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#3460689 Spiro...my Last Hope

Posted by leelowe1 on 19 November 2014 - 05:54 PM

Well the thing by my nose ended up being just a small pimple..yayyy!  Tuesday morning woke up with a biggish spot on my chin and a lip zit.  I cannot tell you how much I hate lip zits.  I literally get them on the line of my lip.  They get red as hell and stay with me for a couple of weeks.  I don't like to get cortisone shots for those suckers bc I usually get atrophy in the lip line.


With that said, I thought for sure the chin one was going to turn cystic and that I wld have to deal with the lip one.  Wellll..they both came to a head and now they are small as can be.  I truly cant believe it.  98% of the time my lumps turn into cysts..I cannot tell you how happy I am.  I truly believe spiro is starting to work.  I would like to be not breaking out at all, but believe me, I will take this.  Small pimples I can deal with.  Its 2 1/2 weeks since my last cortisone shot, it feels so wonderful.


The coming days will be telling, my period comes next week.  Keeping my fingers crossed!  As of right now, I am LOVING spiro!!

I am so excited for you!  You deserve a break from everything!

#3460030 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by leelowe1 on 15 November 2014 - 06:13 PM

I feel like I'm running out of steam. Even taking my dog for a walk requires a lot of mental prepping. I'm supposed to go shopping with friends tomorrow but im thinking of excuses to get out of it. Also considering not going home for thanksgiving. I was doing so well for a while, taking it day by day, but I'm done. I want off this ride already.

All I can do is dust myself off and keep moving forward I guess. But I just wish it wasn't consuming so much of my life.

I can relate to this so much. Trying to get through everyday as if you feel/look like everyone else.  It can get frustrating and overwhelming at times but i'm here to tell you to keep on keeping on.  Life is way too short for us to give up and give in to our skin issues and that is coming from someone who is CURRENTLY dealing with acne.  Definitely go be with the fam on Thanksgiving because they love and accept you with or without acne.

#3459790 Help! Cutting Back On Benzoyl Peroxide

Posted by leelowe1 on 13 November 2014 - 08:24 PM

I agree with the above poster.  BP is what is keeping you clear but once you cut back or stop then most likely your acne will return.  When i stopped using BP earlier this year due to developing eczema, i was fine for a few months then my acne exploded.  It was bad enough to go on another round of accutane.   I eventually had to discontinue my tane course due to health reasons so now i am back to the drawing board.  Maybe you can try another topical such as a retinoid which may be less harsh than BP or try helping your acne internally.  You could also deal with more acne and use BP not as often.


Quitting BP was a tough decision for me and my skin hasn't bounced back months later but everyone is different

#3459786 What Is This Redness Im Worried

Posted by leelowe1 on 13 November 2014 - 08:04 PM

When starting a retinoid, irritation in the form of redness and itchiness is quite normal.  How long have you been on differin?  Make sure you're only using a pea sized amount (yes, more is definitely NOT better so don't use more).  If your skin feels/looks irritated, skip a night and try using it every other night and work your way up



Good Luck, be patient and remember retinoids are a tedious trial and error process

#3459627 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by leelowe1 on 12 November 2014 - 05:57 PM

I'm risking posting again even though I was verbally attacked and insulted for no good reason last time I did here (like someone telling me to "get over it" when I was simply posting my feelings that day..and even accusing me of having a mental disorder when all I was doing was expressing how strangers comments in person hurt me). I'm really stressed because I just found out that I am pregnant. There is so much conflicting information out there on whether I can use Benzoyl peroxide or AHA. But my face will be a huge cystic mess without it. To top it off, I'm paranoid to dye my premature gray hairs now and it looks so out of place on someone in their 20s. I have nowhere to turn. My hormones and emotions are a mess because of pregnancy and I have no friends. I should be happy now...but dealing with rude comments from strangers about my cysts and gray hair always puts me in a bad mood, even if I was feeling good earlier. And now I brace myself to get insulted again on this forum. There is no winning.

Congrats on the pregnancy.  You may not have planned this but new life is always a blessing.  I would direct the topical questions to your OBGYN to be on the safe side.  In regards to your emotions, ignore the negativity as people will ALWAYS have an opinion but you can choose to listen to it or ignore it.  Your skin may very well go through changes because of your hormones but take it one step at a time, day by day.


Good Luck

#3459626 Those Vitamins Dont Work

Posted by leelowe1 on 12 November 2014 - 05:53 PM


vit c

all b vits

vit d3

vit a



still breaking out af, acne, clogged pores etc, spreads to body, just f everywhere.

I have had the same experience with all supplements that i have taken.  I think very few people clear from supplements alone as acne is multi prong disease that often times needs a multi prong approach.  How's your diet, stress, skin care, physical activity, etc.  Sometimes is just a matter of finding the right combo of things externally and internally to help


Good Luck from a fellow acne struggler.

#3458432 Does My Acne Look So Bad That I Need To Go On Accutane?

