yeah i use to be in this kind of situation all the time when my skin was at it's worst. even now i still get it just not as extreme as before. Now it's just the mentioning of my acne, it use to be something like omg/wtf/god dame/ugly/ewww/wow/jesus christ lol well you get the picture. that was pretty much a daily thing back when i was in hs & whenever i was out in public. especially during the first five years my skin looked just straight up deformed, i swear it was that bad.
I keep mentioning here on the org, that i sometimes wonder how i made it through those times. I guess a little by luck, but i just straight up grinded it out everyday. i just imagined that someday it would get better & it would all end sooner or later, one way or another. really that is the biggest reason that keeps me going & will continue to keeo me going probably till the day i'm gone.
because you see this is the way i see it & i'll probably make a thread for this with more details sometime lol. (i'm getting ideas while i type) Ok now, see how i think about it is this... i am lucky enough, smart really to know that i am a being that wont be here forever & that someday, somewhere, somehow i am going to die. when i do that will be the end of my earthly suffering,pain,sadness but also joy as well, everything really.
So i guess i figure what the hell i know it's all going to end someday & for all i know i'll never be alive again. From that idea i just take it one day at a time, just to see where it all goes. To see what happens, what else we learn, what else we create. indeed i figure why not be a wittiness of humanity, a wittiness to life, a wittiness to the universe that to me is a hell of a reason to stay alive.
my life, is far from the best & it will maybe last 80+ years if im lucky in that time i want to try & learn as much as i can about my surroundings in this reality. Am i happy right now? honestly no i long to be carefree about my looks & feel that a average skin would allow me to be that. All i can & want to do is the same thing as before imagine a better tomorrow & just take it one day at a time..
Edited by fatalbert911, 21 July 2013 - 01:31 AM.