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FlowerGirl1234

Member Since 06 Feb 2012
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In Topic: Starting Spironolactone Today..nervous And Questions!

30 October 2013 - 10:09 PM

I took 100 mgs and was fine. It wasn't until I got up to 150 that it started messing with my blood pressure.

In Topic: How ya feelin' about your acne today?

30 October 2013 - 09:43 PM

Rough time right now, and it's definitely showing in my skin. My dog and my grandmother just died weeks apart, I had a cutting relapse (after being "clean" for around 9 months), I'm back in therapy for depression, I was diagnosed with BDD and I'm being "treated" for what my doctors and therapists think is an eating disorder, so now I feel like a fat bloated pig. I've been eating bad, breaking out, and the size of my pores is making me crazy. You know it's bad when you're laying in bed awake at one in the morning, crying because your skin is so bad and you have no hope it will ever get better and you just want to die, and your tears sting your face because your skin is so irritated from your acne medication. And then you have to get up every morning and put on your face of makeup and your skin is so dry it looks like the cracked earth during a drought, and you have to deal with people everyday making little comments about your appearance, judging you and making you feel even worse about yourself, when you could have done that all by yourself.
So yeah, life's great.

 
Oh Savy - I'm so sorry to hear of the rough time you're going through right now!
You're such a lovely girl and have been a great help to many people here in the past (myself included) so I hate to hear you're feeling this way and really hope you're doing better soon.
Hang in there :comfort:

Thank you, that's really nice to hear! :) You are so supportive. I'm trying to hold on, it's so hard sometimes though. :/

Rough time right now, and it's definitely showing in my skin. My dog and my grandmother just died weeks apart, I had a cutting relapse (after being "clean" for around 9 months), I'm back in therapy for depression, I was diagnosed with BDD and I'm being "treated" for what my doctors and therapists think is an eating disorder, so now I feel like a fat bloated pig. I've been eating bad, breaking out, and the size of my pores is making me crazy. You know it's bad when you're laying in bed awake at one in the morning, crying because your skin is so bad and you have no hope it will ever get better and you just want to die, and your tears sting your face because your skin is so irritated from your acne medication. And then you have to get up every morning and put on your face of makeup and your skin is so dry it looks like the cracked earth during a drought, and you have to deal with people everyday making little comments about your appearance, judging you and making you feel even worse about yourself, when you could have done that all by yourself.
So yeah, life's great.

Sorry to hear about your grandma AND your dog.  That sux.  Your post resonated w/ me.  Just know, you're not alone.  Ive been there many times myself w/ the same things you;ve described.  Good luck

Thank you so much. It's always nice to know someone else knows what I'm going through. <3

Rough time right now, and it's definitely showing in my skin. My dog and my grandmother just died weeks apart, I had a cutting relapse (after being "clean" for around 9 months), I'm back in therapy for depression, I was diagnosed with BDD and I'm being "treated" for what my doctors and therapists think is an eating disorder, so now I feel like a fat bloated pig. I've been eating bad, breaking out, and the size of my pores is making me crazy. You know it's bad when you're laying in bed awake at one in the morning, crying because your skin is so bad and you have no hope it will ever get better and you just want to die, and your tears sting your face because your skin is so irritated from your acne medication. And then you have to get up every morning and put on your face of makeup and your skin is so dry it looks like the cracked earth during a drought, and you have to deal with people everyday making little comments about your appearance, judging you and making you feel even worse about yourself, when you could have done that all by yourself.
So yeah, life's great.

 
So sorry for your losses :( I could feel your pain in every sentence you wrote. I completely understand the feeling of waking up and knowing for sure that when you go to the mirror, it'll be an exhausting effort to try to look presentable enough for the day. To the BDD, to the disordered eating, to the makeup on the dry, peeling skin, I understand. Please hang in there.

Someone cursed me, there is no other explanation.. the derm wouldn't prescribe antibiotics but suggested accutane! I cured my acne almost alone the previous time with spiro.. doctors only suggested things that didn't work.. and the medicine that changed my life, they don't like it but accutane is fine for them! If there wasn't that dermatology lesson at the university i doubt i would have at least the 2 beautiful years spiro gave me.

