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Rafiki3

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I'm Truly At Wits End. I Can't Live Life Anymore. Is This Hormonal? My Cheeks A...

28 November 2013 - 12:49 PM

Background: 19 year old male, acne since 15. Been on antibiotics in the past, other things too, always dealt with whitehads and redmarks. Now as a university student, I am dealing with an unbelievably horrible breakout. Things just don't get better for me, my life has amounted to this. I need help.

 

I do not function like a normal person anymore. I can't live my life at all. I've had acne for 4 years, and this is now the worst breakout to date. I don't understand, I truly don't. I try to do everything right, I don't drink or smoke. I am trying to eat healthy. I read so much about how to prevent acne and I get nowhere. Is this hormonal and is there any hope for me? My face is DESTROYED by red marks and stuff already, but all these red bumps and whiteheads make me want to die in public. All I can think about is my face, which makes me even more depressed and stressed. I'm seriously trapped. I can't even shave like a normal person anymore, not that I want to. Shaving always would give me irritation and whiteheads, but I can't even shave my face because of all my redmarks and active acne going on. It's unbelievably frustrating.

 

Is accutane going to help with this? Will it leave redmarks and scars anyways? I want this GONE, my life is miserable. Is accutane likely my solution or should I look into something else? I am so reluctant of derms, they prescribe me Epiduo and I am just so scared to use it. It makes me redness WORSE and as you can see that's my biggest problem (both in terms of active acne bumps/whiteheads and also I have red marks and scars)...

 

My skin is so different from everyone elses, I can't even explain it. Also my facial hair is disgusting. The pictures are pretty disgusting just as a heads up. Obviously I put the flash on to illustrate my problems, but even in normal lighting it looks THIS BAD. Please god help me. I don't know what caused this recent breakout of what you see now. A lot of it itches. I am trying to be so healthy right now but I am waking up with NEW WHITEHEADS OR BUMPS DAILY. For the love of god why.

 

I am not on any products right now. I take a zinc supplement and fish oil. I exercise often. I am so self-conscious. I'm begging for help. I cleanse with cerave gentle cleanser, and moisturize with cerave moisturizing lotion. It's hard for me to even cleanse my face, feeling all my bumps and disgusting acne kills me. I can't look at mirrors, I have become an outcast and I feel like I'm on a horrible path. I cannot just pretend this is not there, I understand people say that and I respect them. But I can't live a normal life when I do not at least look somewhat like everyone else. My skin is absolutely horrible. What should I do? I tried retinoids and BP in the past, never helped much. I'm extremely reluctant to go back on any products - I feel they will only make things worse, make my red marks last longer and scars get more discolored. I know BP is harsh. What do I need to do? Is there any solution for me?

 

I'm begging for advice. Honestly even the pictures don't do this justice. In even normal lighting, it just looks absolutely disgusting. And I know it's not just me feeling this way. I see people looking at my face. I can't even hold a normal conversation face to face nowadays without wanting to curl up and die. It's pathetic and I don't want to live like this. Please help.

 

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I Can't Take It Anymore, I Have Indents, Pih, And Also Horrible Hair Growth And Seb...

12 June 2013 - 03:04 PM

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'm at wits end. I'm a 20 year old male. I cannot function as a normal person anymore. I see no joy in things. My face has destroyed my life and taken over. I am trapped in myself and cannot be social anymore. Having to be in a classroom and/or talk to people face to face makes me want to die. 

 

I am so angry and unsure what I did to deserve this? These pictures don't do justice but I am posting them to show my situation and POSSIBLY get any help, although I'm not optimistic. My skin simply isn't normal. It's not like everyone elses if that makes sense. Even other people who have acne, I can just tell my skin is different. But I see tons of guys with stronger skin that is perfect, not weird hair growth ,no acne obviously. I don't understand why I am so shockingly different. Maybe genetics - I'm half asian half caucasian but I've seen many others with the same mix as me with awesome skin. 

