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Its Been A While Since I've Cried Over My Acne :|

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I had come to a point where I accepted my acne as a part of me that was never going to go away. I'd look at myself in the mirror, shrug, and move along. Nothing new. Just the usual ugly acne and scars.

I had come to think of myself as a zero. Zeros are used as place holders. They're useless, and valueless; much like myself. I'm a place holder for my pretty friends. I make them look better just by standing next to me. In fact, I had become okay with that.

Today, I was wearing my fancy Sephora make up at work today. I've been working this job for almost two years and I had never had someone bring up my acne; except for one of my supervisors who used my acne as a means of making me quit. That was almost a year ago. A customer came in, I rang her up and as she was leaving she looked at me and said "Not to be mean or anything....." oh. hell. no. I snapped my head towards the back room so fast, I could've died. I had just gotten transfered to this store a week ago so I wasn't familiar with the staff and I didn't want my new coworker to hear this conversation. She started talking about the benefits of Vinegar for acne (been there, done that). I just zoned out and tried not to cry.

Now I'm home and I'm sobbing. Working is the only thing that makes me feel worthy of life. Its the one thing that keeps me from being a hermit in my room. Now I'm here crying because I'm not worthy of my job with pretty girls. I'M THE UGLY DUCKLING. Except this duckling doesn't get a happy ending.


Regime smile.png
-Clean and Clear Morning Burst (twice daily)
-Biore Exfoliator (nightly)
-Loreal Toner
-Garnier Frutis Gel Moisturizer for oily to combo skin
-First Aid Gel Moisturizer (2nd best)
-Fresh Moistuirizng Gel Lotion (for really bad days)

-Evening Primrose Oil Capsules
-Biotin capsules



Makeup:

-Kat Von D Lock It Tattoo Foundation (When I feel extra ugly/Special occasions)

-CoverFX Pressed Powder Foundation (With Kat Von D)

-Revlon ColorStay Pressed Powder foundation (When i feel ok)

-Revlong ColorStay Foundation (When I feel semi-ugly)

-Garnier Fruties BB Cream (When I feel pretty/lazy/giving up on life)



Failurisms--

-Tretnoin (Retin-A)
-Clindamycin
-Benzol Peroxide
-Doxycycline
-ANYTHING HOMEMADE
-Minocycline
-Lemon
-Cetaphyl Facial Soap
-American Dermatologist
-MURAD


Willing to try again--

Apple Cider Vinegar smile.png
My Dermatologist in Mexico Dr. Gonzalo Gonzalez
Ziana Cream at night (aka Retin-A Forte in Mexico)

Different birth control


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Dont feel that way u shouldnt put yourself down like that. Theres always people who are going to be inconsiderate of people feelings , but then theres people who look pass imperfections and are not at all judgemental. I know how exactly how you feel but please dont feel down because i know how u feel then you should know your not alone thats why this forums are here to help each other with same issue we are goin to. But dont let rude insignificant comments put you down.

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Aww hon, I could just hug you right now! I felt like I was reading something I wrote. I know exactly how it feels to feel like the ugly duckling. I am the ugly sister, the ugly duckling that stands next to my sister and makes her look even prettier. She gets all the boys, all of the attention, and all of the compliments when we're out together. My heart breaks a little more inside every time a boy looks right passed me, right through me, and stares and drools over my sister. It hurts. I feel like my life is worthless, like I am worthless, and I will never be happy or live a fulfilling life, all because I have repulsive skin.

I know my words probably won't make you feel any better, but you are beautiful, and you are worth it. Please try to believe it. There will always be stupid, ignorant, shallow people, but please don't let them make you feel worthless. I really hope you will start to be happy. All the best to you.

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Have you tried accutane for your acne?


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I had come to a point where I accepted my acne as a part of me that was never going to go away. I'd look at myself in the mirror, shrug, and move along. Nothing new. Just the usual ugly acne and scars.

I had come to think of myself as a zero. Zeros are used as place holders. They're useless, and valueless; much like myself. I'm a place holder for my pretty friends. I make them look better just by standing next to me. In fact, I had become okay with that.

Today, I was wearing my fancy Sephora make up at work today. I've been working this job for almost two years and I had never had someone bring up my acne; except for one of my supervisors who used my acne as a means of making me quit. That was almost a year ago. A customer came in, I rang her up and as she was leaving she looked at me and said "Not to be mean or anything....." oh. hell. no. I snapped my head towards the back room so fast, I could've died. I had just gotten transfered to this store a week ago so I wasn't familiar with the staff and I didn't want my new coworker to hear this conversation. She started talking about the benefits of Vinegar for acne (been there, done that). I just zoned out and tried not to cry.

Now I'm home and I'm sobbing. Working is the only thing that makes me feel worthy of life. Its the one thing that keeps me from being a hermit in my room. Now I'm here crying because I'm not worthy of my job with pretty girls. I'M THE UGLY DUCKLING. Except this duckling doesn't get a happy ending.

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honey,which moron on earth told u u're ugly??!

u r not.

and there's no need to cry darling.

