worth, next week I'm having my blood taken by my GP, then finally getting my referral to a dermatologist. I'm trying to stay positive as much as possible, and keep away from mirror checking all day every day
 


That's great! I really hope you will find a way out and not checking mirrors is good to keep yourself from obsessing with the scars. Myself I always avoid the mirrors in the public bathrooms or my reflection on a smartphone screen, when the sun shines directly to it. That's when it looks really bad, so I just put the phone away, hehe. My friend always laughs at me, cause I have a very weak light on while I'm in the bathroom or sometimes I don't take it on at all. Just choose to not see my flaw! 



u might not believe in destiny but things will happen every day that you have no control over ...if u don't believe me look at your past


Destiny is just a justification to make yourself feel better about the outcomes of some things...Nothing more, but a coincidence though... 




#3451897 Ever Feel Suicidal?

Posted by Pianina on 13 September 2014 - 05:34 PM

Pianina

Just gotta echo missamua's thoughts on this. If it doesn't affect you that's great. Really. But for a lot of people it does, and being so condescending doesn't really help anyone does it? From the title of the thread it should be obvious that maybe I just wanted support or some type of connection with someone who'd been through similar experiences.

 

Facial scarring is something that can take over your life, whether you have a strong character or not. Combine depression into that, and it's a struggle for a lot of people. Maybe you don't understand it, and that's fine, but to just dismiss the fact that people's lives are in ruins and put it down to being 'weak' is something I thought we'd left in the past as a society 50 years ago.

 

Your thoughts on depression are clearly the thoughts of someone who's never suffered from it, nor understands it, so to say someone suffering depression or any mental illness is just a weak link is just silly. Look at Robin Williams for instance. Rich, famous, loved the world over, achieved things most can only dream of, yet still took his own life. There were millions of people far worse off in the world. Would you consider him a 'weak link'?

I've steered from the topic, and I don't mean to have a go, but people who stigmatize mental illness the way you do are a massive part of the problem, and it's the people suffering who bear the brunt of your ignorance.


I was battling borderline personality disorder, depression and self-harming at the age of 17-21, along with cystic acne until age 24. But as dark as the world can look at that moment, somewhere in my mind I kept a voice telling me that there is light in a tunnel and it's really not worth taking more serious measures like ending my life. That is what I would tell other people nurturing some suicidal thoughts - however bad is it right now, there are no reasons important enough to commit suicide, just like you seek for support in a forum (which means you're conscious about the problem), look for ways to help yourself. It can really get better, at least the depression part! 

 




#3427382 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Pianina on 20 April 2014 - 03:38 AM

Hey guys!
I'm rarely logging in here, but this time I just wanted to say that any side-effects I was initially having from Yasmin+Spiro have disappeared some time ago and I literally have no acne any more. Sometimes I instinctively take out my retinoid cream to do some spot treatment and after I rarely ever try where to apply it. There are no breakouts, not even small. 9 months on Yasmin and 6 on Spiro -  I'm 100 % clear.
My example is individual of course, and acne might come back after I stop taking these medications, but I can only share my positive experience so far and hope that maybe it will encourage someone with PCOS to look into birth control, as it's not such an evil.
 




#3418690 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Pianina on 06 March 2014 - 04:58 AM

My face is the clearest it has been in many years. I haven't had a single inflamed pimple or a cyst in such a long time now, my moods are stable and my periods are regular. But I realize I won't be on bcp forever. In about a year or something, I plan to slowly wean off Yasmin at the same time increasing spiro. Spiro's side effects are annoying (frequent wc need and slightly upset stomach sometimes really get on my nerves), but it's better than the blood cloth risk.
Though not having acne makes life so much easier, even with few side-effects. My self-confidence is slowly coming back.   




#3414768 Let's Be Real Guy's

Posted by Pianina on 17 February 2014 - 02:53 PM

Not having acne isn't enough. Desperation and low self-esteem is not attractive, with acne or not. 




#3397164 Do Girls Find Guys With Acne Unattractive? Or _____?

