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#3425574 Do People With Acne Commit Suicide Very Often?

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 11 April 2014 - 01:45 AM

I've read some studies done on acne and suicide. People with acne are more prone to depression, bdd, and suicidal ideation (surprise surprise). I'm not sure about the rate of suicides/ attempted suicides in acne sufferers, but I wouldn't be surprised if the rates were relatively high.

Wow, I just started reading through the replies on this thread. A lot of insensitivity. There's always more to the story than what appears when someone takes their life. No one just decides to kill themselves for no reason. The things some people commit suicide over might seem stupid to you, but there must be some deeper issues.

Have some compassion guys.


#3425572 Dating With This Face (Pics)

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 11 April 2014 - 01:33 AM

Hi everyone (a bit of a long story, read if you are interested),
I haven't posted on this forum for a few weeks due to a very busy schedule. I used to be on here every day, and it helped me get through the darkest time of my life. I took a break from acne discussions to focus on living and enjoying life now that my cystic acne is under control for the most part. I still have small pimples under the surface of my skin, but usually those go away with peels. My scarring and damaged tissue is what is mostly bothering me now, and I'm sick of my family and friends reassuring me that it's not noticeable. I know they mean well, but I want a reality check.  I'm really hoping you can tell me what you think, please be honest.
 
Ok, here's the story. I was starting to gain my confidence back after having severe acne for a year, and I thought I was ready to start dating again after being single for a long time.  I started talking to someone I met on an online dating site, and for a month we exchanged texts constantly. I felt an instant connection, and he did too.  Then the conversations moved to skype, and every time we videochatted he told me how pretty I look etc. We had intelligent conversations that lasted for hours, I hadn't felt this strong connection with someone in a long time and I didn't think I ever would again. So I finally agreed to meet him in person, and unfortunately we met in broad daylight, and we sat inside a coffeeshop with the sun shining right on my face. I tried not to let that affect my confidence, but he kept staring at me and I didn't like that. We had a good conversation, he asked me a lot of questions and seemed interested in my life, then we went to a movie as planned. However, I just felt that he wasn't that into me anymore. To make things worse, when he drove me back to my car after the movie (it was still early btw), he said "Should we have an awkward hug?" and that was it. The next day, he sent a text late in the afternoon (usually he would text me all day long) saying "had a lot of fun last night." I responded, made a funny comment, and asked him a question....no response until the next day, 12 hours later! Then nothing again until the day after. I even texted him but he just seemed uninterested and the texting didn't continue for long because he never bothered to ask me anything back. I feel so bad about myself right now....I hit an all time low, and I don't know if I can ever bring myself to go out on more dates. This confirmed all my insecurities and my worst fear of being rejected because of my looks. I didn't think this guy was superficial...actually, I was disappointed that he looked flawless (perfect body, cute face, good skin) because I couldn't compete with that. 
I just wanted to vent. On top of this rejection, I received a rejection from my dream job and then I also screwed up a very important job interview today because I was distracted. I feel like a failure in so many ways. 
I took 2 photos of my face on the same day, from a different angle. The third one I added on April 8th, with my face looking smoother. Is this a mindf*ck of what? How am I ever supposed to feel normal? In most photos and on skype, my face looks smooth, and then up close it's a disaster. What do you think, am I exaggerating or do I have  legitimate reasons to believe that I was rejected due to my face? I thought my personality would be enough to make up for some flaws, but apparently even intelligent guys who appreciate smart girls are superficial. :/
*sorry again for this pathetic rant, this is my ultimate low*
 


Oh my gosh darlin', you are so beautiful I could cry! And guess what? You don't have bad skin! You are like me- we feel badly about the smallest little marks on our skin! I know this is probably no consolation- but I know how this feels. I've felt it for years- sometimes I still do. I did absolute horrible things to myself because I felt so horrible about myself. I'm so sorry you are going through this. About the guy- I truly, honestly believe because you feel so down on yourself you are reading into the situation in a way any of us here would. I'd imagine things probably changed because it's AWKWARD always meeting someone in person for the first time! You know what I would do? I would ask him exactly what you're worried about! People always appreciate others being open and vulnerable with them. And chances are he gave no notice to your skin! And if he did- he is a worthless piece of shit who will NEVER EVER deserve such an amazing, beautiful girl as you!

Seriously though, you are so gorgeous. Please try to be easier on yourself. Feel free to message me anytime. I'm always here to talk.