It's so frustrating when doctors don't give you when you think will help. I always feel powerless when I go to the doctors. Even though I do a TON of research before going, I always feel like my words are sort of ignored and the doctors just do what they want. Did they give you a reason for not prescribing spiro?
Skin/Feelings Update: I traveled earlier this week and that ALWAYS gives me a zit or two. I got two this time, but they're going away and don't hurt. My red marks are going away and I feel like I'm going to have decent skin by the time basic training rolls around. Paula's Choice 5% AHA is now a "Holy Grail" product for me, and that's never happened before. All of my other products have qualities that I don't like, but not Paula's Choice AHA. Also, the Olay brush is keeping my skin soft AND helping my red marks. The best thing I'm doing for my skin is still NOT PICKING IT. Ugh, it's so hard because I know for a fact that I have Compulsive Skin Picking issues.. :( But seriously, if I can stop, so can you. So! Message me if you'd like to talk about stopping your picking.

Thank you, your support means a lot. Having bad skin is so hard. It makes every other aspect of life that much more complicated. I'm glad I'm not alone in this, but I'm also sorry you have to deal with these things too. :(

In Topic: How ya feelin' about your acne today?

29 October 2013 - 03:03 PM

Rough time right now, and it's definitely showing in my skin. My dog and my grandmother just died weeks apart, I had a cutting relapse (after being "clean" for around 9 months), I'm back in therapy for depression, I was diagnosed with BDD and I'm being "treated" for what my doctors and therapists think is an eating disorder, so now I feel like a fat bloated pig. I've been eating bad, breaking out, and the size of my pores is making me crazy. You know it's bad when you're laying in bed awake at one in the morning, crying because your skin is so bad and you have no hope it will ever get better and you just want to die, and your tears sting your face because your skin is so irritated from your acne medication. And then you have to get up every morning and put on your face of makeup and your skin is so dry it looks like the cracked earth during a drought, and you have to deal with people everyday making little comments about your appearance, judging you and making you feel even worse about yourself, when you could have done that all by yourself.

So yeah, life's great.

In Topic: How ya feelin' about your acne today?

11 August 2013 - 11:07 PM


 

 

Not too bad. Still got the remnants of a cyst on my right cheek and some hp on my right jawline and neck from a recent breakout. However there is nothing active and my left side is completely clear.

 

Hope you don`t mind acne.orgers` but I`d like to use this thread to conduct a kind of social experiment for myself. Last week at a CBT session, I had a photo taken of the right side of my face/neck. I was a little broken out at the time and the photo really freaked me out as I looked hideous. Still don`t think that I look great right now but I have cleared up a little bit and feel confident and comfortable enough to post a couple of photos I took of myself when I got home from work today. Here they are:

 

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I`m a little bit anxious doing this as I worry what people will think of me. Just doing it as kind of test really to challenge some of the anxiety that I feel over my appearance. Hope you all go easy on me.

I don't think I can add anything else to what people have already said except that I agree with them. I think your skin really does look great!! And that's not going easy on you or just being nice or anything. That's honestly what I see.

 

Maybe that can ease your anxiety a little? Through this post you've physically brought peoples attention to your skin, and we all think your skin looks great! Compare that to 'real life' situations where people aren't necessarily focused on your skin - they're looking at everything else around them at once, so I personally don't think that they'd see anything 'wrong' with your skin at all and just see you overall or see your skin as nice or normal etc. I just mean to say that as much as we may feel people are analysing our skin in real life situations, I think we're just overly worried about that and it's not necessarily happening. People are too busy with everything else around them and probably thinking of themselves as well, that they don't analyse our skin like we do.

 

I don't know if that makes any sense.... but point is - your skin is looking really good!

 

Thanks, Lily. Doing this has helped me tremendously - far more than I expected. Can`t quite believe that some people actually think that my skin looks good but I will accept the compliments!

 

I totally get what you mean about how in real-life, people wouldn`t necessarily be examining my skin to the same degree that they would on here.

 

I`ve come across some of your posts and hope you don`t mind me saying but you seem to have some similar issues to Moonlit River in terms of how your view yourself. Also noticed that you are very rational and logical about acne when you are giving advice to others - you just need to apply some of that to yourself!

 

By the way, I`m a big cricket fan. Not sure if you are but as you are from Australia, just thought I`d remind you that England have won the Ashes!

 

All the best!

Your skin really does look fantastic! <3


In Topic: How ya feelin' about your acne today?

26 July 2013 - 10:35 PM

I don't feel like I can do this anymore.

Read your signature!!! You can do this, whatever this is. Just focus on something good, something or someone that you love. Talk to friends -- that always helps. Sometimes, I don't even have to tell them something is wrong. Just starting a conversation will help to cheer you up! 

Thank you!! wub.png