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My (ex) dermatologist injected what he thought was scar tissue with 8mg solution of kenalog, only for me to find out later that is WAY TOO MUCH. It has looked like this for 6 weeks now and I feel like it's still getting worse. It has jagged edges and the skin feels very unhealthy. I have a plastic surgery consult tomorrow, based on pictures he thinks the entire area will need to be excised. I WANT TO SUE, I have cried over what that horrible man has done to my face. My new derm thinks it will fill in. YEA RIGHT.

The best part? I've got this on the other side of my mouth as well, a long line running down the side of my face. I'm a freakshow.

It's been like this for months. Get a syntax error any time you try to access a blog from a user's profile. Incredibly annoying.

So the first two months on accutane I got blood tests, after the 2nd month my Dr said "lets just do the pregnancy test next month since everything came out fine" I said ok, thinking the month after I would get another one. I called my derm yesterday to get a lab slip, and they said thats not their policy. That once all bloodwork looks ok they don't do any more blood tests. I said I've never heard of that with accutane and they said well thats how we do it.

So I called around to 3 other derms I knew would be on my insurance and they all said the same thing basically! One said that they only test when you get bumped up, but otherwise it's not necessary. And one said they only test around month 4 because any risks would be apparent then. How come I can't find a dermatologist that does monthly blood tests! I really need to stay on this medication, but I know there are risks and I want to make sure I'm healthy. WTF am I supposed to do? I feel like no one takes this seriously.

I used to only have minor problems with acne, easily spot treated. Then I got pregnant and my face got worse and worse (still just minor acne) and I was afraid to treat it with anything other than baking soda and tea tree oil.
When I gave birth I got a rare rash that covered most of my body. When that rash subsided, my face exploded. I didn't even know what it was, because I just had what looked like tumors covering my chin. I got 5 cortisone injections in two of them to bring them down, and now they are both much smaller hard knots but still very much there.
I was told by two dermatologists that I had severe nodulocystic acne and that I needed accutane. After putting it off for two months and trying to heal myself through diet and supplements (because I wanted to breastfeed), I relented and let myself be put on doxycycline for 6 weeks, which did nothing.
I am on my 6th week of accutane and have seen minimal improvement in my normal acne, but no movement whatsoever on these nodules/cysts. They are ruining my life and I feel like they are permanent features on my face. I'm starting to doubt my Dr's that these are treatable with accutane as I've never even seen anything like these in my months of searching on this condition. I'm starting to think some of these are epidermal cysts and need to be taken out, and they are causing me severe anxiety to not have ever seen anyone in my life with this.
This one on my forehead was injected once, went away for two weeks and came back. It is now hard to the touch..
The bottom one was the one injected 5 times, also hard to the touch and the last injection did nothing but make a dent and bruise. The circled area above it is a long (nodule?) that is so deep under the skin you dont even know its there unless you see it from certain angles.

The ones under my neck have been there for 4 months. The larger one was inflamed but went down with the decadron I was put on in the first 10 days of accutane. It is still there under the skin. The lower one has been growing for the last 4 months.

This one appeared after my first dermatologist injected a nearby much smaller cyst. This ballooned in the following weeks and has only had a little puss come out of it, when it was injected my derm said nothing was coming out of it and it only collapsed in half. It is hard to the touch. The longer circle is an area that was two hard spots under my skin for two months, that seemed to join and then drained. Injected but the area under the skin still feels puffy, even if its not red. Much larger than it looks.



I'm sorry for the novel here, but I am freaking out. None of these are even painful, they're just hard bubbles on my skin and I feel like they're never going to go away. I keep wondering if I'm on accutane for nothing because this isn't acne, its something else. I just want my life back, I want to enjoy my new family without seeing glimpses of my future as a lumpy fugly mom.