I've been dealing with acne for about 4 years now. I'm 20. Admittedly, it has calmed down a lot. But I still get pustules occasionally and clogged pores frequently. The past 2 months or so, my skin has been looking great. I was taking Minocycline twice a day and using Epiduo at night. I stopped taking the Mino abruptly (stupid of me) to see if my skin truly needed it or not. The past few weeks it's been doing pretty well until now. I've gotten a few more pustules than usual and the pores next to my nose are going CRAZY. Every day a good number of them are clogged with little whiteheads and I pop them and empty the pus out. Gross, I know. Then within a day they're clogged again.
Today I woke up with much more clogged than usual and they were big whiteheads too. I popped them, and within TWO HOURS they were clogged up again with whiteheads. I broke down at breakfast crying because they just look so gross and I can't get rid of them. The weird thing is, it's only the right side of next to my nose that gets these clogged pores. The left side NEVER gets them, only the right. I wash my face twice a day with CeraVe cleanser and use a Clarisonic every night in the shower. I just don't understand.
Realistically, this is milder than the acne I've dealt with before, and I know that. But it's like if it's not one thing that's making me depressed, it's another. Once my skin was looking better a month ago, I started feeling insecure about my body, even though I normally am fine with my body. I started working out like crazy and trying to eat healthier. Then, now that my skin is looking worse again, I'm depressed about my skin. I've seen a psychologist in the past who said I most likely have a form of OCD relating to how I look.
I can't seem to get over this. It's like every day it's a new battle. I just look in the mirror and wonder why my skin is like this. Why, if I'm doing all these things to help my skin, does it clog up anyway? I need to get a hold of myself because I just got a job and I'm also taking courses this summer. The most important thing on my mind should be my education, but instead, it's my skin, and the way that I look. What is wrong with me?