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Lilly75

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#3443445 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Lilly75 on 26 July 2014 - 12:57 AM

Sorry to read the posts about acne worsening.... mine has been a little too lately, but mostly it's stress and diet-related. I wish I could tell you all that when skin problems become more manageable, your life will be better, but that may not be the case unfortunately. We all have to find happiness within and not rely on the approval of others or even on our appearance. I keep thinking how short life is, and how much of it I spent worrying about things that shouldn't matter.

 

Anyway, I'm sending positive vibes to all of you, even though my luck has ran out. Do you ever feel like everything in your life is going downhill and you can't do anything to prevent the downward spiral? That's how my life is right now...I'm just hopelessly watching my life fall apart, no matter what I do :/ 

 

(Sorry for being a downer...I needed a place to vent)

Agree with what you said about finding happiness within ourselves and not relying on appearance or the approval of others. We waste so much time being concerned over our skin and I know in the past I've let it stop me from doing things I really wanted, and it's not worth that. I don't want to put my life / enjoyment of life on hold until I'm happy with my skin. Realistically, that day might never come. Worrying doesn't help it anyway. I think learning to accept it and yourself and knowing all the other good things there about you and your life are the more important things to focus on.

 

Sorry to hear it's been tough for you lately.  Really hope things start coming together and working out for you soon WishClean! Sending positive vibes right back to you




#3442935 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Lilly75 on 23 July 2014 - 08:16 AM

Struggling with my skin lately. It's been about a month - maybe a bit more than that - of not really using BP. I did start to use a new treatment system with glycolic acid and salicylic acid actives in it recently. I thought it would work well because once I added a product that had AHA and BHA to the acne.org regimen, that's when I saw the best results with the regimen.

I've only used this new system for about a week, so I know it's early to quit something, but I'm breaking out like crazy and feel like I need to go back to something that I know will help (BP). I've got loads of tiny whiteheads everywhere (couldn't even try to count them) and clogged pores. Really gross and my skin texture is a mess. Only 2 larger spots though.

I've just wanted to stay in bed these past few days and I'm dreading going back to uni with skin like this. I've had a rough month or so with other things on my mind regarding my health and the health of other family members too, so dealing with my skin getting worse on top of all that has honestly been really hard to manage / cope with. 

 

I'm going to start with the regimen again at night but use this glycolic/SA stuff in the mornings (because it's quicker than the regimen and I can still wear makeup over the top). And at least I know BP works for my skin so hopefully I start seeing improvements soon. 

Keep your head up Lily.  Quitting BP has been a nightmare for me too and have been off it for almost 3 months.  I go to my derm tomorrow as she wants me to try  a salycic acid based system since BP and pretty much all retinoids aggravate my BP induced eczema.

 

Keep us posted and good luck!

Thanks :) I'm trying

I've been through quitting BP before and it was just as bad to go through then. I don't think I can manage it right now with uni starting up again so that's why I'll go back on it for the time being. 

 

Hope the SA system works well for you and you're seeing improvements with your skin soon! 




#3439164 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Lilly75 on 03 July 2014 - 04:13 AM

hi everyone, hope you're all coping well. I don't post on this thread that often anymore, but today I'm having a particularly hard day. My career and everything I worked hard for is falling apart, and I feel that everything else in my life will soon fall apart as well no matter what I do. If you have any motivational quotes, no matter how cheesy or cliched, feel free to throw them at me. I'll take anything at this point

Sorry to hear things are tough for you at the moment. Hope it improves and you're feeling better / in a better frame of mind soon. 

As for quotes:

 

I've always liked this one and found it to resonate with me. I suppose some people wouldn't find it as encouraging or as motivating as I do or compared to other quotes but I thought I'd share it anyway:  "In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It Goes On." - Robert Frost.

 

A few more too... 

"Tough times never last, but tough people do." - Robert H Schuller

“What lies behind you and what lies in front of you, pales in comparison to what lies inside of you.”  Ralph Waldo Emerson

"The difference between stumbling blocks and stepping stones is how you use them". 

 

You'll be ok regardless of what happens - hang in there comfort.gif

 

 

 

Sometimes cliches, quotes, and positive words don't do much more than kick start a realisation inside the suffering person. That in itself is powerful I believe. So I hope the above quotes can help you somewhat.

I agree completely with this bit in particular. They can trigger a realisation in some people - probably why I like quotes / finding some nice ones when I'm having a rough time myself. 