-Savannah


#3391618 Starting Spironolactone Today..nervous And Questions!

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 30 October 2013 - 10:09 PM

I'm taking 100 mgs Spiro and I'm perfectly fine. It wasn't until I got up to 150 that it started messing with my blood pressure.


#3391612 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 30 October 2013 - 09:43 PM

Rough time right now, and it's definitely showing in my skin. My dog and my grandmother just died weeks apart, I had a cutting relapse (after being "clean" for around 9 months), I'm back in therapy for depression, I was diagnosed with BDD and I'm being "treated" for what my doctors and therapists think is an eating disorder, so now I feel like a fat bloated pig. I've been eating bad, breaking out, and the size of my pores is making me crazy. You know it's bad when you're laying in bed awake at one in the morning, crying because your skin is so bad and you have no hope it will ever get better and you just want to die, and your tears sting your face because your skin is so irritated from your acne medication. And then you have to get up every morning and put on your face of makeup and your skin is so dry it looks like the cracked earth during a drought, and you have to deal with people everyday making little comments about your appearance, judging you and making you feel even worse about yourself, when you could have done that all by yourself.
So yeah, life's great.

 
Oh Savy - I'm so sorry to hear of the rough time you're going through right now!
You're such a lovely girl and have been a great help to many people here in the past (myself included) so I hate to hear you're feeling this way and really hope you're doing better soon.
Hang in there :comfort:

Thank you, that's really nice to hear! :) You are so supportive. I'm trying to hold on, it's so hard sometimes though. :/

Rough time right now, and it's definitely showing in my skin. My dog and my grandmother just died weeks apart, I had a cutting relapse (after being "clean" for around 9 months), I'm back in therapy for depression, I was diagnosed with BDD and I'm being "treated" for what my doctors and therapists think is an eating disorder, so now I feel like a fat bloated pig. I've been eating bad, breaking out, and the size of my pores is making me crazy. You know it's bad when you're laying in bed awake at one in the morning, crying because your skin is so bad and you have no hope it will ever get better and you just want to die, and your tears sting your face because your skin is so irritated from your acne medication. And then you have to get up every morning and put on your face of makeup and your skin is so dry it looks like the cracked earth during a drought, and you have to deal with people everyday making little comments about your appearance, judging you and making you feel even worse about yourself, when you could have done that all by yourself.
So yeah, life's great.

Sorry to hear about your grandma AND your dog.  That sux.  Your post resonated w/ me.  Just know, you're not alone.  Ive been there many times myself w/ the same things you;ve described.  Good luck

Thank you so much. It's always nice to know someone else knows what I'm going through. <3

Rough time right now, and it's definitely showing in my skin. My dog and my grandmother just died weeks apart, I had a cutting relapse (after being "clean" for around 9 months), I'm back in therapy for depression, I was diagnosed with BDD and I'm being "treated" for what my doctors and therapists think is an eating disorder, so now I feel like a fat bloated pig. I've been eating bad, breaking out, and the size of my pores is making me crazy. You know it's bad when you're laying in bed awake at one in the morning, crying because your skin is so bad and you have no hope it will ever get better and you just want to die, and your tears sting your face because your skin is so irritated from your acne medication. And then you have to get up every morning and put on your face of makeup and your skin is so dry it looks like the cracked earth during a drought, and you have to deal with people everyday making little comments about your appearance, judging you and making you feel even worse about yourself, when you could have done that all by yourself.
So yeah, life's great.

 
So sorry for your losses :( I could feel your pain in every sentence you wrote. I completely understand the feeling of waking up and knowing for sure that when you go to the mirror, it'll be an exhausting effort to try to look presentable enough for the day. To the BDD, to the disordered eating, to the makeup on the dry, peeling skin, I understand. Please hang in there.

Someone cursed me, there is no other explanation.. the derm wouldn't prescribe antibiotics but suggested accutane! I cured my acne almost alone the previous time with spiro.. doctors only suggested things that didn't work.. and the medicine that changed my life, they don't like it but accutane is fine for them! If there wasn't that dermatology lesson at the university i doubt i would have at least the 2 beautiful years spiro gave me.

