Hey guys, soooo
I'm someone who likes to think. I like to know how things function and why they are happening and want to fix them, but I don't prioritize what I think about and know I should.
I'm in college, I got a 4.0 my freshman year, i'm a sophomore now, and I spend SO MUCH TIME researching acne or anything and everything related to it! I dunno where the time goes. I had a few days off for Thanksgiving, and I'm pretty sure I spent 2 and a half full days researching how products clog pores, what I can use in my hair, being paranoid. I feel like if I don't get an answer or something that I will not be complete. I just keep searching and searching, when I really should be getting ahead in my school work…I mean I'm not falling behind, but i'm not getting ahead, and i'm certainly wasting time.
I'm going to reduce this to only an hour a day of acne research, but does anyone find this happen to them. I don't time myself or anything, but I'll be on acne.org then Facebook then reading about this and that, and researching grains for an hour…it's such a problem! I'm addicted to being healthy and wanting to know the best vitamins and foods, and everything. But I spend too much time trying to find the answers. I should just accept it right, and say, hey, maybe my hour today i'll learn something new.
Thank goodness my grades haven't dropped or anything from this…but i'm kinds upset with myself that I am so obsessed, but the way I look is really important to me, not to be arrogant or anything, but it's just something I care about. I care about my skin, cause i care about myself and my health.
Some people don;t care, I kinda wish I could be a pizza face and just get on with my life, but even during my morning runs I will be obsessively thinking about if the sweat from my headband is going to give me zits! Everyday it's something new that freaks me out a bit!
I just wanna focus on one thing at a time without my acne being in the back of my mind!
I still get my work done, and do it well, but I would be more focused and have more time if I stopped thinking about my skin so much! Any little free time I get…it's usually researching something about skin.
I always have questions I want the answers to, always thinking about this and that.