GUNNKE

Feeling better today as the breakout I had in the middle of last week is clearing. Feel a bit stupid about letting it get to me now though - I fortunately am fairly clear most of the time these days so I shouldn`t have reacted in the way I did.

Just on a general theme, most of the people who post on the emo and psyche forum seem to have at some point in their lives been bullied, discriminated against or had to contend with derogatory comments about their skin. It is so easy to feel inferior when you have acne but trust me, the people who make fun and belittle are sad, shallow people with a chip on their shoulder. Having acne is often a condition that you cannot control and having it does not make you any less a person. The two-bob arseholes who deride you for it are far uglier than you will ever be.

I will continue to browse acne.org no doubt as it is a brilliant place to come to when you having a rough time. However, I do try my best not to focus on my skin these days so sometimes it is better for me not to login.

Good luck to all of you battling against acne or the emotional crap that very often comes with it. Just remember that no matter what the severity of your acne, you are just as good as the next person and you are all worth it.

Ughh haha don't want to hear that about caffeine  I'm about to make myself a cup of coffee - for some reason I can not stay awake today! I nearly missed my stop on the way to and from uni because I was falling asleep on the bus, nearly fell asleep in my lecture too and I have to go back in to uni in a few hours for some psyc research and don't want to be falling asleep again... just this last cup then I'll be off it again. Caffeine definitely can mess with your system and fight or flight response I think. There's been cases of people dying from drinking things like red bull / other 'energy drinks' because of how it can effect the heart - (palpitations etc). I think I do have a tendency toward anxiety and coffee can make it worse. It hasn't effected it either way though the last few times I've had it - which is good.

 

 

Skin update - it's not great. I cried myself to sleep the night before last... Just sick of it. I'm trying not to think about it so much but it's hard to keep my head up... Today is one of the days where I'd rather stay home and hide. Good thing I have other 'commitments' or I might have just done that...

 

After a few months of giving it up, you don't feel sleepy or like you need it to "wake up" anymore. Trust me it's sooo much better being off that rollercoaster! I used to always think that I needed caffeine to wake up. And then another cup later in the day when I crashed from the first cup. Such a nightmare, always up and down.  I did feel really tired for the first month or so without it, but then something heals and you feel so much better!

 

Sorry about the skin frustrations *hug*

 

I relate to the feelings of being so frustrated to have to give up your few vices, GUNNKE... it sucks. But at the same time, it really isn't that amazing a treat anyway, and you can still have it once in a while as a treat. In fact, I think it's good to do this (maybe once every 2 months or so) because you can really see how your system has changed and how much it effects you. I believe that everyone has some amount they can tolerate once in a great while, you just have to find your threshold and not go beyond it.

 

My skin is doing marvelous today! I had a teeny breakout when I ovulated but it was not cystic and it was gone within a day. I love the regimen! The AHA+ is totally amazing and literally every time I use it (every other night) I wake up to a fresher face and my red spots fading... I'm almost at 2 months on the regimen and apparently it gets even better from here on out! I can't believe how much my skin has changed in 2 months. It went from being the sickest looking skin ever to like 99% perfect. If it stays like this, it WILL be perfect by the time the scars and red marks fade. Almost like baby skin!

 

Seriously guys, if you haven't tried the regimen yet, please do. But keep in mind that it may not fully work if you're still being triggered by something internally. I don't break out AS bad when I have caffeine, probiotics, etc as I did before the regimen, but I still do break out if I'm affected by a trigger.

Good advice Deja, an occasional cappuccino isn`t really much of a vice to give up and if it helps mys skin, it will definitely be worth it. I`m going to limit myself to maybe one a week and see how I go. By the way, really pleased for you that regimen is working so well! I`ve read a lot of your posts over the past few months and can tell by the way you have expressed yourself how much turmoil you have been through so it`s good to hear that things appear to be taking a turn for the better.

Tired of writing my monolog in this thread, so I think I won't be posting here anymore. Who cares, nobody reads it anyway.

Pianina, I think a lot of people on here not only read your posts but they also actually empathise with the frustration and debillitating affect that acne and scarring can have on your confidence and self-esteem. I had really bad acne from the age of 12 up to my early 30`s and even though it has gotten better in recent years, even at the age of 40 I still break out now and again. I`m currently experiencing a break out right now which is making me feel like crap so I can certainly empathise with some of what you are feeling.

I do not want to sound like a creepy old guy but for what it is worth, you are an extremely attractive girl and no amount of scarring or acne can take that away. I`m sure that tons of people on here would agree with me - just hope that you one day can believe that for yourself.

Grrrr! The breakout on the right side of my face has now spread to my left side. Haven`t broken out like this in ages and just hope that it is a temporary thing and not a sign of things to come.

Definitely go along with the general theory on here that caffeine adversely affects acne amongst other things. When I was in my teens and early twenties and I had really bad cystic acne, I used to drink about six to eight cans of diet coke a day. Probably would have had the acne anyway but I`m sure that the coke/caffeine consumption made things a helluva lot worse.

For the time being I`m gonna have to forego my occasional cappuccino. Excuse my french but I really fucking resent this as I have absolutely no other treats in my diet and I see other people drink gallons and gallons of tea and coffee and have perfect skin! Unfortunately for me and quite a few of you on here, because we are predisposed to developing acne we do not appear to be able to tolerate caffeine.

I tend not to come on to acne.org too much these days. I`ve been trying forget all issues acne and skin and avoiding anything that is a reminder. I`ve been doing really well lately and my skin has more or less been fine. Today however I`m not feeling so good as I have broken out in my right sideburn/cheek area. My diet, exercise and cleansing routines have not changed at all but I have however been drinking on average one cappuccino per day for the past couple of weeks. I don`t drink coffee in excess but unfortunately it does seem to have a negative impact on my skin. It is the only treat/vice that I have so although I am loathe to give it up, don`t suppose that I have that much option.

I feel crap. Firstly I do not have bad acne these days so maybe I shouldn`t even be on here - apologies if I offend anyone but trust me, I had really bad cystic acne for many years so I do empathise. However, I have a mini outbreak of spots on my chest and under my left jawline at present (see below images). These are not acne spots and look more like folliculitis spots but for the life of me, I have no idea where they have come from! My diet is perfect (apart from the odd cappuccino), I`m in good physical shape for a guy in his late 30`s and I don`t drink, smoke or do anything bad to my body so I just don`t get it.  Pathetic as it sounds, because of my poor self-image this minor problem still has the ability to make me feel like a disgusting, hideous monster. In addition, I`ve had a bit of a setback in my personal life that has made me feel worthless and not good enough. Sorry for the self-pity but this is as good a place as any to vent my feelings.

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