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#3391618 Starting Spironolactone Today..nervous And Questions!

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 30 October 2013 - 10:09 PM

I took 100 mgs and was fine. It wasn't until I got up to 150 that it started messing with my blood pressure.


#3391612 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 30 October 2013 - 09:43 PM

Rough time right now, and it's definitely showing in my skin. My dog and my grandmother just died weeks apart, I had a cutting relapse (after being "clean" for around 9 months), I'm back in therapy for depression, I was diagnosed with BDD and I'm being "treated" for what my doctors and therapists think is an eating disorder, so now I feel like a fat bloated pig. I've been eating bad, breaking out, and the size of my pores is making me crazy. You know it's bad when you're laying in bed awake at one in the morning, crying because your skin is so bad and you have no hope it will ever get better and you just want to die, and your tears sting your face because your skin is so irritated from your acne medication. And then you have to get up every morning and put on your face of makeup and your skin is so dry it looks like the cracked earth during a drought, and you have to deal with people everyday making little comments about your appearance, judging you and making you feel even worse about yourself, when you could have done that all by yourself.
So yeah, life's great.

 
Oh Savy - I'm so sorry to hear of the rough time you're going through right now!
You're such a lovely girl and have been a great help to many people here in the past (myself included) so I hate to hear you're feeling this way and really hope you're doing better soon.
Hang in there :comfort:

Thank you, that's really nice to hear! :) You are so supportive. I'm trying to hold on, it's so hard sometimes though. :/

Rough time right now, and it's definitely showing in my skin. My dog and my grandmother just died weeks apart, I had a cutting relapse (after being "clean" for around 9 months), I'm back in therapy for depression, I was diagnosed with BDD and I'm being "treated" for what my doctors and therapists think is an eating disorder, so now I feel like a fat bloated pig. I've been eating bad, breaking out, and the size of my pores is making me crazy. You know it's bad when you're laying in bed awake at one in the morning, crying because your skin is so bad and you have no hope it will ever get better and you just want to die, and your tears sting your face because your skin is so irritated from your acne medication. And then you have to get up every morning and put on your face of makeup and your skin is so dry it looks like the cracked earth during a drought, and you have to deal with people everyday making little comments about your appearance, judging you and making you feel even worse about yourself, when you could have done that all by yourself.
So yeah, life's great.

Sorry to hear about your grandma AND your dog.  That sux.  Your post resonated w/ me.  Just know, you're not alone.  Ive been there many times myself w/ the same things you;ve described.  Good luck

Thank you so much. It's always nice to know someone else knows what I'm going through. <3

Rough time right now, and it's definitely showing in my skin. My dog and my grandmother just died weeks apart, I had a cutting relapse (after being "clean" for around 9 months), I'm back in therapy for depression, I was diagnosed with BDD and I'm being "treated" for what my doctors and therapists think is an eating disorder, so now I feel like a fat bloated pig. I've been eating bad, breaking out, and the size of my pores is making me crazy. You know it's bad when you're laying in bed awake at one in the morning, crying because your skin is so bad and you have no hope it will ever get better and you just want to die, and your tears sting your face because your skin is so irritated from your acne medication. And then you have to get up every morning and put on your face of makeup and your skin is so dry it looks like the cracked earth during a drought, and you have to deal with people everyday making little comments about your appearance, judging you and making you feel even worse about yourself, when you could have done that all by yourself.
So yeah, life's great.

 
So sorry for your losses :( I could feel your pain in every sentence you wrote. I completely understand the feeling of waking up and knowing for sure that when you go to the mirror, it'll be an exhausting effort to try to look presentable enough for the day. To the BDD, to the disordered eating, to the makeup on the dry, peeling skin, I understand. Please hang in there.

Someone cursed me, there is no other explanation.. the derm wouldn't prescribe antibiotics but suggested accutane! I cured my acne almost alone the previous time with spiro.. doctors only suggested things that didn't work.. and the medicine that changed my life, they don't like it but accutane is fine for them! If there wasn't that dermatology lesson at the university i doubt i would have at least the 2 beautiful years spiro gave me.

