Not really afraid, but with every year i feel like Im slowly dying. My face is becoming more dehydrated from years of bp, Im getting more scars every day, my beard is getting bleached, skin just dont stop going to shit overall...
There is no cure, and there are no working treatments without side effects. I would accept all that regardless, cause I really want to live my life, at least a little bit. I would accept it if there is at least one girl that will love me no matter what happens to my face. But my experiences in life tell a different tale. Its all about about looks, money and status when it comes to people. Im sick of shallow relationships and im sick of pretending to be someone im not. Im not enjoying that at all. Since I was a child, I always dreamed about that special girl, but all the ones i had something with were shallow in the end, all talk. I am hurt, lonely and dead.
I just want someone to truly love me and always be there for me so my life can have a meaning again.
Meh. Maybe I should just give up on people cause I will never find the person that will resurrect me and show me that the thing I wanted existed somewhere.