1stly,i would like to know what have u tried for ur acne.

and then i am coming back to ur emotions.

we all know what u r going through,and yes,it is depressing at times.

but ask urself, are u just what ur skin is?

is there nothing more in u beyond ur skin?

did u get an answer.

p.s if thats u in the picture.

i am jealous.(i dnt the perfect teeth set.i have a small gap between my front upper teeth.i always have wanted a smile like that)

i am a lil' conscious about my smile.

=D


Itchy red raised skin - dermatitis??

huge pores

indented scar

oils used for cooking

inflamed whiteheads & clogged pores

my balanced diet chart and skincare routine(medications taken & products used now)


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Aww hon, I could just hug you right now! I felt like I was reading something I wrote. I know exactly how it feels to feel like the ugly duckling. I am the ugly sister, the ugly duckling that stands next to my sister and makes her look even prettier. She gets all the boys, all of the attention, and all of the compliments when we're out together. My heart breaks a little more inside every time a boy looks right passed me, right through me, and stares and drools over my sister. It hurts. I feel like my life is worthless, like I am worthless, and I will never be happy or live a fulfilling life, all because I have repulsive skin.

I know my words probably won't make you feel any better, but you are beautiful, and you are worth it. Please try to believe it. There will always be stupid, ignorant, shallow people, but please don't let them make you feel worthless. I really hope you will start to be happy. All the best to you.

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Itchy red raised skin - dermatitis??

huge pores

indented scar

oils used for cooking

inflamed whiteheads & clogged pores

my balanced diet chart and skincare routine(medications taken & products used now)


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Aww hon, I could just hug you right now! I felt like I was reading something I wrote. I know exactly how it feels to feel like the ugly duckling. I am the ugly sister, the ugly duckling that stands next to my sister and makes her look even prettier. She gets all the boys, all of the attention, and all of the compliments when we're out together. My heart breaks a little more inside every time a boy looks right passed me, right through me, and stares and drools over my sister. It hurts. I feel like my life is worthless, like I am worthless, and I will never be happy or live a fulfilling life, all because I have repulsive skin.

I know my words probably won't make you feel any better, but you are beautiful, and you are worth it. Please try to believe it. There will always be stupid, ignorant, shallow people, but please don't let them make you feel worthless. I really hope you will start to be happy. All the best to you.

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Aww hon, I could just hug you right now! I felt like I was reading something I wrote. I know exactly how it feels to feel like the ugly duckling. I am the ugly sister, the ugly duckling that stands next to my sister and makes her look even prettier. She gets all the boys, all of the attention, and all of the compliments when we're out together. My heart breaks a little more inside every time a boy looks right passed me, right through me, and stares and drools over my sister. It hurts. I feel like my life is worthless, like I am worthless, and I will never be happy or live a fulfilling life, all because I have repulsive skin.

I know my words probably won't make you feel any better, but you are beautiful, and you are worth it. Please try to believe it. There will always be stupid, ignorant, shallow people, but please don't let them make you feel worthless. I really hope you will start to be happy. All the best to you.


Itchy red raised skin - dermatitis??

huge pores

indented scar

oils used for cooking

inflamed whiteheads & clogged pores

my balanced diet chart and skincare routine(medications taken & products used now)


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Have you tried accutane for your acne?


Regime smile.png
-Clean and Clear Morning Burst (twice daily)
-Biore Exfoliator (nightly)
-Loreal Toner
-Garnier Frutis Gel Moisturizer for oily to combo skin
-First Aid Gel Moisturizer (2nd best)
-Fresh Moistuirizng Gel Lotion (for really bad days)

-Evening Primrose Oil Capsules
-Biotin capsules



Makeup:

-Kat Von D Lock It Tattoo Foundation (When I feel extra ugly/Special occasions)

-CoverFX Pressed Powder Foundation (With Kat Von D)

-Revlon ColorStay Pressed Powder foundation (When i feel ok)

-Revlong ColorStay Foundation (When I feel semi-ugly)

-Garnier Fruties BB Cream (When I feel pretty/lazy/giving up on life)



Failurisms--

-Tretnoin (Retin-A)
-Clindamycin
-Benzol Peroxide
-Doxycycline
-ANYTHING HOMEMADE
-Minocycline
-Lemon
-Cetaphyl Facial Soap
-American Dermatologist
-MURAD


Willing to try again--

Apple Cider Vinegar smile.png
My Dermatologist in Mexico Dr. Gonzalo Gonzalez
Ziana Cream at night (aka Retin-A Forte in Mexico)

Different birth control


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Working is the only thing that makes me feel worthy of life. Its the one thing that keeps me from being a hermit in my room.

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Working is the only thing that makes me feel worthy of life. Its the one thing that keeps me from being a hermit in my room.

That really hit home for me. If it wasn't for work I'd lose my mind in my apartment.

I saw you tried Murad before that stuff sucks! That one thing totally f*cked up my face beyond belief. I even stuck with it for like 6 weeks even when it was breaking me out hardcore, stupid me. I think the majority of my scars were caused by that sh*t after making my face go from bad to worse.

and for what its worth I'm a dude and I think you're attractive. dat smile! I'd probably get all nervous if you looked my way and smiled.


