So, I know many of you posting here have probably come to know me as I've been fairly active for quite a few months now. I've been working towards accepting my relatively mild if extensive scarring and finding a treatment that would give me some improvement so I could move on with the whole issue. Over this time I've become more obsessed over my scarring, even too obsessed, but at the same time I've realized that my scarring is fairly mild, and things could be much worse. I could've even lived with no improvement at all, and been fairly okay with my scarring.
However, despite only getting occasional spots these days and taking care not to repeat my previous mistakes of skin picking that has caused most of scars, and being very very careful about the spots' healing to eliminate scarring, I've recently been upset by the fact that I still have been getting new acne scars, which I thought was already behind me. However, they seemed fairly small and nothing that would largely affect the severity of my scarring as a whole. I was merely very upset that I still felt like I wasn't in control, but the new scarring itself didn't largely upset me as it was very mild. Two weeks ago, I decided it was causing me too much stress though and I got on antibiotics to stop the cycle.
Today something of a more serious nature occurred with my skin though. In a large scheme of things, it probably shouldn't affect me that much, but right now I feel absolutely floored. Today I got another acne scar - quite likely the worst one of all my scars. It is very raw, VERY deep, and as the skin still hasn't healed, there is still a chance it could get even worse. The size is more or less the same as with my other bigger scars, but the depth of it frightens me and I can see myself having a very hard time coming to terms with the fact that I have this thing now on my face. I don't know how I can handle this emotionally, I feel like hiding in my home for the rest of my life right now. It's going to take a long while before the skin has healed and the redness has subsided, and before I can even see what it will eventually look like. Let alone think of what treatments to have to fix it. For me to have the patience to go through this time with this scar on my face, is going to be mentally hard. I'm not really sure if there is anything that anyone could say that would make me feel better and stronger, but I would appreciate if someone tried. I don't think I've ever been this upset about my skin before, right now I just don't see how I could ever be fine with my skin anymore. I need to believe this scar is going to eventually turn out okay, even if it requires several treatments.
Have you had experience dealing with deep, sharp-edged boxcars? Have you had experience of a very new, raw scar healing somewhat nicely despite looking absolutely horrific to begin with? Do you think things will get better for me, this scar will heal and I can get it treated in a year or so, and end up looking relatively okay? Are there effective treatments for deep, narrow boxcars? I'm sorry if I sound desperate, it's because right now I do feel very low, upset and shocked. Any kind words of support from people who have gone through similar experiences would help more than anything. Thank you.
austraMember Since 17 Jul 2011
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