It's so frustrating when doctors don't give you when you think will help. I always feel powerless when I go to the doctors. Even though I do a TON of research before going, I always feel like my words are sort of ignored and the doctors just do what they want. Did they give you a reason for not prescribing spiro?
Skin/Feelings Update: I traveled earlier this week and that ALWAYS gives me a zit or two. I got two this time, but they're going away and don't hurt. My red marks are going away and I feel like I'm going to have decent skin by the time basic training rolls around. Paula's Choice 5% AHA is now a "Holy Grail" product for me, and that's never happened before. All of my other products have qualities that I don't like, but not Paula's Choice AHA. Also, the Olay brush is keeping my skin soft AND helping my red marks. The best thing I'm doing for my skin is still NOT PICKING IT. Ugh, it's so hard because I know for a fact that I have Compulsive Skin Picking issues.. :( But seriously, if I can stop, so can you. So! Message me if you'd like to talk about stopping your picking.

Thank you, your support means a lot. Having bad skin is so hard. It makes every other aspect of life that much more complicated. I'm glad I'm not alone in this, but I'm also sorry you have to deal with these things too. :(


#3373884 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 11 August 2013 - 11:07 PM


 

 

Not too bad. Still got the remnants of a cyst on my right cheek and some hp on my right jawline and neck from a recent breakout. However there is nothing active and my left side is completely clear.

 

Hope you don`t mind acne.orgers` but I`d like to use this thread to conduct a kind of social experiment for myself. Last week at a CBT session, I had a photo taken of the right side of my face/neck. I was a little broken out at the time and the photo really freaked me out as I looked hideous. Still don`t think that I look great right now but I have cleared up a little bit and feel confident and comfortable enough to post a couple of photos I took of myself when I got home from work today. Here they are:

 

attachicon.gifSnapshot_20130808.JPG right side.

 

attachicon.gifSnapshot_20130807_1.JPG left side.

 

I`m a little bit anxious doing this as I worry what people will think of me. Just doing it as kind of test really to challenge some of the anxiety that I feel over my appearance. Hope you all go easy on me.

I don't think I can add anything else to what people have already said except that I agree with them. I think your skin really does look great!! And that's not going easy on you or just being nice or anything. That's honestly what I see.

 

Maybe that can ease your anxiety a little? Through this post you've physically brought peoples attention to your skin, and we all think your skin looks great! Compare that to 'real life' situations where people aren't necessarily focused on your skin - they're looking at everything else around them at once, so I personally don't think that they'd see anything 'wrong' with your skin at all and just see you overall or see your skin as nice or normal etc. I just mean to say that as much as we may feel people are analysing our skin in real life situations, I think we're just overly worried about that and it's not necessarily happening. People are too busy with everything else around them and probably thinking of themselves as well, that they don't analyse our skin like we do.

 

I don't know if that makes any sense.... but point is - your skin is looking really good!

 

Thanks, Lily. Doing this has helped me tremendously - far more than I expected. Can`t quite believe that some people actually think that my skin looks good but I will accept the compliments!

 

I totally get what you mean about how in real-life, people wouldn`t necessarily be examining my skin to the same degree that they would on here.

 

I`ve come across some of your posts and hope you don`t mind me saying but you seem to have some similar issues to Moonlit River in terms of how your view yourself. Also noticed that you are very rational and logical about acne when you are giving advice to others - you just need to apply some of that to yourself!

 

By the way, I`m a big cricket fan. Not sure if you are but as you are from Australia, just thought I`d remind you that England have won the Ashes!

 

All the best!

Your skin really does look fantastic! <3




#3373878 Bdd, Acne, And Meds...help

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 11 August 2013 - 11:02 PM

Rosalie: If you are allergic/intolerant to SSRIs, there is also some evidence for the effectiveness of the tricyclic antidepressant clomipramine for BDD, although tricyclics are quite "dirty" drugs with more side effects (e.g. dizziness, lethargy).

 

http://www.ncbi.nlm....f/wpa010012.pdf

 

 

Good luck

 

 Thank you! I will definitely look into that. It's always good to know your stuff when talking to doctors...

 

 

 

>First off, kudos to you for getting treatment. A lot of people with BDD don't ask for help due to shame, anxiety, etc. I have to completely agree with your psychiatrist. You said you are taking Seroquel instead of Lithium, which only has a 2% chance of causing acne, right? So that means there is a 98% chance that you won't develop any acne while taking it. Those are some pretty good odds. Just keep on taking your meds, and hopefully your anxiety will decrease so that you can make all of your therapy appontments. Therapy is what is really going to make a difference in you feeling better. I know that once I started taking my medication regualrly, my anxiety decreased so that I didn't have anxiety attacks before going to my therapy appointments. Just hang in there, I know you are a strong, amazing girl. I wish the very best to you, and I hope you can start feeling good about yourself; you deserve to be happy.

