Thanks, Persnickity! I'm looking forward to following your log too. It does seem to me that it is a bit of a different experience doing this in my mid-thirties than it was in my twenties, but that could also be because it's my second time riding this pony. I also think I'm just generally more annoyed with the side effects this time (dry lips and hands) because my progress is slower. Last time I loved the side effects because they reassured me that I was acne-free! I hope to get back to the loving chapped lips place again.
The last couple days have been a bit of a bummer. I got a cyst right in the middle of my cheek. I do get these, but they are more rare than the ones on my chin and I HATE THEM! SOOOOOO ouchy. It's an ouchy sort of zit to begin with, and Accutane makes all zits hurt a million times more - at least that is how it seems to me. I can get a tiny whitehead and it feels lie I am being stabbed.
I had a little cluster of bumps on the side of my chin under my lip that have been surfacing one by one this week. It's like a chain reaction. I noticed it on my upper lip, too. I had a bunch of bumps that did nothing for a long time, and then all turned into whiteheads and left within a week. No other things there since. So I'm hoping for the same here, I guess? There's more little bumps, though, so the process is unpleasant. Already three decent sized whiteheads popped out this week - every time one ends another begins.
So it's been an annoying few days, but I would have to say that things have not gotten worse, and are not as bad as they were around week 4 (I'm now hitting week 6 I guess). I think time slowed down, though. The first 30 days flew by and now I am in a funk!
Log: I cyst on my cheek. Normally i would have something like this for weeks. Accutane style, it showed up yesterday and today burst open in the shower. It just sort of leaked, I think the infection just broke the skin a bit. Yuck. Oversharing perhaps, there? Hoping the brutal honesty of my logging will help me to identify the real progress if it ever comes.
Bunch of whiteheads below my lip. Only one is active, but it is the third in a row. It's like its trying to create a little connect the dots of red marks there. Someday I should connect all the dots, to see what my face draws.
Spent some sad time looking at some new scars today. Some are pretty deep, and having had them before, I know their type and that they will never fully go away. My cross to bear, I guess.
Still hoping for brighter days.
My parents come into town tonight for the holidays. They have been away since this got bad, so this is going to be hard. My mom will be so worried because I'm sure she hasn't forgotten the last time either, or what the healing meant to me. I know she will be so sad for me, and it breaks my heart.