God I try so friggin' hard to keep myself from thinking about my skin and looking at it to "see" if its as worse as I believe it is or if it has gotten a little bit better. My skin has worsened over the past few weeks and Im at my wits end. I think I got sunburnt when we had really hot weather and although my skin looked amazing initially with the sun, it has now turned into a right mess.
I bought a cleanser and usually I only wash with water, its a gentle one apparently from Avene but it makes me red for about half an hour after using it. Im just sick of all these ugly ugly bumps, like a bunch of about 100 tiny pimples some are inflamed some are non-inflamed whiteheads that just stay there. Its mainly situated on my forehead but to be honest its fucking all over my face..........and its worse when I sweat!!
Im just tired now. I hate fighting and TRYING to keep a brave face on. I start college again in a couple weeks and honestly Im really not in the mood to see new people looking like this. I hate it hate it hate it. Its so unattractive. I keep thinking Id rather have normal "hormonal acne" instead of this "comedonal" kind of random bunch of spots. God!
Im sorry I had to vent but no-one else in my life understands how I feel...especially my mother. She keeps telling me to not think about it blah lah, your beautiful blah blah...its not as easy as that.