I completely understand and feel the same way in this new relationship. I've told him I'm dealing with a hormonal treatment right now due to the craziness after stopping competing bodybuilding last year, but I haven't said hey so I'm breaking out because of it :/ It'd be easier to just do that, but I'm hoping to ride this out and move forward. When we started dating it was before Spiro and the IB and so therefore he saw me w pretty good skin and even complimented it before. Can't say he would now if he saw my red marks. He might and might not even care or notice since it's been about 3 months. Dating is hard enough, add self esteem issues and man it's even harder. It's all self torture at this point. I keep trying to tell myself get over it, don't worry, but you know it's not the easy. One day closer to our goal is all that matters.
I use the DDF Glycolic Toner after Cerave foaming wash. It really helps exfoliate and shrink the red marks. Slow process obviously.
I just posted this the other day:
Diet on the regular:
Snacks- Carrots, celery, cucumbers, endive, hummus, white bean hummus, garbanzo bean flatbread (homemade), udis gluten free bread w coconut butter, brown rice tortillas, pumpkin seeds, flax crackers, julians paleo bread- either coconut or almond. I like to bake Paleo style minus the honey so I cook w almond flour and coconut flour.
Breakfast- usually hot quinoa or gluten free oats.oat bran w blueberries, or udis gluten free toast w coconut butter
Meals- Salmon, bison, turkey, chicken breast, kale, spinach, broccoli, mushrooms, onions, asparagus, zucchini, peppers, cauliflower lots of garlic and ginger, pretty much any veggies, brown rice, sweet potatos, quinoa, lentils, beans, black bean pasta, salad, gluten free vegan burgers, coconut oil for cooking and mrs dash. I love to cook, but usually end up baking or grilling a protein and sauteeing a bunch of veggies and making a mixed "bowl" of yumminess.
Water, Spearmint tea, unsweetened almond milk, ginger.turmeric tea,
"Cheats" - Vegan/gluten free coconut macaroons, gluten free cereal, no sugar added coconut milk ice cream
I avoid soy, alocohol, most fruit, corn and white rice.
I restrict dairy, eggs, sugar, chocolate, caffeine and gluten.