Today sucked. Sorry in advance, but I so need to rant.
It started off with a huge whitehead out of nowhere in the middle of my chin, which of course opened up when I washed my face. The accutane makes everything so dry and fragile and these are such weird zits.
Then I had my one-month-o-accutane derm appt. I washed my makeup off first so she could see the real deal. She took one look at me and asked if I wanted to try an additional topical to help clear it up. Confirming every fear that I have that it looks TERRIBLE. She even ASKED me if I had been picking at it. "It is picking at itself!" I proclaimed. This is mostly true. She offered me several things - a topical antibiotic? a retinoid cream? I kept saying no and she kept asking, which was making me very concerned. I told her I thought it would only make things worse and she said something to the effect of 'well, you can't go out like that - I guess you can use some concealer'.
This has been my derm for years and she is usually really nice. I don't think she even realized what she said, but I did. I assured her that I own the thickest foundation known to man. Sheesh.
I asked if she thought it was odd that it was still so bad, and she said no, that it usually takes 3-4 months to see significant improvement. That was the only positive part. I felt assured that I don't need to give up all hope just yet. Then I hurried out to my car and cried. I have only cried a couple times over this bout of acne. Worst part of my day.
If I could just get one day without something leaking, exploding, or oozing out of my face I would be such a happy girl.
Hope y'all are having a nicer time!