Posted 13 April 2014 - 05:39 AM
Posted 17 April 2014 - 04:42 AM
day 45 - i went to the hairdressers today to get my roots done and i thought i was going to die. bits of dye got onto my skin and i was freaking out and they were all just looking at me like i was deranged. my oversensitised scalp screamed in agony (AND THEY TURNED OUT MORE ORANGEY I WAS SUPER BUMMED) and my face got super red, tight and dry when they were blow drying it. i don't think i can go back to get the regrowth done in six weeks time. just noooooope. everyone's just gonna deal with my orange ass roots.
my skin seems to be clearing up? knock on wood - nay - an entire fucking tree. it could just be that i'm not getting a lot of pus filled huge pimple at once in clusters like i was getting a couple of weeks ago. my skin still looks worse than it did when i started accutane though. i was looking through old pictures of my skin going WHYYY but i'm sure the end result will all be worth it. lots and LOTS of scarring is happening though, my entire cheek area looks like a war zone. my nose is no man's land, pretty much the only thing void of dark pigmentation or actives right now. prayer hand emoji.
my nose is still super dry and when i blow my nose in the mornings it's full of dried up bogies! fun!!! been putting on pawpaw ointment into the nostrils with a q tip before bed though and that seems to be keeping any nasty bleeding and the like away. also, started using pawpaw ointment on the lips when they started to get red and constantly sore - a life saver. if you're in australia, you must try it - so cheap and you get a shit ton.
i went to ask for a higher dose today but he said my hemo..goblin?? (smth like that lol i just finished rereading harry potter & tdh all i can think about is goblins apparently) levels were still a bit too low for his liking and he wanted me to stay on 20mg. i'm supposed to come back for another blood test soon but he said everything's fine so far.
megtree - i'll be practising my roundhouse kicks for the next time he asks. THE WORST PART IS WHEN THEY'RE NOT DOING IT TO BE SPITEFUL BUT BECAUSE THEY'RE CONCERNED. then i look like an asshole if i get super defensive "are you okay? what's happening with your -" -NINJA KICK KARATE CHOP TO THE BALLS COMBO-
maxwell8988 - thanks!! that's what a lot of people who've finished their course have been telling me, just two more months until the breakouts start receding. also is it weird everyone, their mum and cat know someone who's done a course of roaccutane? maybe it's a lot more common here.
crimson storm - that'd be brill. if only i had the power to give people a pimple. all those people with flawless skin who try to advise me on washing my face, just -zap- pimple. And yes!! gotta stick it out, it'll be worth it in the end.
deedeedilz - yeah, the first couple of weeks on 20mg did nothing for me either in regards to drying skin but i started getting loads of breakouts. good luck going onto 40mg, hope the side effects aren't too severe!! i wish my doctor would up my dosage :'(
Posted 20 April 2014 - 08:23 AM
day 49 - a couple of days ago, the girls at work were telling me my skin was looking much better the lighting was very good though haha, i'm still thrilled to FINALLY be seeing some kind of results that aren't multiple pus filled monsters growing on my face. i've got a pus filled one right underneath by lip and a few sore spots around my jaw that speaks of an impending break out but other than that i think my skin's improved a bit. i hate how i keep getting acne in the same places tho, the scarring is atrocious.
as for side effects: nothing much. i've been using pawpaw ointment religiously, thinking of using lush's ointment w/ jojoba oil next. i haven't had any nose bleeds but there's a small amount of blood whenever i blow my nose. lips are sore and dry and i can't go three minutes without having pawpaw ointment on my lips because it is so uncomfortable. i've given up on trying to put anything else on my lips (IT'S AUTUMN! I WANT TO WEAR VAMPY LIPSTICK!!!). the corner of my mouth is super sore today but i'm going to slather on some pawpaw ointment before bed and hope that does the trick.
also the skin on my hands are super ...fragile? thin? prone to being scratched and tearing ahhhhh, so annoying, and it'll take forever to heal.
i think my skin's about to break out but i'll upload some more pictures next time.
Posted 28 April 2014 - 07:55 AM
day 56 - i don't have any pictures because i keep forgetting to take them i have no new photos but i will try to take some asap. i've just been so busy with work and uni, i guess it's good because i don't have time to obsess over my acne. BUT the initial break out has all but cleared up and all i'm left is a lot of scarring and two or three actives whoo! it was horrifying have a face FULL OF PUS FILLED ACNE but now it's finally gone. scarring is a tad worrying, my whole chin and right cheek is just red marks, it looks like there's no skin coloured bits at all however it is a lot easier to conceal when the texture is smooth so i couldn't be happier about that haha 'conceal, don't feel, don't let them know ... LET IT GOOOOO' - basically me getting ready every morning
i've got that angular chellitis thing tho and it won't heal! i know i should use something other than paw paw ointment but i don't have time to run out and a prescription. uni is killing me atm, i should actually be studying right this moment ahhhhh. anyway, i have a tiny mouth and i can't do anything without ripping it open again. ya girl just wants to eat a burger in peace
i will definitely take some pics when i have the time tho
Posted 29 April 2014 - 07:58 AM
day 57 - not much difference, getting some new breakouts along my jaw. weird since i just finished my periods? otherwise, still very happy with the progress of my skin. i got a new beeswax based lip balm, the one that comes in a tin, from burt's bees that i'm keen to try out. i've included pics. breakouts might still look terrible but it's almost all scarring i'm pretty chuffed.