 

As you can see I have disgusting facial hair growth. It grows so sloppy and uneven. And the hair is all over my forehead, all around my eyebrows, all the way up to my cheeks and around my eyes. It's NOT NORMAL. Other men don't have this. I know everyone has tiny micro hairs all over, but mine are longer/more developed than micro hairs. It sucks that I have dark black hair but I know this is still not normal. Why am I like this? I know this is an acne forum so I don't expect much help here, but the hair problems, clogged pores, and acne all combine to make me look disgusting and all of these things are destroying me as a person. (I have been going to electrolysis for awhile and it doesn't seem to help really at all. It sucks...) I can't even shave because of all my bumps, active acne, crappy skin I'm just scared to shave nowadays so I have this gross facial hair in patches and some are long some are short. Why the hell can't I just have normal facial hair like every other man? Even stubble that covers the whole face. Is that too much to freakin ask. 

 

As you can see my nose and inner cheeks by my nose are completely ruined and filled with clogged pores. Idk if it's blackheads or sebaceous filaments but it never goes away. I really don't squeeze simply because I know its bad. However at the end of EVERY DAY i can literally SEE THE OIL/WHITE CRAP HALFWAY OUT OF THE PORES. It looks HORRIBLE and it is visible to other people. Nobody else has this problem I have never seen this on another person. Obviously I don't go out at night but if I had to I would die because of this. It seems like there truly is no solution to have a clear, smooth face in this area for me. I think I have oily skin, it sure seems like it. I cleanse with cerave and also moisturize with cerave. Doesn't seem to help or make a difference but that's what I'm doing. Pretty simple. I also use sunscreen but idk if it clogs my pores. I think I've had this problem for years though so I don't freakin know.

 

On top of all this I have tons of red marks, indented scars on my face, and active pimples. I didn't focus too much on that but you can clearly see it. I am 20 and I continue to get these new pimples that I am confident will continue to develop into discoloration and/or scars. My skin is so weak and crappy and covered with hair in a disgusting way that everything turns into a horrible mark.

 

I really don't see a future for myself because I can't enjoy life like this. And I am not trying to be pessimistic on purpose but waking up each day in misery doesn't help. I really don't think my face can become normal at this point. I see college guys my age with normal faces, smooth skin, great complexation and I can just TELL their skin is different from mine. I don't understand.

 

I am not on any medication right now. I can list what I do and stuff I've done in the past if anyone cares to help or if that would be helpful. But honestly, am I probably stuck like this? Is my skin ever going to "change" or "toughen up". I don't know how to ever change from this state. I am 20 and I look 16-17 years old. I am losing hope in my life and its hard to continue on. I see no happiness for me this summer I just want to fix my face before school again so I can try to become a normal person and enjoy things again. Any help or suggestions? I haven't seen a derm in a while. I feel like they've never helped me. They've tried but I just don't know WHAT the cause of all my problems are (acne, hair everywhere, oil production). Life is passing me by, I need some help please. I do not want to die, but I am not living right now. It pains me so much. I'm at ends meet here I truly feel physicall and mentally drained now because it consumes my mind and its getting worse and worse.

 

If I posted this in the wrong section please move, I apologize.

Any advice at all is greatly appreciated. Do you think my condition can be improved? Honest answers, feel free to be honest please.

 

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Apple Cider Vinegar For Indented Scars And Red Marks?

04 March 2013 - 12:26 AM

Here is my plan. I have lots of red bright marks on my cheeks and I can't take it any longer. They look horrible. I also have several indents by my temples on both sides and there is redness in them. I have been reading up on apple cider vinegar over the last few hours. I just have a couple questions:

 

I half asian skin prone to scarring/marks. I have lots of oil on my t-zone and nose, forehead is FULL of clogged pores too. I can almost see it coming out of my blackheads on my nose.

 

Will the ACV help get rid of nose blackheads? And how will it do this if so. Will they just eventually fall out on their own or do I need to scrub a bit once I start seeing them come out?

 

Does ACV help indented scars? Some posts I read said it did.

 

I am going to dilute it 50/50 with water. I already bought Braggs ACV. Do I need to refrigerate it? I was going to mix a bowl and store it. Refrigerate or not?

 

I am going to apply it after I cleanse. I am currently not using any products at all except Cetaphil cleanser and sunscreen moisturizer. I was on retin A but stopped after seeing no improvement for several months. So I am ready to try this new thing that seems like it can help.

 

After I apply it with a cotton pad, I will let it dry. Can I put my sunscreen on afterwards? And does the apple cider vinegar cause any sun sensitivity at all?

 

Please help I would greatly appreciate responses. I am hopeful for this and just really want to clarify my questions before I start. I am praying this will improve my redness and be an answer for me. I'm having a hard time emotionally cause of my appearance currently. God bless