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In Topic: Depressed Beyond Belief

13 August 2013 - 09:39 PM

I can't even begin to explain how depressed I am. In one year I've went from a 18 year old without a blemish on his face to a 19 year old with red marks, scars, and active acne. All I used to do was hang out with my friends, go to parties, and workout at the gym. Now I don't even leave my house. You know that feeling when everyone is looking at your face when they talk to you instead of in your eyes. My second year of college is coming up and I don't even want to go back. I used to want to be a doctor, now all I want more than anything is for things to go back to how they were. No one in my family understands. I can truly say I hate my life.


I really sympathize with you because I'm going through very similar things. My acne started when I was 16 and has been steadily terrible for the last 2 years. I'm going to start college in 3 days and it's a scary thought. I want to be a doctor as well and I'm just another person here to tell you not to give up. It's difficult not to give importance to it but try for yourself to do it. Don't waste these amazing years ahead of you, live your life, and one day you will see that you don't need clear skin to be happy. As cheesy and repetitive as it sounds, life is what you make of it. Everyone has flaws they hate about themselves and although we may not see them right away they are there and very few people at this age are truly 100% confident. What I'm trying to say is that everyone suffers from something and you are not alone. Only God knows the plans He has for you and the blessing you'll give to others as a doctor, give yourself that opportunity. Find confidence in yourself, because I'm telling you, if you don't do it now it's really difficult to regain it later when your skin is clear.  People will look at you, that's normal. They may not do it to offend you but it simply attracts them. Don't let this simple thing keep you from the things you want to do, YOU WILL REGRET IT. Once you've wasted years and years of life being someone you are not you'll hate yourself way more for not living, living no matter what is going on. Even if people look at you, no one really care what's on your face when you go your separate way, but YOU are the one wasting your life away caring what others think of you. Those that look at you or say something, they are only wasting a minute of their lives and then moving on, please don't let a minute throw away years for you.


What type of acne do you have? I have cystic-moderate and I've found so much relief in the past month from grape seed oil. Most of my active acne is gone and about 40% of my hyper pigmentation is reduced. It's helped a lot, you might want to try it out, it may just work for you.


Depression is all in your mind. Take control, get out there and change your mindset, no one will care; go out with your friends and do what you like to do. Guys don't care if you have acne, most of them have had it too, and no girl will ignore you because of acne, trust me. Everyone has had acne or an insecurity that makes them miserable in their life. Something that helps me out is to think that people are genuinely nice and kind, sounds over positive but I've judged people by what I thought they were so many times and they always manage to surprise me, so don't lose hope people will still be there for you even if you have acne and marks and the whole deal.


Really wish you the best, you're gonna get through this smile.png

In Topic: Angry At God/family Says Stupid Shit

13 August 2013 - 08:48 PM

I am angry that God allows me to have acne on top of everything else thatI have to deal with in life. I have a significant learning disorder that I have to manage 24/7. I also have clinical depression. Don't I have ENOUGH to deal with? WHY do I have to deal with this shit, too? I feel like the Universe is mocking me-like, "nah nah nah nah nah, you can't even have clear skin, you have to have this crap, too."

Also, my mom is the sweetest person in the world, but she says stupid things that make me even more upset. For instance, "This is to show you that beauty is on the inside and not the outside; you'd be too beautiful if your skin were clear." Seriously?



I 100% get where you're coming from, probably more than you know. It's really difficult to have trust in God when we feel so miserable and awful both on the outside and inside. Your problems may seem like the world's biggest but they aren't. God gives different people different challenges and it's because He know you have the strength! Stop dwelling on your skin, stop picking out the bad things in your life, and concentrate and the blessings God has given you and WILL send your way. I recently saw this beautiful message by Joel Osteen (called a Magnet for blessings) that talked about focusing on God no matter the circumstance and in due time he will give you what you need and more, I suggest you take a look at it on Youtube. This is just another difficulty that you have to overcome, but be sure that the more trust you have in God while you're going through it the greater the outcome. Something I like to remember is that God made us in His likeness and no matter what "flaws" we see we are still beautiful. You need to care about what God thinks about you not what people think, keep your head up high and remember that God is your almighty father and that the King of Kings thinks you are absolutely beautiful and he wouldn't change you for the world. This too will pass, it may just take a while, but God wants to see what you accomplish from it, what blessings you get from this difficulty. 


