Apologies if a bit of my post is repeated from my previous one, I wanted to start a Roaccutane log and put it in the correct subtopic.
I have tried everything there pretty much is when it comes to combating acne.
My skin is still crazy bad. My acne is bright red, under the skin lumps, with no head and my picking ..whilst it's better ..when I have something to pick at, i'll pick at it. I end up with open red sores all over my face. My anxiety is pretty much under control and my skin picking it so much better than it was, thanks to hypnotherapy ..but it's the fact i'm still getting the acne that I can't stand.
It feels like i've tried everything there is. 4 lots of antibiotics, numerous creams, red and blue light therapy, chemical skin peels, I even have brought a home blue-light machine which really hasn't done much! I have been to see my GP around 10 times in the last 3 months because of my skin and he FINALLY referred me to a dermatologist, saying that Roaccutane is going to be the next thing to try as nothing else seems to be working.
I also decided to book a private derm appointment as well as wait for my NHS one as I wanted the drug SO much. I've done a hell of a lot of research on it and the side effects don't even remotely scare me as my want for clear skin seems to have become an innate need more than anything else! Does that even make sense?!
I went to my private derm last Monday (25th November) and he has put me on 30mg of Roaccutane. The consultation fee itself was £100 and the prescription was £52 ..and I had an NHS appointment already booked for yesterday. I went to this and the derm said that my case was relatively mild and that the picking seemed to be more or a problem than the acne. This, I agree with to an extent, but what the private derm seemed to understand was that if I didn't have any acne to pick at in the first place, I wouldn't pick it. Vicious circle I understand. The NHS derm said to me that she wouldn't have put me on the Roaccutane if i'd have seen her first, so guess i'm kind of glad that i'd seen the private derm first! The NHS derm did give me another prescription for the 30mg as she said she wasn't going to be increasing my dose. I was tempted to just double up the drug myself but I appreciate this is not a good idea! She has also sent me for some fasting blood tests at my GP next week, as well as asked me to take a pregnancy test whilst I was there. I got the impression the NHS derm was a bit freaked out at how much I wanted to be on Roaccutane!
Day 7 - 1 week done
So far, I have been on this drug since last Monday night at 30mg ..haven't noticed anything in terms of benefits yet, but I haven't seen or felt any side effects either, not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing??
I've read a lot that Roaccutane is a last resort and i'm terrified that even if I give this drug 6 months, it's still not going to work.
I want to be able to have clear skin, be confident in people looking at my face, being close up when talking to me etc.. and not feel really paranoid that they are staring and examining me.
Will update over the next couple of days!