dejaclairevoyant

uh oh....I notice a lot of people feeling worse recently, let's hope things improve for all of us soon. I found out today that I did not get chosen for a job that would have improved my quality of life (financially, mentally, in so many ways). It was a very competitive and selective job, and they told me I came second...which doesn't make me feel any better because I still didn't get the job.

Acne-wise, my face is reflecting my mood: shitty

I'm sorry about the job. I know how much it sucks to get all hopeful and then lose the opportunity. But I've found that when something like this happens, something even better is usually right around the corner. Like a couple weeks ago when I was working on that incredibly confusing application for a writing job and I eventually gave up. A few days later I got another offer for an easier and more fun writing job related to travel ! (Something I was more interested in than the first thing anyway). The right things will come to you, don't worry.

Update on me: Having a great day. Slept in, completed a few assignments and made some money, washed my hair and did a deep cleansing treatment and took care of my skin. No active breakouts right now and my food-related breakouts are swiftly healing. Just a few pits and red marks left, but they aren't bad at all.

I am a bit depressed about the texture of my skin. A year + of horrible cystic acne will definitely leave it in less-than-idea shape. It's true what they say, you really do begin to notice the scars once you become clear. I feel great about how I look from afar, but up close or in certain lighting it's just like *CRINGE*. The fact that I'm getting older and I've smoked a lot probably doesn't help. I think I'm going to order some vitamin c powder and take a lot every day to try and improve my collagen. Hopefully the AHA will continue to help, too. It definitely fades red marks, but I'm not sure what it's doing to help my deeper scars.

Uhh, so I looked at your gallery and you're pretty hot. Not what I was expecting based off this post! You're manly looking. I dig that very much. You look like you should be one of those hot-ass warrior guys in the movie 300 or some badass hero in the zombie apocalypse, lol (I like that these are my ideal men haha).

Seriously though, you have nothing to worry about when it comes to looks. I can't even really see your scars, but trust me dear, with a face like that, scars are only going to make you hotter and more manly looking.

yea but nothing beats actual human interaction. im sitting here on my couch in front of my computer in my apartment interacting with people living far away when there are people right outside my door i can be talking to if i didnt feel like a f*cking monster. i see families, dudes, chicks all kinds of people with clear skin walk past my window having fun and im here feeling like shit. its friday night look what im doing. wtf

Of course real life interaction is important. But you can find people on the Internet who you can know in real life. When I think off the top of my head of 5 good friends of mine (who I know in real life), where do you think I met all of them? The Internet.

I'm not saying to sit online and never go out. I'm just saying that meeting people and getting to know them is easier for people with anxiety if you use the Internet. It lets you get to know each other from a safe distance and then if you feel comfortable, you can become real-life friends.

That's cool annabill but in real life I have never met anyone like you.

It's generally pretty hard to randomly meet awesome people in "real life." That's why we have the Internetz!

It's not irrational at all. I completely relate--I have never let my boyfriend or any other guy see me putting makeup on. Even when I don't have any breakouts. I feel like it ruins the illusion.