 

XOXO <3

 

Thank you... Luckily i also have really supportive/invasive parents that are pushing me to get help. I know its annoying right now, but hopefully all their pushing will help me in the long run. I am definitely sticking to my medication regimen because this anxiety will be the death of me otherwise. It's always such a tricky game finding the right meds and I hope I'll find the right cocktail (pardon the expression) sooner rather than later :/ It's so good to hear that you're doing well and that there is hope! I do NEED to start keeping my therapy appointments instead of canceling due to my insecurities. Have to remember these people are psychologists and their job is to not judge me. 

 

Keep on keeping on, I suppose! Xo

 

That's wonderful! :D It's always really helpful to have supportive parents, even if it is annoying. I know from experience, lol. It seems like you have a really good mindset though. Good for you! And thanks! When you mentioned it's a psychologist's job not to judge, it made me remember when I first started going to therapy I had such a hard time talking and opening up because I was afraid I was going to be judged. My therapist picked up on this, and he told me that no matter what I told him, he would not judge me, ever. And after that I really started to open up and make progress. So you are very right about that. Just try and remember that when you are talking to your therapist. :)




#3373335 Bdd, Acne, And Meds...help

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 09 August 2013 - 06:51 PM

First off, kudos to you for getting treatment. A lot of people with BDD don't ask for help due to shame, anxiety, etc. I have to completely agree with your psychiatrist. You said you are taking Seroquel instead of Lithium, which only has a 2% chance of causing acne, right? So that means there is a 98% chance that you won't develop any acne while taking it. Those are some pretty good odds. Just keep on taking your meds, and hopefully your anxiety will decrease so that you can make all of your therapy appontments. Therapy is what is really going to make a difference in you feeling better. I know that once I started taking my medication regualrly, my anxiety decreased so that I didn't have anxiety attacks before going to my therapy appointments. Just hang in there, I know you are a strong, amazing girl. I wish the very best to you, and I hope you can start feeling good about yourself; you deserve to be happy.

 

XOXO <3




#3369973 I Will Prioritize From Now On!

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 29 July 2013 - 12:03 AM

Eh?

which part dint u get,mate?

 

>Sounds like a good policy. No one should waste their precious time responding to those who don't require or deserve a response. Here are a couple of quotations I dug up:

 

“Most of the successful people I’ve known are the ones who do more listening than talking.” 
― Bernard M. Baruch

 

“We have two ears and one mouth, so we should listen more than we say.” 
― Zeno of Citium, as quoted by Diogenes Laërtius

 

Second quote is not quite right for message boards, but I think you get the general idea.

right.

but i used to come here and i wish i could explain how good it feels if even one gets the help they need.

so i visited almost every thread on a few forums and discussed the lil' i know from experience.it felt good.

but i get what u say and now,i so agree.

sometimes people must prioritize.

i will do so too and i will stick people who makes me feel good.

thank u for being there.

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It seems like you recently had some bad interactions here, which really sucks, so I'm sorry for that!  I think you have a good plan, so I hope you don't have any more unpleasant experiences. I know that I always really appreciate when you talk to me when I'm having a tough time or I have questions, so just know that there are a lot of people on this site who are thankful you're here! You are a valuable member to the org, so I hope those insensitive people don't get to you. smile.png

thanks darling!ven i've met some amazingly warm and supportive people here.

thats one reason i come back even after gits !!

i've said this before and i will repeat myself.

its the hard times thats made u what u r and this beautiful!

u know am there when u need me,right?

 

thank u for saying that!wub.png

 

Yes, thank you for being there for me! <3 I'll try and remember this when I'm having a hard time. I know I can talk to you when I feeling badly. rolleyes.gif




#3369499 I Have All The Bad Combinations

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 26 July 2013 - 10:55 PM

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. I can definitely relate. Sometimes I feel like nature took a bunch of odd parts and smooshed them together to make me. I've seemed to get a lot of the "bad" genes in my family, like crappy skin. I also got the "family nose" from my dad's side, while my sister didn't. It's horrible. She has perfect skin AND a cute nose, lol. Just know that this is a feeling rather than a fact. What you perceive about yourself is often either not true or not noticed by others. I hope you feel better! comfort.gif




#3369192 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 25 July 2013 - 09:48 PM

Thank you all so much! I'm always so amazed at how kind and supportive everyone here is. You guys are wonderful. wub.png

i read ur blog too!comfort.gif


 


am sorry u had to go through so much darling.but u know what?its just made u who u r.

its just made u realise the difference between being good and mean.

its made u beautiful inside and no one can change that.no one can beat that!

