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#3486760 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by leelowe1 on 04 July 2015 - 05:47 PM

Feeling pretty good!  My move out of state is complete and I'm with family that I adore. My acne sucks and my skin is irritated but it's out of my control.  

Happy 4th to all.

#3485274 Why Can't People Admit That Some People Will Never Get Better?

Posted by leelowe1 on 21 June 2015 - 04:19 PM

I think that a misguided sense of optimism is part of the reason I feel so bad about myself now. In my late teens/early twenties I got myself through my struggles with acne by believing that things would definitely improve as i got older. I focused on my studies, educating myself, making myself a more interesting and successful person. All the while I visualized my older self as a confident, clear-skinned adult.
I'm now 30 and my acne is as bad as ever, combined with persistent eczema. I have also started to lose my hair (I'm a male). I'm now more revolting than ever, and have been continuously ignored or rejected by women. Remembering my former optimism, even remembering the way I used to look, with acne but at least with a full head of hair, makes the pain worse. I should have been better prepared for this and wish I'd focused on accepting my appearance, instead of placing false hope in the mantra that 'things can only get better' with time.

Jamie, I'm sorry you're going through this.  I too was banking on the fact that by my thirties, acne wouldn't be an issue.  It still is and I've pretty much exhausted my options except for more BC or Spiro or going vegan.  I am at the stage where I am trying to accept my appearance as is because unless it is by divine intervention, I don't foresee my acne getting under control again.   The good news is that Midwest can be changed so don't give up.  I refuse to be beaten down into submission.  Neither should you.

#3484940 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by leelowe1 on 18 June 2015 - 06:02 PM

Having acne that does not respond to treatment just sucks.  Having acne AND eczema sucks.  Being 31 with acne sucks.  Breaking out from using a retinoid that you know will not work sucks.  Having failed accutane sucks.  Being diligent with diet and lifestyle changes and having nothing change sucks.  Realizing that you're probably never going to kick this disease with the current treatments out there (both natural and man made) sucks.  Having to live life knowing all of the above means I have to dig deep and find a strength I didn't know I possessed.  Right now the only thing keeping me afloat is God Almighty.

#3484892 Please Help!

Posted by leelowe1 on 18 June 2015 - 11:16 AM

Did you have chronic acne prior to this?  If not, then your hormones could be to blame.  Your options are very limiting if hormones are playing a major role.  You could use the regimen from this website, adjust your diet (cut back on dairy and gluten), do stress exercises.

Sometimes with pregnancy acne, aside from certain topicals , you just have to let it ride.  


#3484693 So Tired Of It..

Posted by leelowe1 on 16 June 2015 - 06:33 PM

I agree with the above poster in regards to diverting your attention else where.  I used to get up every morning and stare in the mirror to see how bad my acne was today.  It was draining, emotionally demoralizing and fed into my self hatred more.  I recommend you start by stepping away from your mirror.  Look briefly and leave it alone.   I also make plans without regards to my acne so even if I am all broken out, I still go.  No one comments and 9/10 times I enjoy myself immensely.  In order to reduce stress. You have to actively do things such as exercise, breathing exercises, yoga, take supplements/teas/healthy foods, journal.....whatever works for you.  It's a work in progress for me and I am failing miserably at times but I am more aware when I am tense and try to incorporate some of the above.

Lastly, do something for someone else.  I joined big brother big sister and it is so fulfilling.  My little sister is 12 and has moderate acne and being around her and seeing how carefree she is let's me feel as if life with acne is not the worse thing that could happen to us. I am starting to accept that this may be permanent for me and though it sucks, keeping it in perspective gives me perspective.

Hope it helps.

#3484691 Horrified To Take My First Accutane Pill?

Posted by leelowe1 on 16 June 2015 - 06:13 PM

If you're this anxious about accutane I recommend trying something else.  Accutane is a scary drug with real side effects that may or may not last.  It should definitely be a last resort.  If you have tried many things then the only thing left to do is is suck it up and just do it.  The first few doses are usually the hardest.

#3484283 21 Year Old W/unexpected Acne Breakout

Posted by leelowe1 on 12 June 2015 - 05:28 PM

I am so sorry you're going through this.  It's hard to say for sure what has caused the sudden flare in acne.  My suggestion to you is to take a deep breath and don't blame yourself.  You can try diet changes such as cutting back dairy and increasing fruits a veggies.  Cut out soda, junk and sugar/processed food too.  Give it 3 months.  If after that time you see no improvement, visit a derm

#3484163 How Do You Accept Your Looks Being Permanently Ruined?