It's so frustrating when doctors don't give you when you think will help. I always feel powerless when I go to the doctors. Even though I do a TON of research before going, I always feel like my words are sort of ignored and the doctors just do what they want. Did they give you a reason for not prescribing spiro?
Skin/Feelings Update: I traveled earlier this week and that ALWAYS gives me a zit or two. I got two this time, but they're going away and don't hurt. My red marks are going away and I feel like I'm going to have decent skin by the time basic training rolls around. Paula's Choice 5% AHA is now a "Holy Grail" product for me, and that's never happened before. All of my other products have qualities that I don't like, but not Paula's Choice AHA. Also, the Olay brush is keeping my skin soft AND helping my red marks. The best thing I'm doing for my skin is still NOT PICKING IT. Ugh, it's so hard because I know for a fact that I have Compulsive Skin Picking issues.. :( But seriously, if I can stop, so can you. So! Message me if you'd like to talk about stopping your picking.

Thank you, your support means a lot. Having bad skin is so hard. It makes every other aspect of life that much more complicated. I'm glad I'm not alone in this, but I'm also sorry you have to deal with these things too. :(


#3373884 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 11 August 2013 - 11:07 PM


 

 

Not too bad. Still got the remnants of a cyst on my right cheek and some hp on my right jawline and neck from a recent breakout. However there is nothing active and my left side is completely clear.

 

Hope you don`t mind acne.orgers` but I`d like to use this thread to conduct a kind of social experiment for myself. Last week at a CBT session, I had a photo taken of the right side of my face/neck. I was a little broken out at the time and the photo really freaked me out as I looked hideous. Still don`t think that I look great right now but I have cleared up a little bit and feel confident and comfortable enough to post a couple of photos I took of myself when I got home from work today. Here they are:

 

attachicon.gifSnapshot_20130808.JPG right side.

 

attachicon.gifSnapshot_20130807_1.JPG left side.

 

I`m a little bit anxious doing this as I worry what people will think of me. Just doing it as kind of test really to challenge some of the anxiety that I feel over my appearance. Hope you all go easy on me.

I don't think I can add anything else to what people have already said except that I agree with them. I think your skin really does look great!! And that's not going easy on you or just being nice or anything. That's honestly what I see.

 

Maybe that can ease your anxiety a little? Through this post you've physically brought peoples attention to your skin, and we all think your skin looks great! Compare that to 'real life' situations where people aren't necessarily focused on your skin - they're looking at everything else around them at once, so I personally don't think that they'd see anything 'wrong' with your skin at all and just see you overall or see your skin as nice or normal etc. I just mean to say that as much as we may feel people are analysing our skin in real life situations, I think we're just overly worried about that and it's not necessarily happening. People are too busy with everything else around them and probably thinking of themselves as well, that they don't analyse our skin like we do.

 

I don't know if that makes any sense.... but point is - your skin is looking really good!

 

Thanks, Lily. Doing this has helped me tremendously - far more than I expected. Can`t quite believe that some people actually think that my skin looks good but I will accept the compliments!

 

I totally get what you mean about how in real-life, people wouldn`t necessarily be examining my skin to the same degree that they would on here.

 

I`ve come across some of your posts and hope you don`t mind me saying but you seem to have some similar issues to Moonlit River in terms of how your view yourself. Also noticed that you are very rational and logical about acne when you are giving advice to others - you just need to apply some of that to yourself!

 

By the way, I`m a big cricket fan. Not sure if you are but as you are from Australia, just thought I`d remind you that England have won the Ashes!

 

All the best!

Your skin really does look fantastic! <3




#3369192 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 25 July 2013 - 09:48 PM

Thank you all so much! I'm always so amazed at how kind and supportive everyone here is. You guys are wonderful. wub.png

i read ur blog too!comfort.gif


 


am sorry u had to go through so much darling.but u know what?its just made u who u r.

its just made u realise the difference between being good and mean.

its made u beautiful inside and no one can change that.no one can beat that!

*hugs*

Thank you! It feels really good to hear this. smile.png You have all been so warm and supportive.

 

Savybanana, I have just read your blog and as Flagg has said, to have been through everything that you have and come through those times shows just how courageous and brave you are.

I don`t know you, probably have very little in common with you and I`m old enough to be your dad but I can totally relate to what it feels like to go through dark periods and feel hideous, worthless, hopeless and repulsive. I`m currently having CBT which helps but I still get days and times where the self-loathing thoughts and lack of self worth are too overpowering to challenge.

Really sorry that you are going through such a tough time right now. However, you CAN and you WILL get through this. You`ve done it before and you can do it again. There are lots of people on this forum who are rooting for you and I`m sure that you have loved ones around you who will support you in the best way that they can. You are a fantastic person inside and out and have everything to live for.