Posted by leelowe1 on 02 November 2014 - 12:36 PM

Imo the marks left behind from the acne make your skin look much worse than it actually is.  i wouldn't immediately recommend accutane unless youve tried a few things such as :


Diet changes (dairy gluten free for three months)

Increase in fibre rich foods and decrease in junk

Supplementsprescription topicals (several)

#3457739 Aggresaive Acne Treatment That Clears Skin Completly. Highly Over Looked

Posted by leelowe1 on 27 October 2014 - 03:41 PM

Thank you for sharing what works for YOU.  There is no one treatment that works 100% of the time for 100% of the people but the more people that post their success stories, the more options we acne sufferers have.

#3457388 Documenting My 'tane Journey 37 Year Old Female

Posted by leelowe1 on 24 October 2014 - 06:45 PM


Ugh my tryglicerides, glucose and ALT (liver function) results were all elevated. The doctor wants me to go down to 60 mg a day. However, we know from earlier drama that my insurance doesn't cover 30 mg pills. The nurse was talking to the doctor and calling me back.

Ok my doctor called back and is prescribing three 20 mg pills daily. So it's 60 mg everyday. I guess it's better than going down to 40. I'm slightly bummed about having to drop at all.

What were your numbers if you don't mind sharing.  My enzymes went into the 400's and 500's and my glucose went up too so i had to discontinue treatment.  Good luck.

The dr didn't give me the exact numbers, but the lab usually has my results on the website in a few days so I'll update when I get them. Sorry you had to discontinue! What month were you in?

The first month.  Everything happens for a reason.

#3457378 Differin For Hormonal Acne

Posted by leelowe1 on 24 October 2014 - 05:47 PM

Retinoids take 3 month to show results for many people and purging can continue up until the 3rd month (any longer and you may want to add to/change your regimen).  Stay positive as you are still early in your treatment.

#3457220 Feeling Like A Million Bucks! I Know It Will Work This Time :d

Posted by leelowe1 on 23 October 2014 - 05:55 PM

I'm adding the following to my treatment:

-kojic acid soap
- papaya soap
-lactic acid weekly treatment
-skin whitening pills
- retin-A/ tretinoin
- 2% hydroquinone cream

I feel like I have the most stubborn acne on this forum. Others clear somewhat by month 3, while I'm on month 2.5 and I look worse than ever. If this doesn't work idk what will. It's not fair that my derm will keep me at 40mg until the end of my treatment as I'm ~63kg which would mean that my max dose should be 60mg.
My body has gotten used to the medicine and I don't have any side effects.
I feel like none of my dermatologists have ever cared about my true needs which is why I haven't gotten on accutane earlier.
I'm feeling pretty down, because I look 10x worse than before accutane.
It sucks that I have to endure this for the next semester as well. I'm losing hope accutane will work for me...
All I want to do is cry my sadness out.
If karma exists, I wonder what I've done in my previous life to be punished in such a way. If it doesn't, I know for a fact that I've done everything I could to look normal. It just hurts so much to have to look at the innumerable flaws on a daily basis, hoping that the next thing will take care of them, only to be let down.
Then I accept the fact that by whatever reason of the universe im not allowed to look normal. Ive been punished for eternity. I've given up the fight so many times AND have accepted myself as I am, but the world keeps reminding me that there's something wrong with me and that I should fix it. Society doesn't accept women with acne. People think you don't use the right products or that you don't take care of yourself. That's when i get tired of being categorized and i resume the fight, even though I know how it'll end.
I put on makeup, but I'm not fooling anyone. I try to be happy, until I realize that someone is judging me and I slowly die on the inside.

Very few people are able to understand me, which is why I'm opening up on here. Not everyone knows what it's like to deal with acne and depression caused by it.
I'm feeling sad and ashamed because of the worthless piece of garbage that I am. I just want to stop caring about what others think about me, but I can't. I'll never have a normal life unless I live in complete isolation or with people who are more tolerant of imperfections.
I really don't know why I'm being punished with this.... ;(

I think I need to start taking something for depression to get me through this.

You are going to get through this.  Almost everyone purges like crazy on accutane, some their entire course so you are not alone in that regard.  Accutane also makes you more emotional (it definitely did for me) so keep that in mind (don't be so hard on yourself).  Try to focus on things other than your skin because the fact of the matter is this:


You are going to have to go through the process.  And after that, there will be another process (ex: dealing with scars).  And after that, probably something else will come along.  The point is that for many of us, our skin journey will not end with accutane so we need to learn to love ourselves at our worst as well as at our best ( i am struggling with this right now),  You are loved by someone so don't ever feel as if you are an island.  I'm not sure if you have FAITH but I can tell you with a 100% certainty that there is a God who is always there when we're at our lowest.  He ALWAYS provides the support we need in some way, shape or form even if he doesn't remove our burden.  Like many have said, you will be such a stronger person as you go through this journey and you have the opportunity to make an impact on someone else.  Your journey can inspire.....never forget that.


Hugs from NY and if you ever need to talk , PM me.  I'll be rooting for youcheer.gif

#3455971 Is It Possible That A Dermatologist Works For Accutane Company?

