Its human nature to put other people down, especially when they never will have to deal with it. I have been called ugly infront of other people. And they just laugh and say it even louder so I can hear it. I just reason with it, they are with their friends and it happens. I just ignore them, and at the end of the day, I let it go.
Don't worry, anytime they need help, I will always ignore them.
It's sad that this seems to be the case, but dame they say it right infront of you?
people are too scared to say it directly to me because I look like an intimidating guy... you must look non threatening for people to be so bold as to be so flat out upfront about it.
You see with me to it's the opposite, I could give a fuk about what happens to me. Because all I want is to be able to go for a walk without being a freak show.
I'm always expecting the worst anyways. But even if I was homeless as long as I could walk into a store without being looked at like a freak. Then thats all id need, because it's what I desire above anything. Above money, sex, success whatever. I just want a normal face.
So I don't see myself thinking about suicide even if. I was eating out of a dumpster and besides I've got an eternity to be dead. In the mean time, I'm satisfied with growing my knowledge of this reality.
I wont lie sometimes i just want to get into a fight with someone, because of the anger. Other times i just want to be left alone, but what i want the most is to just be treated like i'm normal & that i'd like every time. But it happens almost none of the time... i need more time.