I'm sorry you're going through this, it sucks big time. I'm in a similar situation about to start college (but for the first time). My acne was pretty severe in the beginning of the summer with lots of cysts and everything else in between. Right now I have 2 cysts (both healing nicely) and about 3 whiteheads. Needless to say I've improved. I suggest you stop damaging your skin with tea tree oil, if it's as sensitive as you say it is by it getting red with a face wash then tto will only burn it. Same with the bha and azelaic acid. You need to heal your skin with VERY gentle products not these harsh exfoliants. Trust me I tried them all to no avail and when I finally hydrated my skin it started to improve. For the past month I've been using Grape Seed Oil diligently day and night. Apart from that I have been using the Whole foods' version of Cetaphil every once in a while. That's it.
It doesn't break me out, my skin is not too oily and not dry at all. It's normally hydrated. My hyperpigmentation has improved my about 40% and I'd say 90% of my acne has gone away, and that's only in one month. I just buy the regular kind in the cooking section. It's been a life-saver. To tell you the truth, oils have never cleared my skin like this but they don't usually break me out, so you might want to start slow if you do. I remember seeing people talk about this oil a few years ago and never gave it a try, and do I regret it! Maybe this is your chance to try it and it will work! You have to be positive, that's where the healing begins Don't worry about meeting new people in college, as long as you find the confidence in yourself to ignore what's on your face there is nothing stopping you. EVERYONE suffers from a flaw they hate, some not as obvious but nonetheless there, and if you believe that people are genuinely nice and want to make friends you will stop worrying about yourself.
God bless you, wish you only the best.
Hey I'm so glad your skin is doing well. That grapeseed oil sounds promising. I've tried jojoba, olive, coconut and argon oil but they made me congested like crazy and broke me out. Thankyou for your advice, you know I've heard of the skin becoming dried out with products..TTO is the only spot treatment that really works for me and I've not tried benzoyl peroxide as of yet though, not since I was a teen anyway.
I've researched alot about comedonal acne and apparently salicylic acid is one of the best things for it to unclog your pores..I recently switched to the gel though so this could be causing problems...I just felt the lotion want really penetrating into my skin enough. I've actually decided to get an appointment with an aestheticion for next week to have a look and see if facials may help.
I hate feeling like this..it's shit. I'd even consider Accutane but fear it would make things worse. I shall try my best to let my awesome personality shine through my flaws I hope you do too! I love your name "Godlovesme", you know I actually have this daily mantra I say to myself everyday which is "Life loves Me". I have so much faith in life but I wish I had it in myself and could just KNOW that one day I'll be rid of these spots What are you studying at college?
Sending you lots of hugs. You don't say whether you are seeing your doctor/dermatologist, if you are go back and explain how you are feeling. Best thing I did as a teen was get a part time job, I'm not gonna lie going out and interacting with the public was really hard as I thought everyone was staring at my skin. But eventually, it gave me the confidence not to think about my skin so much.
I'm sure your mom means well. Unless she had acne too, I guess she doesn't really know how to help. Hope you feel better soon x
Thanks starbright. I have never been to a Derm and have lost faith in doctor's..it seems they just want to give me anti-biotics all the time. I know what you mean about working with the public gives you a bit of confidence, I was the same when I used to do voluntary work.
I hope I feel better soon too :/ I just feel horrible and ugly when I look in the mirror..it's not nice. I feel it's "waste" sometimes of a body..I feel I could have the potential to be attractive and use good make-up but I have to many fears of clogging up my friggin' pores so I never wear any. I'm just low at the moment and all I want is to be blemish free and free of this awful bumpy skin.