Look after yourself Savy - my thoughts are with you.

Gosh, thank you! This just warmed my heart. wub.png I'm trying to push through. I'm really glad CBT has been helpful to you. I already feel better reading this.. so encouraging. Thanks. smile.png



Thank you all so much! I'm always so amazed at how kind and supportive everyone here is. You guys are wonderful. wub.png

 

'The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen' - Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

Beautiful quote. Thank you! smile.png

 

 

 

 




#3366102 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 13 July 2013 - 02:04 PM

Oh my goodness, it is scary, isn't it? I totally know what you mean- I can't tell if I'm actually losing my hair either! I've tried brushing it as little as possible, and I only wash my hair every other day now because I also feel like I lose more hair after showering. Yeah probably right that stress makes it worse, but it's hard not to stress out when your hair is falling out! I really feel like it has a hormonal component to it. Right before I took Accutane, when my acne was at it's worst, large painful pimples all over my chin and the oiliest skin in the world, I developed alopecia and I was left with a huge bald spot on the right side of my head. Luckily there was a layer of hair to cover it, and it has since then grown back, but ever since then my hair has been getting thinner, and I have more all-over hair loss. I was just looking at a picture of myself from a couple of years ago, and my hair was so, so thick! I'd say my hair is half the thickness now of what it was. It's driving me crazy. I miss my thick hair. sad.png

Yeah it is scary! I can only imagine what it would have been like dealing with alopecia. I would have been terrified honestly. Glad to hear things have improved since then though. 

In high school people used to tell me they loved my hair. I'm sure it's thinned a fair bit since then.

 

It's hard to work out the cause. I'm sure there's a hormonal component to it too. Could be some sort of vitamin deficiency also and stress like I said before.

 

Hopefully we all figure out what the deal is with this thinning hair issue and how to help it. Hope it only improves from here on!!

Dealing with alopecia was awful! I felt horribly gross and ugly. I was petrified that it wouldn't grow back. People also used to compliment my hair a lot, but I don't get that much anymore.

 

I'm sure you're right that all of those factors play a part. I was looking into vitamin deficiencies that would cause thinning hair, and I'm going to try incorporating more foods high in those vitamins into my diet, and I will probably start taking some supplements.

 

I hope we figure it out too, and that this problem will improve! :)




#3365980 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 12 July 2013 - 10:56 PM

I know this has nothing to do with acne, but I'm losing my hair!!!! :***( I'm down to about a third of the original thickness. Every time I wash my hair, shocks/locks of it fall out. It's more every time. And when I run my hand through my hair, a few strands fall out. It's literally like one strand every five minutes. I made an appointment with a derm in my area today for that purpose. I'll probably cancel my appt with the OB, just because I didn't realize that derms dealt with hair issues as well...

 

My skin is looking pretty clear, on the bright side. I've decided that I'm going to refrain from make-up as long as I can, even when college starts up again. I'll use it on nights out and special occasions only. I was thinking of buying some MAC foundation, since I used to use that sparingly in high school and loved the way that it looked, but my True Match topped with Alima Pure looked so wonderful today when I tried it on, that I just decided against it for now. I don't want to waste money...

 

>I'm losing my hair too! Every time I brush my hair, my hair brush is full of my hair, my hair is always all over my clothes, etc. My hair used to be so thick.

sad.png I've gone to my doctor many times for it, but he thinks it's normal. It really bothers me. I wonder what it could be.


 

 

 

Same here! I asked my doctor about it a few months ago when I had a blood test for PCOS and was asking about using birth control or spiro for my acne. She didn't seem worried or concerned about it - but to me it's thinning. 

It really scares me at times but I haven't been worrying about it so much lately. It's hard for me to tell if I am actually losing hair or not - I realised I stopped brushing my hair that often because I was worried about that causing more hair loss - but then that makes it look like I'm losing more hair when I do brush my hair because the 'normal' everyday hair loss is just staying 'caught' in my hair and all coming out at once when I brush so it looks like a lot. (I don't know if that makes sense to you but not sure how else to say it). Same for in the shower - I feel I lose a lot more than what's normal in the shower. And throughout the day if I run my fingers in my hair I'll have a few strands in my hand. I was very stressed and had high anxiety a couple of months ago when this was worrying me the most - I think things like high stress and anxiety can cause hair loss too so that could have been contributing to it for me then. For now I'm keeping an eye on it but trying not to stress about it because I think that could make it worse. I think I would much rather have acne than lose my hair if it couldn't grow back.