Posted by Pianina on 26 November 2013 - 03:24 AM

I find insecurity unattractive, but not acne :) 




#3395390 Questions About Reducing Androgens & Spiro

Posted by Pianina on 17 November 2013 - 04:46 PM

I'll try to answer your questions, though I've only been on Spiro for 4 weeks, but I had been taking other anti-androgen since June, so maybe it's a bit helpful anyway :)

1. No weight gain in my case (though I was keeping my thumbs crossed to get bigger breasts, teehehe). Though I noticed my jeans are bit tight on the hips area lately, but that might depend on little exercise and eating too much crap... 
2. My mood is incredibly good!!! Ever since I stopped Diane35 and switched to Yasmin it improved significantly, but when I added Spiro it got even better - no teary moods during pms etc. Boyfriend noticed and appreciated :D
3. This I can't answer... My gynecologist just gives me whatever I ask for. Tell her - why wouldn't she prescribe you Spiro? :))   




#3395369 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Pianina on 17 November 2013 - 02:15 PM

LOL Yes so far its wonderful smile.png I'm wondering if I'm speaking too soon about not having an IB, curious to know if you had one and if so, how far along where u on Spiro when you got the IB?

 

I'm extremely happy since I haven't had any major break outs now going on 4 months!!! I've been on Spiro almost a month next week and nothing but good stuff is happening to my skin but I hope I'm not speaking too soon lol smile.png I've been able to eat anything I want including trigger foods n drinks I wouldn't dare touch before like chocolate and coffee! I really believe the Spiro is working! My 19 year old son is visiting me next week and staying for 5 days, I want to be able to go to the malls, go shopping, eat out, drive around town, mingle with people and not be worried about acne! Spiro seems to be my miracle cure!! I have suffered with acne for 27 years and finally found something that actually is working without going on Accutane again.



Spiro works for me to! GO SPIRO!! lol smile.png


I haven't had one, but I was on Yasmin when I started Spiro 3-4 weeks ago. Before Spiro I was taking Androcur, which is also an anti-androgen, so maybe my body is already used to such things, though you never know. Don't be paranoid about the IB and enjoy the time you're clear - if you get one, it will be nothing you can do (and it will go away), so better not to worry about anything. :) 




#3395345 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Pianina on 17 November 2013 - 11:53 AM

I'm extremely happy since I haven't had any major break outs now going on 4 months!!! I've been on Spiro almost a month next week and nothing but good stuff is happening to my skin but I hope I'm not speaking too soon lol smile.png I've been able to eat anything I want including trigger foods n drinks I wouldn't dare touch before like chocolate and coffee! I really believe the Spiro is working! My 19 year old son is visiting me next week and staying for 5 days, I want to be able to go to the malls, go shopping, eat out, drive around town, mingle with people and not be worried about acne! Spiro seems to be my miracle cure!! I have suffered with acne for 27 years and finally found something that actually is working without going on Accutane again.



Spiro works for me to! GO SPIRO!! lol :)




#3395179 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Pianina on 16 November 2013 - 06:25 PM

Hey guys! It's been a while - since I was unfairly scolded on this thread, for writing a post full of jealousy and insecurity, didn't feel like posting here. But there are some things I wanted to say - there is hope out there! Even chronic moderate acne sufferers like me can find a cure. Today (or tomorrow, not quite sure) marks a month since I got my last breakout. It's been the clearest month in my life since a very long time - I literally got not a single pimple, despite these factors: sudden climate and sleeping regime change + change back to regular; eating whatever the heck I wanted eat (except dairy, but I don't like it anyway), including candies, potatoes, loads of bread and pasta, exotic fruits I never tasted and all kinds of foods that are usually named as triggers. I'm only telling that to point out that not always there is a link between acne and diet, and everyone should be able to find for themselves and not blindly follow the recommendations to eliminate foods.
I'm on Yasmin + 50 mg Spiro, and haven't had a single smallest breakout in a month. In 6 months time I'm planning to slowly increase my Spiro dose and decrease Yasmin, until I'm only taking Spiro.
Good luck everyone smile.png     

This is amazing! I think I may have to jump on the Spiro bandwagon. I'm getting a few spots still, but they've greatly reduced since going on Beyaz. I bet Spiro would just push me to full clarity! lol biggrin.png So happy for you!!