Posted by leelowe1 on 14 October 2014 - 04:29 PM

Okay so here is the deal, yesterday I went to the dermatologist, people say he's the best in town 

and I've read many good feedbacks about him.



problem is, as soon as I entered his room he looked at my face, told me to turn the other cheek and immediately said :

" mhmmm, this is very bad, the only solution for you is definitely Accutane. "

*** I have to mention, last year my Acne was at least ten times worse and my face looks pretty smooth now, only a few 

small and barely seen pimples, problem is my skin acts weird ( I still have a few red spots left after pimples quiet a long time ago and facial redness ).

I immediately sensed a huge load of bullshit coming out of his mouth.. he started talking about some complicated stuff in the skin that has nothing to do with acne ( I know that because I had a few years to research the causes of my annoying acne and learned a lot about it ) and told me there is nothing else he can offer me except for the "Number one treatment that will stop my problem forever".

I asked about soaps and other treatments and he made a weird face while saying : "cleansers? pffffft, that has nothing to do with your Acne."


anyway what I am trying to figure out is - should I listen to this weirdo that acts like a smartass?

as I mentioned before my acne is not as bad as it was last year, that year I went on Accutane, 30mg for just 3 months.

now that my face is better he told me to go 40mg for 6 months, what the hell?


I'm still considering the fact that he may be right as this treatment can heal my acne but I don't see a reason to use this dangerous piece of crap just because I have a few pimples left on my face... only option left is that he works or cooperates with accutane companies and gets paid for every patient that goes on accutane thanks to him. please help me out because I don't know what to do!

For many people, accutane is not the ONLY solution and if you're uncomfortable with taking it, then don't.  There are some good derms and some downright pill pushers but at the end of the day, you have to be your own doctor and do what feels right.  I always like to start from the least intrusive treatment option and work my way up.  Therefore, start with diet, then a retinoid/anti microbial mix and if all of that fails, then accutane can be a possibility.


Wish someone would have told me that years ago.


Good Luck. 


BTW, it's easy to blame the derms and pharmacy's for everything but at the end of the day, we all have free will and a mind.

#3455296 Do You Think All Acne And Health In General Can Be Made Better?

Posted by leelowe1 on 09 October 2014 - 02:20 PM

You mentioned pre-diabetes...that's an indication that you have insulin problems. Limiting processed sugar is important...for pre-diabetes, you also have to limit fruits because they contain natural sugar as well. But don't completely cut them out. You can have, for instance, a banana on an empty stomach in the morning to give you energy... yes, the GI index of bananas might be a bit high, but I find that eating fruit on an empty stomach is better for their digestion.

I take inositol for insulin balance, that might help you as well. 

Perhaps an integrative doctor can help you, since they are open to holistic methods and can also order blood tests for you.

And I will say this again...my acupuncturists actually diagnosed me with health issues way before blood tests and traditional doctors discovered my issues! If you can find a good acupuncturist (that doesn't charge too much!), they might point out some underlying issues you didn't even know you had. I found out I had blood deficiency/ anemia through an acupuncturist way before blood tests confirmed it. They also figured out some of my digestive issues, and helped me manage stress. 

And yes, yoga can help too! You can look up specific poses for blood circulation and hormonal balance.

Thanks Wish Clean!  I am so happy that you have found your center again and still manage to come back here and encourage others.  I always thought my prediabetes had something to do with  my acne but even when i improved my a1c levels and cut back and virtually all processed sugars and limited carbs, my acne is still rampant.  I actually saw an accupuncturist for a while but i didn't find it useful.  In any event, i am starting over.  I have found a wonderful holistic person who used to be a nurse and is all about the scientific testing but holistic pathway so we'll see how it goes.  I will take your advice from the other blog and not focus on my skin so much but on more important life things.


Thanks again.  I have faith that given time and patience, my skin and my health can make a turn around.

#3454838 Finally Joined...just Want To Know Someone Understands...need To Vent.

Posted by leelowe1 on 06 October 2014 - 05:08 PM

My heart goes out to you.  I am 31 and still sturggling.  Good for you for sticking to your guns in terms of accutane.  It is a strong drug and i think the older you are when you take it, the harder the course can be.  What was your experience with the naturopath?


Keep on keeping on.  I find that my faith in God has been a tremendous help.  Reading about great men and women of the bible going through trials worse than this keeps me grounded (read about the story of Job or Joseph).


Your family loves you, your friends adore you and God is watching out for you....never think you are alone ever.

#3454165 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by leelowe1 on 01 October 2014 - 05:36 PM

My skin is the worst its been in years. 


Im going to the derma in a few days, i dont know if ill be taking accutane or an oral antibiotc, but i know im afraid of initial breakouts. 


Sometimes i wish i had no family and friends, just so nobody would suffer if i decided to take my own life. That's how im feeling.

Don't wish that.  We all go through seasons where we feel life is worthless and meaningless but remember even the longest seasons are not indefinite.  You are loved and even though things hurt right now, it will get better in time.


In the interim, keep your head up, keep busy, keep uplifted and know that you have support.  When i get down, i read the Book of Job and the story of Joseph (sold into slavery).  If these men can overcome their circumstances, then so can we