Murph89

Realizing I dont come on here much anymore. My life is pretty much the best it has been in a very long time. I just signed a lease for my own apartment in NYC. Im so incredible excited and blessed. I feel like a normal person again. No, my skin is not perfect. I get pimples every now and then, but you know, so does the majority of the population. I would seriously say every other person I see on the subway or in person in NYC, has acne/pimples/zits/red marks/scars. Its life! I had a humungous cyst on my cheek, super super super noticeable, and I still went to work, and acted like it didnt effect me, because people dont care! They may notice it, but who cares!

My point to this is that I just urge every one of you to push through all the insecurities you have about your skin, and live your life, and move forward. I remember someone on here saying you really have 2 choices when it comes to dealing with acne. You can hide and be miserable and be stagnant in life, and "wait" to do things and move forward in life because of the quality of your skin, or you can just say FUCK IT. Im not going to let my skin define me. I am much more than what the skin on my face looks like. I have seen some gorgeous girls and some good looking guys with bad skin, and it doesnt change their attractiveness, in my opinion. SOme people, as we all know, are shallow and will judge you based on your skin. But is that someone you want in your life? FUCK NO!

You're always going to be self conscious about something. Whether its your skin, your weight, your height, your nose, whatever it may be. There will always be something you nit pick about yourself that you dont like. Acne sucks, no doubt. Its sucks BIG TIME. But dont let it control your life anymore. Ive been guilty of this for the past 6 months or so. Within the past 2 months, ive started to feel comfortable in my own skin, and im liking who I am becoming

Much love to you all!

Back on here after a couple weeks of having pretty much perfect skin. The other day at work, I noticed a purplish flat bump on my cheek. I immediately freaked out. It's now day 3, and its big, red, and it hurts. Its an under the skin pimple/cyst. It's the first one in my entire life that I have ever had. So it's obviously super noticeable, because the rest of skin is virtually clear. It's amazing how this has completely crushed me, mentally. The only thing that is helping me is a girl, my sister, who had perfect flawless baby skin, and she told me she's had these cystic pimples before on her forehead and chin, and she just goes about her day and laughs it off. She calls it a Zelda. Hah. I've been using a neosporin ointment, but tonight after reading numerous things about tea tree oil drying out these things, I applied it. Well see what happens. It's not something that can be popped. It has no head. It's just super red and hard.

I know this is caused by stress, and I can thank for lame ass aunt for that. She's kicking me out of her apartment because she made some stupid promise to my cousin, her son, that he could have his room to himself when he gets home from college winter break. It's a long story, but this lady has 0 logic, and is fucked up in the head. So I can thank her for this.

The good news is, is that I'm finally getting my own apartment. My parents are gonna help me out because they know how expensive it is here in NYC ($900 for a studio) which is just one big room with a kitchen and a bathroom. Not even considered a 1 bedroom. So that's a big thing that's keeping me going, and not letting something like this control me, which it has the last few days.

Point out a flaw that they have that is noticeable. Haha

Mix jojoba oil and evening primrose oil and apply that shit to your entire face every night before bed

You're skin looks perfect to me...

http://www.bhtips.co...r-dry-skin.html

There are some great food masks on there. Anything with cucumber, milk or yogurt would be great.

Got myself a new juicer and did my first juice tonight. This thing is amazing. It was $100 shipped from amazon and is a really a high quality juicer.

I did carrots, beet, red bell pepper, green apple, cucumber, kale, and it tasted so amazing! Im going to make juice every morning before work and every night before bed.

I highly suggest you see a therapist or a psychologist. Really. Unless you want to live the way you are right now, for the rest of your life, you need to get yourself some professional help. Wish you the best of luck.

Sit down and have a mature conversation with your parents, and explain how acne has ruined your high school life, which is really has. Do you have to be 18 to sign up for it yourself? If not, go to the derm and get it yourself.

My skin is okay right now, but it's nothing to brag about. I have a big blemish on my cheek that's healing VERY slowly. Also might have some new small stuff on either side of my nose....god I just hate, hate, hate getting acne there, because it's such an annoying/noticeable spot for pimples.

Also just want to give a shout out to anyone that's dealing with Hurricane Sandy right now...stay safe and and best of luck, hopefully this storm will be over soon.

Yeah ive been enjoying it here in NYC. Been crazy with the winds and flooding! Mother nature is awesome!

I'm sorry man. My main suggestion would be to cut out ALL dairy. No more milk, cheese, cottage cheese, and worst of all, your protein shakes. Most likely they are whey protein, which is derived from milk. I'm not a believer in dermatologists, but you seem to have a lot of issues going on, so you may want to look into that. My heart goes out to you. Good luck with whatever you go with.

This thread is really a no brainer for me.

Let me break it down a bit. I was always full of confidence and was outgoing and the loud guy always making jokes, up until 19, when my skin blew up. I was tainted with shitty skin, and the emotional aspects it brought with it we all know. I was not even close to same person i was when my skin was clear. I was literally just living. Going to work, and coming home and hibernating. It was a miserable life.

My skin cleared up by the time I turned 21, and remained clear up until February of this year. For those 16 months, I was the happiest I have ever been in my entire life. No question. Overcoming acne and having clear skin that required little to no maintenance was the greatest feeling in the world. You would have to experience it to know the feeling, and I hope all of you do. I was the exact person I wanted to be for that year and a half. I was doing everything I wanted to do. I was literally never home because I was always out doing something. Life was amazing.

That all ended in February of this year. Up until about a month or so ago, I was worse off (mentally) than I was when I was 19-21. I contemplated suicide, cried myself to sleep, etc etc. Clear skin is a dream of mine. It really is. Its amazing how such a small, minuscule thing can rule our lives. For the past month or so, Ive started to turn the corner and I am seeing a light at the end of tunnel. I always thought I HAD to have PERFECT skin to be happy in life. But you know what, as long as my skin is "good", Im happy. It may never be perfect, but Im not going to let it stop me from having the life I want. People that ive met in the past few months have treated me as if my skin was perfect. You know we are always out own worst critics.

Anyway, to answer the question to the thread. Yes. Having acne is a demoralizing and crippling disease. Once acne has been controlled or no longer an issue, I am able to be the person i want to be, without worrying about having new pimples pop up, or redness in the morning, or dryness, or whatever may happen. Ive been able to do what I want, eat what i want, and my skin hasnt been an issue in the past 2 weeks (knock on wood).

My confidence, happiness, motivation, drive, and most of all, my personality, always gets shot when acne comes back. When acne is no longer an issue, all those qualities show up and are portrayed through my smile.

Started my new full time job today at the natural foods store. Cool group of people. All the employees are around my age. Im going to have to leave my wallet at home every time I go into work, because Im gonna spend all my money on stuff there. They have a full juice bar with a professional juicer and they serve all sorts of juices. They have every type of healthy organic food you could think of. Its like heaven for me haha.

Im actually looking forward to winter. First time ill ever experience the snow where im living! WOO!

Awesome. Amazing what a simple addition to your lifestyle does. My motto is this: If its green, or the color of your heart, eat it, its great for you. Congrats bro. Your smile tells it all.