#3438327 2Nd Week On Regimen - Is It Okay To Reduce To Once A Day?

Posted by Lilly75 on 27 June 2014 - 11:25 PM

Moved to the regimen forum




#3436013 Acne Making Me Cry

Posted by Lilly75 on 13 June 2014 - 04:48 AM

Moved to emotional and psychological effects of acne forum

 

I know how having acne after a certain age can make you feel alone, but I assure you, you're really not alone in this!

Everyone here would understand how you're feeling completely.

 

I know it's easier said than done, but try your best to not think about it so much - try and find things to distract yourself. Keep yourself occupied with something you enjoy doing or have to do (for me, at the moment it's studying for upcoming exams :/ ). Make yourself get out of the house even for a little while each day - go for a walk / run - I always find that makes me feel better. Limit your time in front of a mirror as much as you can too.

Remember that there's so much more to you than your skin :) Yes acne completely sucks, but it doesn't mean we have to let it 'control' how we live our lives. We can still find a way to be happy and enjoy life despite acne - and we all deserve to. 

 

It can seem like a never ending battle but have hope you'll get there / find what it is that works for you eventually. What have you tried doing for your skin? You could always go to / go back to a derm/doctor and talk to them - let them know how you're feeling and see what options they suggest for treating your skin. There's also a diet / lifestyle approach to consider if you haven't already.

 

Anyway, if nothing else, I hope you can find some sort of comfort / support in knowing that you're really not alone, especially not here. comfort.gif  We know how it is :P




#3435891 Ortho Tri Cyclen Journey

Posted by Lilly75 on 12 June 2014 - 06:40 AM

Moved to the Personal Logs forum

 

Good luck with the BCP - hope it goes well :)




#3434879 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Lilly75 on 05 June 2014 - 02:24 AM

Feeling ok about my face today.  I couldn't tell you how bad it is cause i have been avoiding mirrors but it feels like crap.  With that said, not having to see the bumps calms my anxiety.  I mean i know i have acne, why the need to confirm it with my eyes. I start aspects of my diet change sometime this weekend with full implementation by June 30th when i begin my summer vacation.  Not expecting much but at the very least, it will help me to be healthier on the inside.  Trying to stay positive even when everything inside of me feels like doing the opposite.

Thanks for the support re. my post the other day :) I appreciate it

 

Really like the point you made there about knowing we have acne, so why confirm it with our eyes. In majority of cases it probably just fuels our worry / anxiety over it all.

So the less time in front of a mirror, the better :P

 

Good luck with the diet changes too. 




#3434416 Accutane Mo. 1

Posted by Lilly75 on 02 June 2014 - 01:42 AM

Moved to accutane logs

 

Good luck with your accutane journey :)




#3434249 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Lilly75 on 01 June 2014 - 04:18 AM

My skin is breaking out quite a lot this week - they're really red and noticeable too :/ And a couple are a little painful

I'm annoyed because I'd signed up to do a fun run this weekend with some girls from uni and now the idea of going out in public without makeup,  when my skin is looking worse than it has been, is really making me want to not do it... It's pointless to wear makeup when you know you'll be spending most of the day in the sun exercising. 

So I'm hoping it at least calms down a little by the event day. And that I can somehow be confident enough for the day - forget what I look like and go out and enjoy it. 

Go and have fun.  Once i'm out and away from the damn mirror, its like my acne is someone else's problem.  Let yourself have this moment.



Broke out in 3-4 inflammed pimples on my right inner cheek.  Inflammed acne on forehead and right mouth/jaw area.  Wanted to start my topicals tonight but decided to hell with it.  Gonna hold out a little longer (ideally i'd want to wait till June 30th but something tells me my will power is not that strong.  Feel anxious as all hell 

Thanks for the encouragement Sasch.

 

The run was today and I'm glad I went. It was a lot of fun. I knew how I looked wouldn't matter especially because after doing a 5k course you're going to look a mess but also because it was the colour run so you're completely covered in coloured powder by the end. Such a mess and it'll be interesting to see if my skin reacts to it in the next few days. But I'm going to keep in mind that it was worth it to get out and have fun with friends and get some good exercise done.

I was also happy with myself for leaving the house with no makeup and being fine with it. Maybe I'll be able to start doing that for uni most days too...

To my surprise most of the girls I did the event with actually did wear some sort of makeup - not that they needed it of course. (Maybe it goes to show the 'reliance' / 'security blanket' effect makeup has on a lot of women - even those who have gorgeous skin and looks without it).