Try adding a small dose of Spiro, maybe that will do the trick :) For me, bcp alone didn't clear me 100%, but the combo does :) 




#3394876 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Pianina on 15 November 2013 - 03:49 AM

Hey guys! It's been a while - since I was unfairly scolded on this thread, for writing a post full of jealousy and insecurity, didn't feel like posting here. But there are some things I wanted to say - there is hope out there! Even chronic moderate acne sufferers like me can find a cure. Today (or tomorrow, not quite sure) marks a month since I got my last breakout. It's been the clearest month in my life since a very long time - I literally got not a single pimple, despite these factors: sudden climate and sleeping regime change + change back to regular; eating whatever the heck I wanted eat (except dairy, but I don't like it anyway), including candies, potatoes, loads of bread and pasta, exotic fruits I never tasted and all kinds of foods that are usually named as triggers. I'm only telling that to point out that not always there is a link between acne and diet, and everyone should be able to find for themselves and not blindly follow the recommendations to eliminate foods.
I'm on Yasmin + 50 mg Spiro, and haven't had a single smallest breakout in a month. In 6 months time I'm planning to slowly increase my Spiro dose and decrease Yasmin, until I'm only taking Spiro.
Good luck everyone :)     




#3394742 Hve You Ever Come Close To Suicide

Posted by Pianina on 14 November 2013 - 01:53 PM

This is what a normal person with her emotions in order, no issues at all, in her 30s (Starviolet), that only wanted to help, sent me via PM:

 

Sent Today, 07:27 AM

Maybe your acne is a blessing in disguise?

 

You could join the circus and become famous as a freak with horrible skin.



Don't worry, she's whether miserable herself and tries to make herself feel better by going to such forums and putting people down, or is just an internet troll. In any case, not worth feeding a troll :) 




#3394334 Belara

Posted by Pianina on 12 November 2013 - 04:59 PM

It contains estradiol and chlormadinone (synthetic progestin) which has antiandrogenic properties. I started using Belara when I was 17 years old with some breaks, then at the age of 19, when I got a sudden cystic acne flare, it helped me to clear it up quite fast. However, my period used to disappear sometimes, so I stopped taking Belara. Good luck on it! :)




#3392175 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Pianina on 03 November 2013 - 04:27 AM

Every night i have the same fear... why is this pore swollen? Why is this area painful/itching? Is this area really a little higher than the rest of my skin or i am seeing things again? Tomorrow i am going to wake up with another painful ugly thing..

Now it's the last one, i don't really remember if that area was like this or tomorrow i am going to have something nodular.. many people are going to see me.. it's not painful or itching or red.. but tomorrow it could be. Just when i start to think that it could be over.. I am afraid. Or insane.


I know it's freaking hard, but try not to be obsessed in that way, it's really unhealthy and you're only making it worse. I strongly believe that acne is aggravated by negative thoughts and emotions, so you're not doing yourself a favor by trembling over every painful spot. By panicking you won't be able to change the fact that a new pimple is growing, but by being calm and relaxed you could help it to shrink down. It sounds crazy, but it happened to me dozen of times. I came back from Brazil a week ago and there I didn't have a single tiny pimple over the whole time and growing cysts shrank down. I had my pms and ate a lot of different foods, so the only way I can explain the absence of acne is - positive emotions kept my hormones in tact. That's my tactics from now on (plus acne meds, ofc :P )
Just give yourself a break for some time. You can't change anything by crying and worrying - it will only make it worse, but maybe it will help if you'll be calm and positive? Your body is not able to improve when you're constantly making your body release stress hormones - they suppress your immune system, produce acne, increase blood pressure and sugar... 




#3391834 Soy And Spiro

Posted by Pianina on 01 November 2013 - 10:27 AM

My gynecologist told me to avoid high potassium foods like soy milk or tomatoes, because Spiro is a potassium-sparing diuretic. Besides this fact, I also read many bad things about soy - that it contains natural toxins, clot-promoting substances, blocks production of thyroid hormones and intake of essential minerals...Definitely something to avoid on or off Spiro...

I know it's hard to stay away from Japanese cuisine, I love it too! :)