I almost cried reading this. Every single thing you wrote was EXACTLY what my life has been like for the past few years. What hurt the most was that people never understood why I took so long to get ready and they'd get so angry at me for always being late, but I had this terrible fear of leaving my house, plus it took me hours to feel like I could face the world and I just never could be ready on time. I never wanted to admit why though, it was too embarrassing. And because my skin before Accutane was sooooooooo oily I had to wash my face and reapply everything half-way through the day. Everyone thought I was vain, when really I was just suffering in silence. This website is a Godsend.
Putting on make-up even when you're not going anywhere because you can't have your roommates seeing your acne!! (What a waste of make-up...)
I used to do that tooo and then when I moved back home I'd still put it on just for my family. It took a long time, and a lot of skin clearing before I was comfortable without makeup just in front of my family!