So I'm a little late here, but better late than never right?! I've already been on Accutane for about a month and half now, and was originally keeping a little journal for myself to look back and reflect on.. but decided to share it here with you guys so maybe it will be of some help to someone else.
I'm just going to copy & paste my word document with my entries on what I've experienced so far.
Thursday, May 15, 2014
1st DERMATOLOGIST APPOINTMENT:
YAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! Got about 5-6 cortisone injections. 1 cyst drained.
I am gonna get an allergy test done. Acne can be caused by allergies and I want to rule of that possibility or figure out what I should be avoiding!
No prescription yet.. I need to go get my blood tests done.
Sunday, May 18, 2014
After having those injections done to my face, it seems that the amount of cysts I had have multiplied.. especially on my cheeks. I still need to go back to my dermatologist for my Accutane prescription. I keep having second thoughts and googling all this stuff on Accutane. I almost don’t want to believe that my acne has gotten so bad, to the point that I have to take Accutane. I mean, I don’t HAVE to take it, but I’m so miserable. It’s really hard to have all these lumps on your face, not being able to normally place your face on the pillow because it hurts so bad (plus I’m always afraid of popping the cystic acne inside the skin on my cheeks and have it spread around in there), and just feel so uncomfortable going out and facing people. It’s really hard. As cliché as this is, I feel VERY uncomfortable in my own skin. It not only hurts to touch my face, it hurts to look at myself in the mirror. It’s so frustrating to have people tell me what I should do or what I should try. It didn’t use to bother me in the beginning and I was happy for the help and support, but now having exhausted all the options and having all this knowledge about acne and my own skin, it’s really frustrating when someone tells me about how they saw somewhere that if you rub a potato on your face, it will heal your acne. I mean come on…. I don’t mean to be so pessimistic…. But do you see my face?! A potato isn’t gonna heal this. BUT you know what? I don’t blame them. They’re only trying to help, and plus, what they only see is the redness and actual whiteheads (pimples) on my face and not all of the cysts way under my skin. It hurts, it really hurts. Physically and emotionally. I feel so drained sometimes and weak. I sometimes get mad at myself for allowing something as this to get to me, because people are always telling me it’s something silly to be upset about when there are worse things happening to people, but they’re not me and they don’t feel what I feel. They don’t KNOW what it feels like. It’s like telling someone with depression to simply stop being depressed. It doesn’t work that way. It’s completely robbed me of my happiness. I’m so conflicted as to what I need/want to do. In a way, I feel like I’m selling my soul to the devil by going on Accutane. Maybe there’s a lesson I need to have learned from acne, and haven’t yet, therefore my acne hasn’t healed. It’s really hard to deal with. Maybe once I learn to be happy despite this acne, it will finally go away. But what if it doesn’t? And I am even more depressed in the end? I didn’t mention that my acne is very scarring. Delaying treatment MAY = more scarring? I don’t wanna get any of these side effects. I’m so conflicted. I wish an answer would just pop into my life.
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
Got my blood test done today!!!! My doctor should call me tomorrow to book my next appointment. Hopefully all is well with my blood tests! I’m so excited! One thing I accidently did was pee before I left my house to go to the clinic, and since they need a urine test too, I had to drink a little water before leaving my house so that I could pee in the cup. The clinic was also really busy so we had to wait a little over an hour to be seen. We will make appointments next time. All in all, I can’t wait to start!
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
I keep thinking of weird shit that I can’t post here, but dermatologist appointment tomorrow!!!!!!!!
Thursday, May 22, 2014
I just took my first Accutane pill!!!! I’m so happy. I can’t wait for some results. I’m taking 10mg a day this month.
Friday, May 30, 2014
Ok, so.. I’ve taken a total of 8 Accutane pills at 10mg. So far, not much is different. The first 3 days taking it, I had a very mild headache but that could just be coincidence with the weather change and all that. My face did seem to get a little worse, but nothing out of the ordinary.. and nothing I haven’t dealt with before. Other than that.. no side effects. I haven’t even gotten dry yet. So I guess we’ll have to wait & see Ta ta!
Sunday, June 01, 2014
I would not wish acne on my worst enemy. That's all.
Thursday, June 5, 2014
I’ve noticed the first improvements in my skin on the 13th day.
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
So it’s been 3 weeks!!!! My hair is officially getting drier. I haven’t washed my hair in 2 days and feels like I JUST washed it! So amazing. Other than that, my face a little more dry but nothing too crazy.
Thursday, June 19, 2014
Today was the first day I woke up feeling like “wow my face is dry!”
Hair has been drier too, I used to have to wash my hair atleast every other day, now I can go 4 days without it getting oily.