*hugs*

Thank you! It feels really good to hear this. smile.png You have all been so warm and supportive.

 

Savybanana, I have just read your blog and as Flagg has said, to have been through everything that you have and come through those times shows just how courageous and brave you are.

I don`t know you, probably have very little in common with you and I`m old enough to be your dad but I can totally relate to what it feels like to go through dark periods and feel hideous, worthless, hopeless and repulsive. I`m currently having CBT which helps but I still get days and times where the self-loathing thoughts and lack of self worth are too overpowering to challenge.

Really sorry that you are going through such a tough time right now. However, you CAN and you WILL get through this. You`ve done it before and you can do it again. There are lots of people on this forum who are rooting for you and I`m sure that you have loved ones around you who will support you in the best way that they can. You are a fantastic person inside and out and have everything to live for.

Look after yourself Savy - my thoughts are with you.

Gosh, thank you! This just warmed my heart. wub.png I'm trying to push through. I'm really glad CBT has been helpful to you. I already feel better reading this.. so encouraging. Thanks. smile.png



Thank you all so much! I'm always so amazed at how kind and supportive everyone here is. You guys are wonderful. wub.png

 

'The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen' - Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

Beautiful quote. Thank you! smile.png

 

 

 

 




#3368634 Is There Any Chance The Derm Can Give Me Accutane? (I Want It)

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 23 July 2013 - 08:04 PM

I think you have a pretty good chance of being prescribed Accutane, but it all depends on the dermatologist. You're right that there is a chance you will have to try other antibiotics/creams first, but when you go in, I would bring it up right away so that she knows. Just explain to her why you want to try it and how your skin makes you feel. Being open is the key. You are obviously a very pretty girl, but I know how you feel, I really do. I had the absolute OILIEST skin ever before I went of Accutane. Your acne is really not bad, but I know how uncomfortable oily skin is. Just try and hang in there until you get it prescribed. A lot of people are going to tell you not to take it, but if this is really want you want, I say do want you feel is right. Just make sure to listen to body very carefully while on it. As long as you are aware of the side effects, I think you'll be okay. Also, wear makeup if you feel it will be helpful to you/ make you more comfortable, but please please please, do not become dependent on it like me! I wish the best to you, and if you have an questions, feel free to message me. :)




#3367939 Afraid To Go Away To College... Because Of My Skin...

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 21 July 2013 - 12:19 AM

Glad you have decided to apply to ones far from home smile.png As long as that's what you want.

 

College will really open your eyes to different people and different experiences. It's definitely life changing, and it's not worth it to let your skin control it.

Thank you! :)

 

I was in this exact same boat three years ago (just graduated yesterday in fact!) so I totally understand your worries. I was even allocated a shared room in my university halls so there was absolutely no hiding from my roommate (though luckily I managed to get a single after the first couple of weeks).

My general points and advice are:

1. I was surprised by how many other people at university actually had much the same problem. Coming from a small rural town I always felt like I was the only one my age with bad acne but you get such a big mix of different people at university that in an odd way it actually makes you feel less alone with it because you are guaranteed to see people around dorms/campus with the same problem as you.

2. I had to work with shared bathrooms but if you pick less busy times of day you can get away without being seen without make-up at least 95% of the time which in reality is sufficient to at least make you a little less uncomfortable and paranoid. I always showered at night before going to bed and found I was usually the only one there as everybody else showered in the mornings.

3. Although you may feel like people will judge you and think you're being vain and superficial if you spend a long time on your make-up in the morning you will find that if you explain that your bad skin makes you feel insecure without it people are mostly quite understanding. My roommate commented on the first morning "Oh wow you put a lot of make-up on in the morning don't you?" I said yes I do but I don't enjoy doing it or do it to look pretty I just do it because my bad skin completely drains my confidence if I don't cover it up and she actually seemed to understand this very well. 

4. I know it's really difficult and I still struggle with it myself on a daily basis but please, please, please, please, please, don't allow your skin to dictate your success in life. If you want to go to university you should go to university. If you want the university dorm experience please do give it a go because although I went in with exactly the same worries as you I can honestly say that my fresher year in halls was one of the best years of my life. Living together with such a diverse group of people means there are always fun things going on and you get to know people so much better for living with them so you are guaranteed to make friends you will keep your whole life. 

