There is only one person I have ever seen with acne scars who I felt "sorry" for because his scars were more severe than mine. His entire face was cratered up but guess what that dude was happy. He smiled, laughed, had friends and volunteered with after school programs with kids. I never saw him with a girl (figures) but he seemed happy and I felt good around him. He was a good dude.
Usually when I see others with scars I see how handsome/pretty they are despite it. Even besides scars if someone is fat or anything else that is considered unattractive I seriously dont give a fuck.
However when I see myself in the mirror I feel hatred, anger, sorrow, despair and its eating at my brain every fucking day. I scrutinize myself too but for good reason.
Stella compared to me you are perfect. This might sound weird but I wish I was you. I dont even go to book stores because I hate myself.
I really wish I see myself as how you or other people would see me, not seeing myself as perfect lol , but at least decent looking.
I have a friend who has acne scars all over his face though he only had shallow ones on his cheeks but his temples had deep ones like a LOT. He also has a very short haircut so everything is exposed. He doesnt care really. He doesnt even dress fancy cause he just doesnt care. He goes out and works. In my opinion he looks happy and unaffected but ofc he must be affected even a little or time just made him not care about anything. He likes to joke and smile when talking to people.
But, you know when i didnt have acne, i didnt really notice his scars in fact i only knew he kinda had a rough surface skin but didnt think it was scars. I always noticed his personality and how great of a person he is. I didnt even think of scars when talking to him face to face (VERY NEAR like HOW YOU WOULD LOOK IN THE MIRROR).
NOW that i have acne and scars, i notice his scars now. Everytime i see him it gives me courage and makes me feel free because i dont have to angle my face when talking to him and dont have to worry him seeing my ...... horrible skin.
I think when you have a lot of acne scars on your skin, it is less noticable. WHY? well, because it looks like it's just your skin like a part of it, not a flaw.
BUT if you have isolated acne scars, then it LOOKS like a FLAW since it's surrounded by good skin then this one FLAW is just highlighted.
Im serious, i notice acne scars when it is isolated.
Hmm, I see what you mean.
But since I'm so obsessed with my skin, I notice a lot more about other people's skin conditions and the more severe it is, the more I notice it. If the isolated flaw is tiny/minor, I don't notice it, unless it's big, even if it's only one.
I have only seen one person in my entire life with acne almost as bad as I used to have it and it made me angry because I saw my reflection and knew the people around him had no fucking clue how shitty it is to be the one suffering with it. I could see the pain in that persons eyes so fucking deep I know exactly what that person feels and thinks on a daily basis and it pisses me off that another human being has to endure this hell physically and psychologically.
Yes,me too, I saw myself in that girl.