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#3482710 People Get Disgusted When I'm Around.

Posted by leelowe1 on 30 May 2015 - 07:29 AM

I'm not posting these thoughts right now to receive anyone's sympathy or empathy. I'm writing these thoughts at the moment to let people know that their words do mean a lot to another individual's state of mind. 
My dad has been admitted into the hospital because his health is deteriorating, and the doctors have given my family the worst possible scenario as a foreseeable outcome. Right now, my thoughts are completely numb, but while being in the hospital and having to interact with the medical staff, visiting relatives, and seeing other people in general, my thoughts get persuaded in the wrong direction because of my skin, and it takes my focus away from my father, but with this thread and people's encouragement, I have been able to remove my insecure thoughts and focus on the only thing that should matter in my mind right now.
I just want to thank everyone on this website for giving me the confidence I need in this dreadful moment in my life. Thank you so much.    

Praying for you and your family Rick.

Hugs from NYC

#3482414 Hey Someone Help

Posted by leelowe1 on 27 May 2015 - 05:35 PM

Susan I know how you feel as I've been there.  Many people clear up after treatment so don't lose hope.  Also keep in mind that topicals will sometimes work better post accutane than pre accutane.

Good Luck

#3482293 What Type Of Acne Is This? With Pictures.

Posted by leelowe1 on 26 May 2015 - 07:16 PM

You're really pretty acne or not.  Some men and people in general can be shallow but the people that count will not be.  Your acne looks on the mild side of moderate. Mid you don't want to use chemicals how about diet changes?

#3481056 How Much Acne Changed Your Confidence?

Posted by leelowe1 on 14 May 2015 - 02:58 PM

Acne is evil and I told my husband if I had a genie my first wish would be that pimples did not exist.

That's really cool and awesome of you.  I would usually wish that I was healed and my acne was gone for ever, but I rarely think to wish acne gone in general.  Maybe it's because of what it does for a lot of people.  Causes them to be more understanding and loving.  And if we all make it through...

Wise words from such a young man.  Acne definitely allows us to look past the flaws in others.  That thought doesn't always make it easier to deal with though but i believe that everyone has a cross to bear.

#3480675 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by leelowe1 on 11 May 2015 - 03:52 PM

Cried like a little bitch today. Then I sucked it up and took my kids to the McDonald's play place. They had fun, and I feel better, though my skin is still shit. Acne isn't too bad, but it looks splotchy and uneven, and my pores are effin' huge. Trying to drink more water because I think my skin might be dehydrated (go figure, I'm oily as Hell with dehydrated skin) I'm back on a low carb diet as of today, and that always makes me feel better mentally. I also think it does my skin good.

You're never weak for crying.  It's what makes us human.  The fact that you picked yourself up says a lot about your strong and resilient character.

Keep on keeping on

#3480346 New To Differin, Help!?

Posted by leelowe1 on 08 May 2015 - 06:53 PM

Absolutely.  The first couple of months on a retinoid can be rough so you have to hang tight.  My first few weeks/months on differin were hell with multiple breakouts all over.  Differin ultimately did not clear my acne but the breakouts were not as horrid as it was.

I agree that antibiotics are bad for your body.  Why not try a topical one?

#3478605 Is Anyone Else's Acne Crushing Their Confidence And Self Esteem?

Posted by leelowe1 on 22 April 2015 - 02:22 AM

Adam, I so sympathize with what you're going through.  Worse than having bad skin as a teen, is having bad skin as an adult which is the situation I find myself at at the age of 31.  

My only advice to you is to just put one foot in front of the other and keep on going.  I have tried the 'I'll wait till my skin clears up' approach but I have learned, life doesn't work like that.  Sometimes it's just about faking it till you make it.  Look people in the eye even when you don't want to, smile as often as you can (good teeth or not) and avoid looking at mirrors as at this stage of the game, it'll only make you feel worse.  I wish I could tell you it will get better soon but after dealing with this for 16 years, there's no definite timeline.  Your best bet is to spend time building your confidence.

Good luck Hun

#3478368 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by leelowe1 on 19 April 2015 - 07:12 PM

Acne wise, feeling fed up, frustrated and lonely.  I am doing everything humanly possible to treat it and it makes no difference.  Thanking God for the many gifts in life he has given me and praying for the ability to see the positive in this ongoing battle.

#3478131 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by leelowe1 on 16 April 2015 - 07:47 PM

Reading through these, I can so relate.  May of  last year I started using Paula's Choice. I started the regular strength toner 2x a day and it was rough at first, but then my skin did start to improve. I actually had some clear days. And every day my skin was clear, I thought, wow is this how other people feel (not having to constantly think about their skin, or cry in front of mirrors, or feel ugly/embarrassed/depressed??). I really thought I found something. I knew salycycilc acid worked fairly well for me as I had some succes with stridex years back. But I think my conclusion is:
My skin is just stupid.
After a year----I'm still getting painful cysts. No, my spots are not coming up smaller and resolving faster like I thought. I'm back to wincing when I look in the mirror and feeling like I'm NEVER going to get where I want to be.
My initial response to everyone above is to hang in there and keep going, but then I think about myself and really I'm just tired. I'm tired of trying. It's not really hopelessness but more acceptance. It just is what it is. After 15 years of dealing with this in one way or another (various degrees of severity), I'm of the mind that my skin just sucks. I don't know why. It doesn't shed right, it makes too much oil.. who knows. I know I always get little clog seeds that come out of every bump..so my lining is inefficient or something. But, I tried stuff to address that and while many of my pores look good, I still obviously have problem areas. Should I bump up to the 2% gel and just purge everything out and deal with the aftermath? Should I try this or that??  *shrug*
UGH I'm just tired of having to think of a strategy and constantly try to battle my skin. It's exhausting and honestly I devote way too many hours of every day focusing on my skin. A sad thought is.. if I met someone that I knew from 10 years ago, or even 5, and haven't seen since then, I would STILL have the SAME skin and they would probably think, wow even after all this time they are still dealing with that. :( That's a pretty sad realization...