Posted 01 May 2014 - 01:55 AM
day 59 - i have some more new pimples, two on my cheek (the better side i don't usually upload pics of) and another one on top of my lip. the four on my jawline are super painful but small, very persistent though. side effects: i am very tired all the time but nothing i can't soldier through. i've been getting some very mild back pains that are quite persistent as well but oh well.
Posted 01 May 2014 - 12:05 PM
your skin does look a lot better! how do you like your new lipbalm? i read it's really good!
Posted 05 May 2014 - 03:29 AM
day 63 - the pimple on my cheek, on the left side, is taking AGES to go away but i don’t really mind - it's just one after all. the breakout along my jaw is still there but slowly going away. a couple of more new pimples along my jawline, on top of like three layers of scars which means it’s going to be red for probably all of my life ughhh. however the pimples aren’t as big as the big pus filled ones i was getting a few weeks ago and the skin is relatively flat so covering it up is a breeze. my face has been feeling very tight and hot, flushing comes and goes. it’s quite annoying but i don’t think it’s that noticeable when i’m wearing make up. back pains are getting terrible and so are my joints, usually after an 8 hour shift at work my hips are killing me. i sneezed the other day and thought i’d thrown my back out. i’m 19, i feel like an old geezer
i thought i’d add in my everyday makeup routine. ideally, i wouldn’t like to wear makeup at all while i’m on roaccutane but i’m not living in an ideal world, am i? i have to wear make up for work and i feel better wearing make up when i’m going to uni or socialising. what can you do.
in the mornings i wash my face with cetaphil gentle cleanser and then use thayers alcohol free witch hazel toner on a cotton round to remove all the nasties accumulated during sleep. then if i’m going to be in the sun i use the kiss my face spf 30 moisturising sunscreen, which i love although i do want to try the clarins one, and then blend a light layer of the skin79 bb cream on top with a beauty blender. i have the skin79 bb cream in hot pink which is supposed to help with hyper pigmentation and i don’t know if its working or not but it also has spf 25 so i’m very pleased with it. the colour is a bit off, a lot more pink than i’d like since i have very yellow undertones, but it’s the one thing that doesn’t accentuate dryness on my face. since starting roaccutane, it’s been a godsend. i use the mac select moisture cover concealer for big blemishes and do the rest of my make up.
taking off my make up i use the garnier micellar water on a cotton round. then i wash with my cetaphil cleanser using warm water and then repeat, finishing off by rinsing my face with cold water. i use the same toner to get the last traces of make up off and moisturise using the cetaphil moisturiser.
i’ve been having no problems with dryness of skin since i moisturise religiously but if don’t moisturise straight after washing my face, my face feels hella dried out.
crimson storm- thank you! i'm feeling a lot more optimistic than when i was getting loads of breakouts. still a bunch of scars left and the fear that it's going to happen again but the next couple of months feel like it's going to be easier (hopefully). i tried using the burt bee’s beeswax lip balm but it didn’t work as well as my pawpaw ointment. the pawpaw ointment has a LOT more slip while the burt bee's is very waxy and didn't feel very moisturising. it was hard to get on as well since it's such a hard, waxy formula. i managed to get rid of the angular chellitis just by using the pawpaw ointment so i've promised it not to stray again haha
Posted 05 May 2014 - 08:09 PM
Posted 07 May 2014 - 04:53 AM
i forgot to upload the latest pics i took which was on day 62, a day before my most recent log. i'm still getting actives (& dem scars doe) but the texture of my skin is so smooth and clear, i'm really excited for the rest of this course!
day 65 - side effects! holy shit my lower back is killing me. it's been persistently achey for a few weeks, i thought it was just after work but apparently not i went to the arctic monkeys concert yesterday and was crushed to death in the mosh so i'm hoping that played a huge part. the concert was awesome, i was literally drenched in sweat and i noticed my face was really stinging? it doesn't usually sting like that when i sweat but then again i haven't sweated that much in a while. it was pretty gross. but hella fun haha
also, my eyes are kind of dry. not dry-dry where i'd need those eye drop thingies (they scare the shit out of me i CANNOT PUT ANYTHING IN MY EYE I WILL JUST SUFFER). but when i'm walking and it's windy i have to like hood my eyes so i look like i'm high or falling asleep or i have to squint and i just look sus.