Pick up your bible, read devotionals, and mainly talk to God. When you are immersed in His word, your problems seem small and you'll remember how beautiful He and the world is and why you should be enjoying it. If you let God 100% into your life and connect with Him, you'll see how He can heal you of your disorder, depression, and acne and use all three to benefit you in a way that you never saw coming. 


God bless you, I truly wish you the best. smile.png

In Topic: Losing Hope.

13 August 2013 - 08:34 PM

Thanks! smile.png I have tried olive, coconut, argan and emu and none of them did anything, except coconut which broke me out in whiteheads. I'm glad TTO works for you, it has never done anything for me. I don't advise you to start using bp unless you're super desperate (actually, the walmart brand of proactiv kept me clear for like 2 weeks). It has just damaged my skin in the long run. You might actually want to try a quality salicylic acid peel then! If most of your acne is comedonal then exfoliation is key. 


Trust me I've felt like that for years now, and even though I'm not 100% clear it's so good to get a break. Don't consider accutane, it's way too dangerous, you may not get any side effect now but who knows in the future. Thanks, I chose the name Godlovesme for the same reason, because I never forget it when I look at it. When we go through these things it's really easy to forget that sometimes it's just a stepping stone (a big one!) in one of God's great plans. Don't let acne rule these years of your life that will never be yours again, remember that God has made you beautiful and even though you may not see it now, He does and if you continue to be faithful your skin will reflect that too one day. 


I'm studying to be a doctor, not too such what specialty yet! What about you? What year are you in?



Thanks for your encouragement, I needed it too! smile.png

In Topic: Losing Hope.

13 August 2013 - 07:48 AM

I'm sorry you're going through this, it sucks big time. I'm in a similar situation about to start college (but for the first time). My acne was pretty severe in the beginning of the summer with lots of cysts and everything else in between. Right now I have 2 cysts (both healing nicely) and about 3 whiteheads. Needless to say I've improved. I suggest you stop damaging your skin with tea tree oil, if it's as sensitive as you say it is by it getting red with a face wash then tto will only burn it. Same with the bha and azelaic acid. You need to heal your skin with VERY gentle products not these harsh exfoliants. Trust me I tried them all to no avail and when I finally hydrated my skin it started to improve. For the past month I've been using Grape Seed Oil diligently day and night. Apart from that I have been using the Whole foods' version of Cetaphil every once in a while. That's it.


It doesn't break me out, my skin is not too oily and not dry at all. It's normally hydrated. My hyperpigmentation has improved my about 40% and I'd say 90% of my acne has gone away, and that's only in one month. I just buy the regular kind in the cooking section. It's been a life-saver. To tell you the truth, oils have never cleared my skin like this but they don't usually break me out, so you might want to start slow if you do. I remember seeing people talk about this oil a few years ago and never gave it a try, and do I regret it! Maybe this is your chance to try it and it will work! You have to be positive, that's where the healing begins smile.png Don't worry about meeting new people in college, as long as you find the confidence in yourself to ignore what's on your face there is nothing stopping you. EVERYONE suffers from a flaw they hate, some not as obvious but nonetheless there, and if you believe that people are genuinely nice and want to make friends you will stop worrying about yourself.


God bless you, wish you only the best. 

In Topic: Pescetarian Diet

09 December 2012 - 08:22 PM

I am set on this diet. It's basically vegetarianism that includes eating fish/seafood. I "officially" started on 12/3/12, so two days ago. It's not too difficult, and I was used to eating meat almost 7 days a week. I am also incorporating much more water. I used to drink like 1 glass of water a day and that seems insanely ridiculous now. Now, I'm drinking 80 ounces daily. I separate it into 4 intervals and it's working out great. The only drawback is that I have too use the bathroom-- about 8 times a day, no joke.

Anyway, this thread will be a little log type where i'll try to keep track of it all. Oh, I am also cutting out all dairy products, and I believe that's the hardest part of all this. I love milk and cheese and yogurt! My substitute will be almond milk.

So that's it. It'll be fun/great if anyone decides to join or offer input. I have never tried changing my diet for acne, because let's face it, it takes some will power. I have a pretty hectic life and didn't want to make it more stressful.

Basically, I'll cut these out:

- dairy
- meat
- sugars/processed foods

I'll add these:

- water
- fruits/vegetables
- nuts
- much more seafood

...I still eat rice daily, would anyone say that's bad?

Here's to hoping this works! Posted Image)

Zinc diet.

it works

I tried zinc a while back and it didn't really work. What does your diet consist of exactly?