Hi guys this is Cassandra Bankson (I have a youtube channel by the name of Diamondsandheels14) I decided to finally make an account here to express my feeling and current frustrations.
I have had acne since I was around 10 years old and developed cystic acne at the age of 14 and it has continued on ever since (now 21).
To be honest I have not been completely upfront with my subscribers about my emotions, I tend to put on a happy face for the camera but in reality I am in terrible emotional pain over my skin. I know my face has improved, but I STILL have cystic (or at least inflamed acne) after all these years and now it's really weighing me down emotionally. I have tried virtually everything to cure it/manage it (as those of you know who follow my channel) and at this point I feel as though it's not going away at all anytime soon.
I just feel beat... not sure what else to say. I can't be an inspiration anymore, I feel like I've lostmy will to fight against this.
welcome to the acne forums
Like the others I know you from your YT channel. I have seen- and commented on your videos.
When I was your age I had acne all over my face, neck, chest and back. I'm almost 28 and I don't have it so severe anymore on my face and chest, but I still break out in my neck and on my back. A dermatologist once said to me that it is not that severe anymore on my back, but I am still breaking out.
I have once read that the skin is in puberty until the age of 25 and that the acne becomes somewhat less severe from there on. In my case it is true, but it doesn't mean that it entirely disappears. Maybe you should give it a little bit more time. Don't let the outside world push you to do things which you are not comfortable with. Don't go crazy in your head when for example everyone is in a relationship and you are not.
I have been bullied severely because of my skin. I was the loser of my grade and maybe the entire school. I had it the most severe.
Over the years things have gone a bit better for me. I have officialy mental issues due to the bad treatment I got from others, but at my age I have started to notice that people are actually perceiving it as a skin problem rather than something that makes you a loser in the eyes of others. The acne is a separate thing.
What I want to say is that we are our worst critics. It is a far bigger problem in your head than it is in reality. The truth is that you are a beautiful person with a skin issue and not a loser. You are not your skin and you are not your acne. You are a person with a skin condition, just like us. There are people without legs, there are blind people, there are people with acne, etc. It doesn't make you ugly. My current mentality is "It may not be possible to do something about the acne, but it is possible to do something about the emotions".
I know it is hard to think "it is just acne" especially at your age, but it is a bit like that and it is definitely not the end of the world.
I want to ask you a few, maybe intimate, questions: Are you scared about what people think of you? Have you ever been in a relationship? You don't have to answer my questions if you don't want to. I will never force you to do things.
I have started a thread about positive experiences. You can find it over here: http://www.acne.org/...nt-great-topic/
If you have anything positive to share, then you can do that over there
(Sorry for my English. It is not my first language.)
EDIT: I have just noticed that you are in a relationship (or you had one). Isn't that a great achievement? It is something I can only dream about
Edited by AlexanderJ86, 30 November 2013 - 04:58 PM.