I really hope some of my long ramble is of use to you and best of luck with it all! 

Thank you so much! I can't even describe how helpful you have been in writing this. I feel like I should give you a longer response, but I don't know how to share my appreciation. Your advice is excellent. Thank you for this. :)

 

I never went to school or had the "college experience" and my life turned out okay. But I never wanted to go, either. If you want to go, don't let acne stop you. Plenty of other people at your school will be dealing with acne too.

Thanks. :)




#3367412 Afraid To Go Away To College... Because Of My Skin...

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 18 July 2013 - 08:14 PM

Dont be so insecure you are a really pretty girl.Im sure no one is going to make fun of you and you will have fun,Just wash your face and exfoliate.Ps your really cute no one will say anything I promise you.

Haha, thank you! wub.png

 

Noooo! DON'T let your acne take away from your college experience!!! I had one of the worst breakouts of my life freshman year of college, but even with that, it was still one of the best years of my life because of all the people I met and the life experiences I had. I grew up so much in that one year, and I know I wouldn't have learned as much if I hadn't lived in a dorm. My dorm was one of my favorite things about college, in fact.

 

Like I said I had one of the worst breakouts of my life that year. My cheeks were covered in red marks, making me look like I had the chicken pox or something. It was hard, but I got through it. Trust me, you'll get over the whole sharing a bathroom thing. If you get up early enough, there's usually no one in there. And even if there are people in there, they're too busy to scrutinize your face. Plus, I can't count how many girls I saw with flawed skin in college.

 

I, like you, am insecure without makeup. Most of the time I would get up, go the dorm bathroom and wash my face etc, then go back to my room and get ready for classes (putting makeup on). Then I would keep it on for the rest of the day and night, touching up as needed if I happened to go back into my room. The good thing about hanging out in a dorm is that you're always close to your room, so if you want to touch up your makeup you can just go quickly and do it. It's really not bad at all, and in fact, you may find yourself thinking about your skin less often cause you'll have makeup on and you'll be meeting new people. No one's skin is absolutely perfect, especially not in college. I saw a lot of people with even severe acne who had no problem meeting people and having a good time. You look very pretty from your avatar, so I'm sure no one will even notice your skin.

 

Trust me, I know how it feels. I have oily, acne prone skin with huge pores too. But despite that and my insecurities, I still made friends, even met a guy and had quite a long thing with him for the year (even while my skin was bad). Like I said, even though my skin made it a tough year, I wouldn't change it for anything because of how much fun I had. 

Wow, thank you! This has actually convinced me to go away to college. You make some really good points, and I can only hope that I have as great of an experience as you, despite my skin. I definitely don't want to make my decision based on my skin.

 

If you ever talk to anyone, it's not a good idea to interpret anything they are doing.  What I mean is that, even people who have good skin, when they talk to each other, it's not like they stare at each other's face all the time.  And the other person doesn't have to have a smile the entire conversation.  People who have good skin do not smile for an entire conversation.
So you don't have to think that "This person is judging my personality and my skin because he/she has this certain facial expression or because her arms are crossed."  No, people are generally want to have a regular social interaction and people are nice.
One more thing:  It is normal for people to look at the other person slowly.  I used to think that "He or she is 
having difficulties looking at me because I have acne. He is taking his sweet time to making eye contact with me."  
However, looking at other people slowly is the best way to interact.  Looking at other people suddenly actually looks like the other person is reluctant to look at you or something.  So, understanding how social interactions work will go a long way to ease your fear. People are nice, especially in college.  Believe it. smile.png

This is great advice. I'm very paranoid about this kind of thing, so I will try and keep this in mind. Thank you.

 

Hi,

 

I'm the same situation, don't feel alone!

 

So how am I supposed to go away and live in a dorm and share a bathroom with a bunch of people? My stomach hurts just thinking about people seeing how bad my skin is. I don't know why, but if I had acne, but I didn't have huge pores all over my face, I don't think I'd feel the same way. It really bothers me that my flawed skin controls my life so friggin' much. Most of the time I think I'll probably go to the university close to my home so I don't have to live in a dorm. It sucks, because I want the college experience and to be able to get away from home, but I feel sooo insecure. I know a lot of people will probably think this is stupid and shallow, but this is the way I feel.

