Why is it that everyone points out your acne? I know it is on my face. I look at the mirror every morning when I wake up. The first thing I think about when I wake up is "I wonder how clear my face is today?" It literally determines what kind of a day I'll have. I don't choose to have acne. I want clear skin. I am trying so hard to get the clear skin. I've been following my acne regimen for almost 2 months now. Some days, it works fantastic. I'll have one or two active pimples. But other days I'll wake up with ten. On each cheek. It's hard to stay away from coffee. Dairy. Sugar. Exercise regularly. Drink excessive amount of water. Clean my makeup brushes every weekend. Look at the ingredients for every single product I want to put on my face. It's hard but I really do try making these life style changes. It's just so discouraging when my mom says she doesn't notice a difference. Or when my boyfriend saw me without makeup for the first time and suggested I use a better cleanser without realizing he really hurt my feelings. Or when friends with almost clear skin complain about their one small pimple in front of me. Or when family point out the zits on my face.
This topic makes me so ashamed. I can't even talk about it with people in real life. I lost all my confidence because of my skin. I am so attached to makeup because of it. People with clear skin will never understand. I am sure they have their own struggles. But not being comfortable in your own skin is definitely a huge struggle.
My question is, how do you deal with discouragement? How do you deal with not knowing how your skin will be the next day? How do you deal with that sad feeling you get when you see clusters of pimples and scars on each cheek? Please let me know. Any response would be great. Thanks.