It honestly feels like I need to be put on anxiety medication because I cant function thinking about how ugly I must look. I stayed home today because I couldnt bring myself to leave my room.
How bout a short round of antidepressant medication? Although, i could see citalopram be an option for you. That is up to a clinician however.
The only way to know is to see one. You have to make that step.
Talking about it will aid in your stress relief and road to better thinking.