Posted by leelowe1 on 11 June 2015 - 03:35 PM

Hi Lucus.  I too seem to have treatment resistant acne and have tried most things including accutane.  I have also changed my diet, lifestyle, done elimination diets and seen numerous naturopaths to no avail.  What I have started to shift my focus to is acceptance.  I avoid looking at myself and when I do, I tell my self that I am more than my acne.  Sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn't but I still do it.  Cut out the negative self talk.  Say positive things to and about yourself even if you don't believe them.  The fact of the matter is that you may never find a treatment plan that works but that doesn't mean that in the meantime you can't live.  I am forcing myself to go out and live and you know what, it makes dealing with the skin that I have that much more bearable.  I have honestly lost hope of ever finding something that works but I don't feel as hopeless about the rest of my life as I usually do.  If you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me.

#3483541 Really Big Cyst-Looking Fleshy Lump On Chest. I Have No Idea What This Is Or...

Posted by leelowe1 on 06 June 2015 - 05:22 AM

I think a medical professional would be your best bet.  Don't play around with it as it may get infected

#3482710 People Get Disgusted When I'm Around.

Posted by leelowe1 on 30 May 2015 - 07:29 AM

I'm not posting these thoughts right now to receive anyone's sympathy or empathy. I'm writing these thoughts at the moment to let people know that their words do mean a lot to another individual's state of mind. 
My dad has been admitted into the hospital because his health is deteriorating, and the doctors have given my family the worst possible scenario as a foreseeable outcome. Right now, my thoughts are completely numb, but while being in the hospital and having to interact with the medical staff, visiting relatives, and seeing other people in general, my thoughts get persuaded in the wrong direction because of my skin, and it takes my focus away from my father, but with this thread and people's encouragement, I have been able to remove my insecure thoughts and focus on the only thing that should matter in my mind right now.
I just want to thank everyone on this website for giving me the confidence I need in this dreadful moment in my life. Thank you so much.    

Praying for you and your family Rick.

Hugs from NYC

#3482414 Hey Someone Help

Posted by leelowe1 on 27 May 2015 - 05:35 PM

Susan I know how you feel as I've been there.  Many people clear up after treatment so don't lose hope.  Also keep in mind that topicals will sometimes work better post accutane than pre accutane.

Good Luck

#3482293 What Type Of Acne Is This? With Pictures.

Posted by leelowe1 on 26 May 2015 - 07:16 PM

You're really pretty acne or not.  Some men and people in general can be shallow but the people that count will not be.  Your acne looks on the mild side of moderate. Mid you don't want to use chemicals how about diet changes?

#3481056 How Much Acne Changed Your Confidence?

Posted by leelowe1 on 14 May 2015 - 02:58 PM

Acne is evil and I told my husband if I had a genie my first wish would be that pimples did not exist.

That's really cool and awesome of you.  I would usually wish that I was healed and my acne was gone for ever, but I rarely think to wish acne gone in general.  Maybe it's because of what it does for a lot of people.  Causes them to be more understanding and loving.  And if we all make it through...

Wise words from such a young man.  Acne definitely allows us to look past the flaws in others.  That thought doesn't always make it easier to deal with though but i believe that everyone has a cross to bear.

#3480675 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by leelowe1 on 11 May 2015 - 03:52 PM

Cried like a little bitch today. Then I sucked it up and took my kids to the McDonald's play place. They had fun, and I feel better, though my skin is still shit. Acne isn't too bad, but it looks splotchy and uneven, and my pores are effin' huge. Trying to drink more water because I think my skin might be dehydrated (go figure, I'm oily as Hell with dehydrated skin) I'm back on a low carb diet as of today, and that always makes me feel better mentally. I also think it does my skin good.

You're never weak for crying.  It's what makes us human.  The fact that you picked yourself up says a lot about your strong and resilient character.

Keep on keeping on

#3480346 New To Differin, Help!?

Posted by leelowe1 on 08 May 2015 - 06:53 PM

Absolutely.  The first couple of months on a retinoid can be rough so you have to hang tight.  My first few weeks/months on differin were hell with multiple breakouts all over.  Differin ultimately did not clear my acne but the breakouts were not as horrid as it was.

I agree that antibiotics are bad for your body.  Why not try a topical one?