xoliz - the second month was pretty shit for me too my dose was low and i had lip balm on 24/7 so i didn't really have problem with dry lips until now and even now they're pretty much under control with paw paw ointment. the side of my lip cracked too! it'd heal a bit and i'd yawn or eat a sandwich and rip open again and just take aaages to heal but once it healed i just kept putting on pawpaw ointment and it hasn't ripped again yet, fingers crossed! Good luck to you too! It's going to get better soon, it has to
Posted 08 May 2014 - 02:38 AM
day 66 - spoke too soon. woke up with extremely dry lips, went to brush my teeth and my lip split on the same side as before. i think i'm just going to have to put on pawpaw ointment before i even brush my teeth so i can comfortably open my mouth without it ripping. nothing new. the little cuts i've been getting on my hands, due to them being super sensitive and fragile now, are taking AGES to heal and leave a really dark sky. they're literally just NOT healing???? anyone know what i can do about this? i've still been moisturising them religiously...
Posted 14 May 2014 - 04:13 AM
I'm a 19 yr old female on 20 mg a day too. It's my 9th day , I'm definitely going to follow your log,your process seems awesome!
Posted 15 May 2014 - 08:59 PM
day 74 - can't believe it's day 74 already! i'm super pleased with my skin, i think having the initial breakout just made me that much more grateful when my skin started clearing up. there is a LOT of scarring though, makes my whole face look discoloured but i'm not that down about it, you can't tell if i'm wearing a very thin layer of foundation to even out my skin tone. i've broken out a bit over the week due to my periods which are due soon, it's mostly in the hollows of my cheek and my jawline. i keep breaking out in the hollows of my cheek, like a line that follows the cheekbone it's SO FREAKING WEIRD AND FRUSTRATING WHY IS IT DOING THAT. i haven't seen other people's follow that kind of weird pattern before so i'm thinking maybe it's what i'm using like my bronzer???
anyway, side effects - achey back, achey joints, my face gets super red if i stay in the sun for five seconds, the rip on the side of my mouth cleared up with a lot of pawpaw ointment. i know it's stupid but not being able to wear lipstick really bums me out haha. i've been really tense and stressed lately, my muscles are all knotted and bunched up constantly and they ache a lot too, even if i haven't done any strenuous physical activity.
rebbie - thank you! i'm really pleased with how its going, everything seems bearable.
soaruphigh - thanks buddy
newslang - thank you so much! i hope it works out for as much as its working out for me and i hope to god you don't get as bad as an IB as i got!! GOOD LUCK
also, i haven't had any alcohol since i started roaccutane. it feels like its been an eternity. i feel like i've been a hermit this entire time but now that i'm feeling a lot better i kind of really want to go out regularly again. i know we shouldn't drink on this drug but..how much is going to be okay? I JUST REALLY WANT TO HAVE SOME FUN UNI HAS BEEN KILLING ME
Posted 27 May 2014 - 08:57 AM
day 86 - went to pick up my second box of the 20mg roaccutane pills today! this shit is costing me an arm and a leg (not compared to others i guess... i'm a poor uni student bear with) but oh well, it's working and i think it's a good investment!!!! my skin is looking amazing and clear, even when i was going through intense stress and my periods. i only got one zit and i didn't even notice it. i'm going to try and tone down my happiness but i am just incredibly relieved it's doing its job. i have a gajillion scars so i bought some rosehip oil for that, i'm going to take comparison pics on how well they fade scars too! my face goes super red sometimes but i don't think it's a big issue, lips are manageable with pawpaw ointment, back/joint pains are persistent but not too major that it's impairing every day activities.
i haven't had a drink in three months since i was taking this very very seriously and i didn't want to fuck it up. but i'm a uni student and i miss drinking so i'm planning to start that again, especially since the exam period is looming and once that shit is done i'm just going to go ham. i'm hoping it'll be okay since i'm only on 20mg? anyone have any experience with any other substances that is processed through the liver while taking roaccutane..asking for a friend......lol
hope everyone's journeys are going well ))
Posted 28 May 2014 - 03:06 PM
Anyway, unless you have friends like mine who will literally get on their knees in a club and beg you to drink alcohol, you can just drink virgin cocktails when you're out with friends and not feel weird. You don't need alcohol to get rid of stress jump around a bit.
Your skin is looking great btw
Posted 28 May 2014 - 11:43 PM
Goodness, you just look better and better every time! I hope I'll be seeing the same results around day 80-something.
Posted 29 May 2014 - 06:40 AM
The IB can be horrible and last a long time
for me i was severely breaking out for a month
hang on in there... it's getting better for me, it'l get better for you.