 

Oh my goodness, it is scary, isn't it? I totally know what you mean- I can't tell if I'm actually losing my hair either! I've tried brushing it as little as possible, and I only wash my hair every other day now because I also feel like I lose more hair after showering. Yeah probably right that stress makes it worse, but it's hard not to stress out when your hair is falling out! I really feel like it has a hormonal component to it. Right before I took Accutane, when my acne was at it's worst, large painful pimples all over my chin and the oiliest skin in the world, I developed alopecia and I was left with a huge bald spot on the right side of my head. Luckily there was a layer of hair to cover it, and it has since then grown back, but ever since then my hair has been getting thinner, and I have more all-over hair loss. I was just looking at a picture of myself from a couple of years ago, and my hair was so, so thick! I'd say my hair is half the thickness now of what it was. It's driving me crazy. I miss my thick hair. :(




#3365781 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 12 July 2013 - 12:39 AM

I`m much the same as the past few days. Face is clear but neck area is a problem. I could stop shaving until it clears up but I look stupid with a beard. It grows patchily and coz I`m old, there are grey bits in my beard these days. Hopefully it will clear up in the next few days.

 

A complete stranger told me I have very pretty skin today! smile.png

 

That stranger is totally correct. Hopefully, you can believe it and embrace it.

Thank you so much! wub.png




#3365772 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 11 July 2013 - 11:28 PM

A complete stranger told me I have very pretty skin today! :)


#3359530 The Big Hormone Post For Both Men And Women

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 19 June 2013 - 07:02 PM

Gosh this is amazing. Thanks for putting all of this information into one post. The one I always forget is caffeine! I drink too much tea, which could be why I've started to get a little bit of acne on my chin again. I'm so glad I cut out dairy, but I still have to make a conscious effort to minimize my sugar intake. Sugar definitely has a dramatic effect on my skin. I don't know if I can go without makeup yet though. :(




#3355593 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 06 June 2013 - 05:37 PM

The past two days have been really crappy. I passed out yesterday during a physical for a job, yes a JOB, because the Spiro made my blood pressure drop way too low. Now the doctor doing my physical doesn't want to okay me to work, and my personal doctor is making me stop the Spiro. Ugh, hello oily skin and acne, and goodbye joY

It's great that American kids start working so young.I mean you're 17 right? And you're already applying for jobs!That makes me feel preposterous.I'm 21 this 21st June and all i do is splurge on myself with my parents' money :/...Feel proud about yourself young lady!

Thank you!! Haha, I wish I could splurge on my parents' money! :) I just got a call that I still have the job, so I'm pretty happy. My job is a paid internship at the hospital near my home, and I get to work in the neonatal unit. I'm so excited!




#3355031 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 04 June 2013 - 11:52 PM

For what it's worth, I've never EVER heard a girl mention a guys acne once in my life (outside of the internet, of course). There are a few guys at my school who have moderate to severe cystic acne and there are girls who talk about how cute they are. One of them even has a really pretty girlfriend.

On a positive note, two of my lady friends were talking about this guy with acne as bad as mine (severe) and they were talking about how he is so cute and all that good stuff. They didn't mention his acne even once. So I guess that there are people out there that look past the acne.



Feeling pretty done with life right now. Step one of my life right now is to fix my skin (which will probably never happen) and step two is to try and fix everything else that's wrong with me. cry.gif ermm.gif




#3293559 Psychological - My Huge Nose!

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 09 October 2012 - 07:09 PM

So it's not okay to have a big nose if you're a girl? Thanks man.


#3237807 Examples Of How Bad Our 'health' Care System Has Become

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 24 April 2012 - 12:02 PM

You're right. I'm sorry, I was out of line. I see you weren't saying any of the things I assumed you were. I actually have already watched it, and I probably should have before posting on here. I was obviously mistaken, and I should have done more of my research. I have read some of the other things you've written on this board and they were actually very helpful. I started looking into a good diet for my acne a while ago and I was just bombarded with so many different opinions on what is considered a "good diet," so I was left really confused. My horrible and senseless rants were a product of a really bad week. So again, I apologize.


#3236892 Examples Of How Bad Our 'health' Care System Has Become

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 22 April 2012 - 12:18 AM

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#3236079 Examples Of How Bad Our 'health' Care System Has Become

Posted by FlowerGirl1234 on 19 April 2012 - 09:25 PM

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