Posted 23 August 2003 - 11:36 PM
jeez man i wonder that all the fucking time also!!! Like in another world, where I had clear skin, there'd be so much shite I wouldn't miss out on!!! Damn man, that sucks with the presentations, but you know one thing though, the teach is going to grade you on your presentation, direct points, delivery, facts, etc., not on your face, so just try to work hard. I guess having acne has made me a better person in trying not judge as much, but then again, I always say, "WHY ME???" I wish people knew what we went through, even my mum doesn't understand sometimes. Are you currently dorming???? As far as the routine goes, I went through it, but I got really sick of it and believe it or not I started joining clubs. The first one i joined was the Literary Society, which is like a poet society, mainly because it didn't shine the spotlite on me, all i had to do was attend meetings and see when to submit my poems for publishing on the literary magazine. But to top it off, the people there were very cool, so i think I got off easy, it was much different from h.s. there because they are more mature I guess. It's hard to take that first step, it took me a long time to do it,and I started out small. I guess being forced to do these presentations and working in groups may numb you up. I got to a point where I was sometimes suicidal, but then I just said, fuck it, life is short, and if i shoot myself, all the people in my high school will have the last laugh, and this may sound stupid, but that's the reason I didn't. I just kept picturing them at my funeral remembering me for having acne and being antisocial, so I just said fuck that shit, I even joined a drama class!!!And eventually I got my M.S. in Computer science.