Murph89

I call them "acne nightmares". Whenever something bad happens with my skin, Im usually super upset and distraught, and go to sleep, and I ALWAYS have a nightmare that has to do with my skin. Its horrible and so depressing.

congrats on the PERFECT FLAWLESS BABY SKIN!

Realizing I dont come on here much anymore. My life is pretty much the best it has been in a very long time. I just signed a lease for my own apartment in NYC. Im so incredible excited and blessed. I feel like a normal person again. No, my skin is not perfect. I get pimples every now and then, but you know, so does the majority of the population. I would seriously say every other person I see on the subway or in person in NYC, has acne/pimples/zits/red marks/scars. Its life! I had a humungous cyst on my cheek, super super super noticeable, and I still went to work, and acted like it didnt effect me, because people dont care! They may notice it, but who cares!

My point to this is that I just urge every one of you to push through all the insecurities you have about your skin, and live your life, and move forward. I remember someone on here saying you really have 2 choices when it comes to dealing with acne. You can hide and be miserable and be stagnant in life, and "wait" to do things and move forward in life because of the quality of your skin, or you can just say FUCK IT. Im not going to let my skin define me. I am much more than what the skin on my face looks like. I have seen some gorgeous girls and some good looking guys with bad skin, and it doesnt change their attractiveness, in my opinion. SOme people, as we all know, are shallow and will judge you based on your skin. But is that someone you want in your life? FUCK NO!

You're always going to be self conscious about something. Whether its your skin, your weight, your height, your nose, whatever it may be. There will always be something you nit pick about yourself that you dont like. Acne sucks, no doubt. Its sucks BIG TIME. But dont let it control your life anymore. Ive been guilty of this for the past 6 months or so. Within the past 2 months, ive started to feel comfortable in my own skin, and im liking who I am becoming

Much love to you all!

African black soap is great, but its rally really drying. Even if I use it once a week, immediatly after using it, my face is tight and starts to get really dry. It's really only something to be used during the summer when it's really humid.

Its getting more flat each day. Im not popping anything. Im leaving it alone like suggested. Each day its gets smaller and smaller and less red. Thank god. Definitely the worst pimple ive ever had in my life!