Calendula, I feel you on everything you said.  I am at that point where I just want to say to hell with it and pretend that I don't have acne.  No one in my family struggles like I do and can't understand how I feel.  My relationship with God and my friend and family is what makes dealing with this bearable.  I think if I quit having all these expectations, I would be a much content person.  It's just like a person with a birthmark - they live with it but after a while, it becomes a natural part of them.

#3477909 Spiro...my Last Hope

Posted by leelowe1 on 14 April 2015 - 04:12 PM

Hi Shady Lee. I've been a silent follower of your log for a while and I feel you on the ups and downs of acne treatment.  I am 4 months into my topical regimen and in the midst of some nasty inflamed and painful acne.  You are definitely not alone and In spite of what the mirror is saying, you're a beautiful person!  Definitely stick it through to the one year mark then revisit the drawing board if things are not as consistent.  

I think for many of us, it's about finding something that gives us more good days than bad versus finding our holy grail.  In the interim, be kind to yourself, keep busy, stay in touch with friends and remember that you are more.....

I'll be praying for you girl

#3477709 Need Help! Have Pics

Posted by leelowe1 on 12 April 2015 - 05:25 PM

If epiduo is your primary acne fighter, it is extremely important to only use non medicated cleansers and moisturizers.  Cetaphil and Cerave are the standard as well as Neutrogenia.  Do not incorporate salicylic acid or other BP products without consulting your derm as it will only irritate your skin.  Also do not use Epiduo alongside a retinoids such as retin-a.  Choose one or the other.  Keep in mind that results may not be seen until 3-6 months so give it time and expect that acne will worsen.  Also, for many people, diet and lifestyle affect thing so it may be worth looking into a paleo, gluten and or dairy free lifestyle.

Good Luck

#3477420 How ya feelin' about your acne today?

Posted by leelowe1 on 09 April 2015 - 08:10 AM

Not good at all.  I think my eczema is flaring on my inner cheeks as the area is bright red and somewhat dry but thankfully no itching.  I want to cry and start panicking but that will not help any.  I think i will skip Differin tonight and moisturizer BEFORE and AFTER aczone to combat dryness.  If I am still the same or worse off tomorrow, I will skip topicals for a few days but hoping it doesn't come to that

ive got the flu, and all the sweating cause of the fever is driving my skin crazy. the eczema looks disgusting, bright red and peeling, and i got a couple new cysts on the cheeks and one on the forehead which hurts like a motherfckr.
the only positive thing is that my parents let me stay at home until my breakout clears up a little. i would love to go back to college but i look ridiculous all broken out at almost 21 years old.

I sympathize with what you are going through.  I recently developed eczema in the past year and combined with acne, it's the worst!  Take it one day at a time, be kind to yourself, start a routine for both, don't feel less then and above all else, don't allow these physical ailments stop you from getting an education.  Schooling will take you places.

If you ever need to talk, feel free to reach out to the community or PM me

#3475451 Cystic Acne Back 3 Weeks After Accutane Course Ended

Posted by leelowe1 on 21 March 2015 - 07:02 AM

As a four time user of accurate, I would tell you not to waste your time or the health of your body for a second round.  With truly hormonal acne, a cutaneous only a bandaid.  You could try spirt but as you said, having children is your next step so.......  What about diet changes?  It's not what people want to hear but if nothing has helped, it's at least worth a shot.  You could also try seeing a naturopath who can help guide you on the right path.

It's a frustrating process but never give up.  Any man who is worth it will love you no matter what.  Talk to him about how you're feeling.

Good Luck

#3475180 Accutane Failure

Posted by leelowe1 on 18 March 2015 - 06:20 PM

Lotty, I am a four time accurate failure so you are definitely not alone.  Like the previous poster said, you just have to keep on moving forward and take each day one step at a time. I have tried almost everything including lifestyle changes, pills, topical and of course the holy grail of accurate and I still struggle. Though some days are better than others.  

Just acknowledge that you have a skin disorder, do what you can to help things alone and still go live your life.   It's much easier said than done but the more you practice it, the easier it gets.

#3474870 Suffering From Severe Acne? Try Estroblock!

Posted by leelowe1 on 16 March 2015 - 07:12 PM

Congrats on finding a winner for you.  You are so right that supplements can take forever to work for some.  I have been on a holistic regimen for about 3 months and still not clear but keeping positive.  This may be something to mention to my naturopath as an addition.