Khaled, I would maybe say stop having expectations based solely on clearing acne. We, who suffer from this condition, try out diets and medications with the only goal - to clear our faces, often forgetting that we should first of all start off by improving our overall health. Try making steps to a generally healthier lifestyle, without expecting that it will directly clear you up. Like really, take up something thinking : I'm doing this for better sleep/digestion/energy or whatever it could be. Like with the apple cider vinegar (I'm not preaching you should use of course, just using as an example to illustrate what I mean), if you start drinking it before every meal expecting that your face will improve, you will most likely be disappointed, because no change will occur in any reasonable time, but the step towards getting to the problem is taken - maybe it will slowly start improving your digestion, regulate blood glucose levels, then you improve your diet, workout, improve sleep... You know, cause it's good for every human being! When we have a good base it's much much easier to clear our acne as well, cause why would it thrive in a healthy body?
So my point is - don't do things for acne, do things around it, if that makes sense. A cure for each of us is usually a combination of things, not one solution, as much as we would like to...
As for relationship part - same here, don't make it your goal. Make being happy your goal.
Well that's actually a very insightful resolve but it's easier said than done, The most important concept I try to implement into my daily overthinking routine is a tool of emptying my brain of negative thoughts and replenishing it with optimistic ones but there's always more to it than meets the eye. I can't just snap out of the mentality that has been stuck with me my entire life "oversensitive to an indescribable extent in addition to obsessive-compulsive disorder" it's something tattooed into my genes so being stressed-out, Worried and terrified about every little detail is not something I've any control over that's just how my brain involuntarily functions.
Recently I've been going through hell to even have a good night's sleep because I'm always under the impression that I'm gonna have a pile of nightmares and that's actually what happens most of the time in a really disturbing way it takes me about 4 hours to get out of my absent-minded mood thinking about all the freakishly bizarre stuff that happened in my sleep it's a horror festival down there Lol, My mind has always been so malicious to me if only it listens to the voice of reason for once just for a change and stop being overwhelmingly strict
Sorry for rambling on about unnecessary events needed to vent out.
I don't know who told you that it's "in your genes", but please don't believe that crap we are told to believe to make ourselves feel useless. I was also convinced by my relatives, that being mentally unstable was meant for me, because of my dad and his parents, where one was an alcoholic, and the other committed suicide. Not only was I told that I'm mentally fucked up because of bad genes, but I was always treated like this fragile, sickly child who'll break into two if not careful enough. My mom always made every single cough a huge deal, and pitied me, which made me grow up thinking I'm weak and meant to have acne and be sick and act crazy. It's like programming yourself for failure. When I found a way to not let such things get to me, I couldn't understand why I let myself believe that.
If your mind is stuck in a certain way of thinking, like compulsiveness and negativity, there's nothing wrong in seeking help in psychiatry, just think that there is a certain chemical process happening in your brain, and modern medicine have already figured out how to active certain brain parts and deactivate the others. Just don't be paralyzed by "I am meant to be this way", cause we can modify ourselves.
About the sleeping part - I understand you completely, it's a hell for me too - every time I go to sleep my brain is switched on to start analyzing things from the past, and if I finally fall asleep then I have a myriad of vivid, exhausting dreams. Tonight I finally slept well and what helped me was simply earplugs. Somehow, when all the world around you is muted, my brain was muted also. Didn't have bad dreams either, cause maybe when you're not actively thinking before falling asleep, it doesn't activate it somehow, I don't know. Try earplugs, feels weird at first, but it works to shut that nasty brain! )