If it makes you feel any better I'm feeling the exact same way. The last 4 weeks have basically sucked. I keep breaking out. Its once again an everyday occurrence. They aren't always cysts, but it is just so annoying and draining.
Right now I have underground cyst that's driving me crazy. Its not red thank god, its below the surface. Its like pea size and has a tinge of hurt, like its going to pop out any second. I also have a small cyst next to my nose, its so freakin red. I also have an array of red dots from smaller pimples healing. I feel so gross, just like you having the feeling of dread.
I have an appointment tomorrow for shots with a derm I cant stand, but he's the only one working. My other derm's office is closed til Monday and I'm going away early Monday morning. So my only hope is this guy who totally sucks. He never seems to do shots right, he sometimes actually misses the cyst, its so ridiculous. Tomorrow I'm going to make sure he freakin does it right. No way do I want to go away with this thing next to my nose. I have no idea what I'm going to do about the underground cyst. If I trusted him, I'd let him shoot it, but jeez he misses ones that are protruding, so don't have much faith he'll get an underground one. I don't want him to aggravate it. Uggghhh I even get anxiety and feeling of dread getting shots...Hate this sh**t so much!
Just like you I'm wondering why am I breaking out?? A few weeks ago I had clearing for 4 weeks, and now I'm back to this. WTF?? I'm almost 4 months in, I know they say it can take 6 months to a year, but jeez was hoping I'd see some improvement by now. I remember when I started I kept saying to myself I cant wait til the new year, by then I should be doing better. No such luck.
Hoping you're feeling better, and know you are not alone!!
Come on 2015, give us clear skin!!