 

In two weeks, I'll go for a entirely month to work 300kms away from my home. I freak out thinking how will I keep doing the Regimen?

How will I have to spend time in bathroom?

How will, the bunch of people which who I'll live for a month, react when they will see me obsessed with sunscreen? With moisturizers that make my skin look oily (it's so dry and red because of Epiduo)? With cleanser? With acne treatment?

And then, in september, if I'll live with roomates? Will they think I'm a sociopathe-obsessed-with-my-skin-and-so-much-egocentric-that-she-inspires-pity?

 

I know it's sounds so much superficial that I feel ludicrous writing this. But you know what? I think I'll go next month to work right there, and that I'll try to find roomates, even if my habits will be disturbed: we're not old lady, damn it.

 

So, don't go to the university close to your home just because of acne. Don't let it dictate your life, and don't let it make you miss college experience, you would regret it.


 

Thank you. It's great that you are going to take advantage of such a great opportunity. Thanks for the advice.

 

When I was at school in England (a looooooong time ago now), I was fairly good academically and it was my ambition to go on to 6th Form College and then University.

However, whilst I was at school, because I had acne I was bullied not just verbally but physically. School was hell and I had no friends in my class so I just got my head down, worked as hard as I could and achieved relatively good GCSE results.

I then went on to 6th form college. Although there was the opportunity to meet new people there, some of the kids who bullied me were also there. It was too much for me to take and because I couldn`t stand the thought of two years with those same kids, I jacked in doing my A-levels and the possibility of going on to University. At the time, my parents and mum in particular were livid with me for throwing away my education. Until a few months ago, I never told her the real reason for me quitting 6th Form College.

I am now 40 and in a dead end job. I wish to god that I had stuck out 6th form and gone on to University. My life may have turned out differently if I had done and not let the bullies win.

SavyBanana it is up to you, but I would strongly urge you to go to College otherwise in years to come, you may end up with regrets like me. I know you probably won`t believe this but from what I can see, your skin is absolutely fine and your pores are no different or any larger than anyone elses pores. I`m pretty certain that anyone else including any future dorm mates would agree with me.

Good luck. I hope you do decide to go to College and if you do, I`m sure you will enjoy it.

Wow, I am so sorry you had to go through that. Thank you for sharing your experience with my. I will keep this in mind when the time comes to apply for college.

 

SavyBanana, I just looked at your pictures out of curiosity and I have to say...you have NOTHING to worry about! Your skin looks fine, even perfect if I might add. And even if you still do get zits sometimes, or think you have acne prone skin, your skin looks really good. No one at college will judge you for your skin, trust me. You'll have similar, if not better skin than a lot of the kids there. Pleeeease don't miss out on the college experience for this. I guarantee you will regret it.

Aw, thank you so much!wub.png

 

I go to a uni near where I live (was lucky to be somewhat close to a great uni that also offered a degree I wanted to study), so I can't really comment on sharing a bathroom or dorm life etc - but I can completely understand why you feel anxious about that. In the next two years, depending on how things work out for me, I might move interstate to continue my study - and then I would be stressing about a shared bathroom like you are too.

 

But in no way should you let that worry stop you from getting the education you want and deserve, or from having the 'college experience!' I guess it's a bit different to over there, but nonetheless I've loved uni here and have enjoyed it so much more than high school. I love the people I've met and the opportunities I've had.

 

I think one thing to remember is that you still have a while before actually going to college or doing whatever you decide to do after school. So try not to stress about it too much now because it's still a while away smile.png Also, I think you really do have lovely skin and I don't think people are going to notice enlarged pores or something like that (they would still have to be standing very close to you tongue.png) and the odd breakout shouldn't change how people think or act toward you! Go to college when the time comes, you'll be fine I'm sure smile.png

Thank you! Your advice is very helpful and comforting. I've decided to apply for colleges away from home, so I'll have to remember all of the advice all of you have given me so I won't chicken out!