 

Hope your skin calms down soon Sasch. Don't rush into the topicals if you don't feel ready for them or like your skin will 'cope' with them. Maybe use this time to really focus on the emotional / mental health aspect of acne and 'repairing' that. Might help with the anxious feeling too. I've been trying more meditation type things lately which could be something to keep in mind




#3434096 Skincare Clinic Ruined My Face!

Posted by Lilly75 on 30 May 2014 - 11:31 PM

Hopefully with time it continues to heal.

But I honestly agree with the other user - your skin overall really does look amazing. I can only wish my skin was that nice! Hopefully you see that soon...

 

I've been considering clear skincare clinics for the SGA treatment they offer. I'd want to do at least a 12 month course for my acne - I can't afford it at the moment and I'm still not convinced it would work for me. I'd want to be more sure of it helping me before handing over so much money. Did you try SGA at all or just that RF treatment?




#3432804 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Lilly75 on 22 May 2014 - 02:09 AM

feeling good but realizing that since my skin is having more good days and in combination of wearing a light makeup - i now feel it difficult to leave the house without it, when my skin was really bad or just bad I would never wear makeup for fear of making it worse. So now I have like a different type of insecurity =\ having uneven skin tone and marks, or the occasional pimple or two .. or three.

Story of my life haha

I know what you mean.

My skin was quite bad in high school and I never wore makeup. I did start wearing makeup regularly when I started uni and when my skin was still bad - so I did have that insecurity of having bad skin and feeling like I had to wear makeup, but even when my skin improved a bit on the regimen and I had time when it was basically just marks, I still couldn't face leaving the house without a bit of makeup on.

I still want to get to a point where I do feel fine without makeup because I don't like wearing it but feel I have to. 

 

That's great your skin is still doing so well! :)




#3432628 Biafine Emulsion For Chronic Skin Pickers

Posted by Lilly75 on 21 May 2014 - 03:14 AM

Topic moved to over the counter products forum




#3432384 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by Lilly75 on 19 May 2014 - 07:26 AM

Been reminding myself lately that in the 'grand scheme of things' I'm lucky that it's only acne and the effects of acne that I'm dealing with (opposed to some horrible directly life threatening illness / condition)... and I know that's true - but it doesn't always help me feel any better about it or put things in perspective like it usually does for me. Lately it's just been making me feel bad about feeling upset by something like my skin which is 'trivial' in comparison to so many things.

 

I guess I have a few other things stressing me out lately too which just makes it worse... mostly to do with uni and wondering whether I'm studying the right thing / going down the right career path. I probably just need a break from study at the moment. I've been thinking that studying my masters right after finishing my undergrad (before even the official graduation actually...) was just setting myself up for burn out. Hoping I can keep it together and get through the last month or so of the semester so I can enjoy a break from it and then feel ready to get back into it... (sorry none of that's acne related - sometimes just helps to vent / think out loud)

 

 

Frustrated that everyone I know who had acne gets over it sooner or later, regains their confidence, and everyone, everyone, eventually finds love. Apart from me. There is no end in sight.

 

Trying to be a better person. Trying to feel happy for others. Trying to concentrate on the good things I do have in life, rather than on all the things acne has taken away from me. But some days are harder than others. I find the summer months especially difficult, when everyone else seems so happy and beautiful and alive.

 

 

I was thinking that the other week myself. I feel like it's been another year of having dealt with acne and another year of being 'behind' everyone else. I know I still have plenty of time to meet someone and have a relationship (you do too, everyone does - it's not something a time frame should be put on really..) but at times I still feel like it's not going to happen ever. I think / hope I'm just having a very pessimistic week haha 

Just have to have hope that somehow things work out

 

I think it's a good thing to remind yourself of all the good things you have in life, like you said.

I also agree with what leelowe1 said about you not being alone in this and that everyone is so deserving happiness!  

 

Hang in there,- all the best comfort.gif




#3432167 One, Two, Punch

Posted by Lilly75 on 17 May 2014 - 07:52 PM

Hope it goes well when you do start!

 

I agree limiting mirror time can be a big help




#3431822 How To Post Pictures Within Log (Not On Gallery)

Posted by Lilly75 on 15 May 2014 - 04:05 PM

If you click the 'more reply options' button next to 'post' below (when adding a reply to a log) you should be able to add photos that way by attaching the files