#3366102 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 13 July 2013 - 02:04 PM

Oh my goodness, it is scary, isn't it? I totally know what you mean- I can't tell if I'm actually losing my hair either! I've tried brushing it as little as possible, and I only wash my hair every other day now because I also feel like I lose more hair after showering. Yeah probably right that stress makes it worse, but it's hard not to stress out when your hair is falling out! I really feel like it has a hormonal component to it. Right before I took Accutane, when my acne was at it's worst, large painful pimples all over my chin and the oiliest skin in the world, I developed alopecia and I was left with a huge bald spot on the right side of my head. Luckily there was a layer of hair to cover it, and it has since then grown back, but ever since then my hair has been getting thinner, and I have more all-over hair loss. I was just looking at a picture of myself from a couple of years ago, and my hair was so, so thick! I'd say my hair is half the thickness now of what it was. It's driving me crazy. I miss my thick hair. sad.png

Yeah it is scary! I can only imagine what it would have been like dealing with alopecia. I would have been terrified honestly. Glad to hear things have improved since then though. 

In high school people used to tell me they loved my hair. I'm sure it's thinned a fair bit since then.

 

It's hard to work out the cause. I'm sure there's a hormonal component to it too. Could be some sort of vitamin deficiency also and stress like I said before.

 

Hopefully we all figure out what the deal is with this thinning hair issue and how to help it. Hope it only improves from here on!!

Dealing with alopecia was awful! I felt horribly gross and ugly. I was petrified that it wouldn't grow back. People also used to compliment my hair a lot, but I don't get that much anymore.

 

I'm sure you're right that all of those factors play a part. I was looking into vitamin deficiencies that would cause thinning hair, and I'm going to try incorporating more foods high in those vitamins into my diet, and I will probably start taking some supplements.

 

I hope we figure it out too, and that this problem will improve! :)




#3365980 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by TheSavyBanana on 12 July 2013 - 10:56 PM

I know this has nothing to do with acne, but I'm losing my hair!!!! :***( I'm down to about a third of the original thickness. Every time I wash my hair, shocks/locks of it fall out. It's more every time. And when I run my hand through my hair, a few strands fall out. It's literally like one strand every five minutes. I made an appointment with a derm in my area today for that purpose. I'll probably cancel my appt with the OB, just because I didn't realize that derms dealt with hair issues as well...

 

My skin is looking pretty clear, on the bright side. I've decided that I'm going to refrain from make-up as long as I can, even when college starts up again. I'll use it on nights out and special occasions only. I was thinking of buying some MAC foundation, since I used to use that sparingly in high school and loved the way that it looked, but my True Match topped with Alima Pure looked so wonderful today when I tried it on, that I just decided against it for now. I don't want to waste money...

 

>I'm losing my hair too! Every time I brush my hair, my hair brush is full of my hair, my hair is always all over my clothes, etc. My hair used to be so thick.

sad.png I've gone to my doctor many times for it, but he thinks it's normal. It really bothers me. I wonder what it could be.


 

 

 

Same here! I asked my doctor about it a few months ago when I had a blood test for PCOS and was asking about using birth control or spiro for my acne. She didn't seem worried or concerned about it - but to me it's thinning. 

It really scares me at times but I haven't been worrying about it so much lately. It's hard for me to tell if I am actually losing hair or not - I realised I stopped brushing my hair that often because I was worried about that causing more hair loss - but then that makes it look like I'm losing more hair when I do brush my hair because the 'normal' everyday hair loss is just staying 'caught' in my hair and all coming out at once when I brush so it looks like a lot. (I don't know if that makes sense to you but not sure how else to say it). Same for in the shower - I feel I lose a lot more than what's normal in the shower. And throughout the day if I run my fingers in my hair I'll have a few strands in my hand. I was very stressed and had high anxiety a couple of months ago when this was worrying me the most - I think things like high stress and anxiety can cause hair loss too so that could have been contributing to it for me then. For now I'm keeping an eye on it but trying not to stress about it because I think that could make it worse. I think I would much rather have acne than lose my hair if it couldn't grow back.

 

Oh my goodness, it is scary, isn't it? I totally know what you mean- I can't tell if I'm actually losing my hair either! I've tried brushing it as little as possible, and I only wash my hair every other day now because I also feel like I lose more hair after showering. Yeah probably right that stress makes it worse, but it's hard not to stress out when your hair is falling out! I really feel like it has a hormonal component to it. Right before I took Accutane, when my acne was at it's worst, large painful pimples all over my chin and the oiliest skin in the world, I developed alopecia and I was left with a huge bald spot on the right side of my head. Luckily there was a layer of hair to cover it, and it has since then grown back, but ever since then my hair has been getting thinner, and I have more all-over hair loss. I was just looking at a picture of myself from a couple of years ago, and my hair was so, so thick! I'd say my hair is half the thickness now of what it was. It's driving me crazy. I miss my thick hair. :(