Regime smile.png
-Clean and Clear Morning Burst (twice daily)
-Biore Exfoliator (nightly)
-Loreal Toner
-Garnier Frutis Gel Moisturizer for oily to combo skin
-First Aid Gel Moisturizer (2nd best)
-Fresh Moistuirizng Gel Lotion (for really bad days)

-Evening Primrose Oil Capsules
-Biotin capsules



Makeup:

-Kat Von D Lock It Tattoo Foundation (When I feel extra ugly/Special occasions)

-CoverFX Pressed Powder Foundation (With Kat Von D)

-Revlon ColorStay Pressed Powder foundation (When i feel ok)

-Revlong ColorStay Foundation (When I feel semi-ugly)

-Garnier Fruties BB Cream (When I feel pretty/lazy/giving up on life)



Failurisms--

-Tretnoin (Retin-A)
-Clindamycin
-Benzol Peroxide
-Doxycycline
-ANYTHING HOMEMADE
-Minocycline
-Lemon
-Cetaphyl Facial Soap
-American Dermatologist
-MURAD


Willing to try again--

Apple Cider Vinegar smile.png
My Dermatologist in Mexico Dr. Gonzalo Gonzalez
Ziana Cream at night (aka Retin-A Forte in Mexico)

Different birth control


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trust me u wouldnt like to quit the job!


Itchy red raised skin - dermatitis??

huge pores

indented scar

oils used for cooking

inflamed whiteheads & clogged pores

my balanced diet chart and skincare routine(medications taken & products used now)


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Change your doctor. Go out of state if required to get accutane.

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I kinda wanna quit my job now because I'm so embarrased sad.png

I wish there were more guys like you that liked my smile and ignored my face. Unfortunately, there aren't.

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Don't give up on finding a doctor who will give you accutane. Derms can have very different opinions on that topic. It was the same for me. My old derm refused to give me accutane, so I made an appointment with another and she agreed to it right away. And I am taking it for oily skin, my acne really isn't severe.

Also, when you ask the derm for it, try to be composed and argue why you think it is right for you. Since you have already tried a lot for your skin and it didn't work, you have proof enough that you should take it.

The only thing I tried for my skin before was apple cider vinegar and a fruit acid peeling, and the derm still gave me accutane.


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Aww hon, I could just hug you right now! I felt like I was reading something I wrote. I know exactly how it feels to feel like the ugly duckling. I am the ugly sister, the ugly duckling that stands next to my sister and makes her look even prettier. She gets all the boys, all of the attention, and all of the compliments when we're out together. My heart breaks a little more inside every time a boy looks right passed me, right through me, and stares and drools over my sister. It hurts. I feel like my life is worthless, like I am worthless, and I will never be happy or live a fulfilling life, all because I have repulsive skin.

I know my words probably won't make you feel any better, but you are beautiful, and you are worth it. Please try to believe it. There will always be stupid, ignorant, shallow people, but please don't let them make you feel worthless. I really hope you will start to be happy. All the best to you.

Hi, I have seen quite a few of your posts on here describing yourself as ugly, had a look at your pictures and was very surprised that someone as lovely looking as you puts herself down so much! I saw the picture of you and your sis too - you are both very pretty girls, I don't see how you could think of yourself as the ugly duckling - why? You look different to one another, yes - but I would say you are equally attractive. Oh, and your skin is NOT repulsive, I think it's looking really good.

>I had come to a point where I accepted my acne as a part of me that was never going to go away. I'd look at myself in the mirror, shrug, and move along. Nothing new. Just the usual ugly acne and scars.

I had come to think of myself as a zero. Zeros are used as place holders. They're useless, and valueless; much like myself. I'm a place holder for my pretty friends. I make them look better just by standing next to me. In fact, I had become okay with that.

Today, I was wearing my fancy Sephora make up at work today. I've been working this job for almost two years and I had never had someone bring up my acne; except for one of my supervisors who used my acne as a means of making me quit. That was almost a year ago. A customer came in, I rang her up and as she was leaving she looked at me and said "Not to be mean or anything....." oh. hell. no. I snapped my head towards the back room so fast, I could've died. I had just gotten transfered to this store a week ago so I wasn't familiar with the staff and I didn't want my new coworker to hear this conversation. She started talking about the benefits of Vinegar for acne (been there, done that). I just zoned out and tried not to cry.

Now I'm home and I'm sobbing. Working is the only thing that makes me feel worthy of life. Its the one thing that keeps me from being a hermit in my room. Now I'm here crying because I'm not worthy of my job with pretty girls. I'M THE UGLY DUCKLING. Except this duckling doesn't get a happy ending.

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Don't give up on finding a doctor who will give you accutane. Derms can have very different opinions on that topic. It was the same for me. My old derm refused to give me accutane, so I made an appointment with another and she agreed to it right away. And I am taking it for oily skin, my acne really isn't severe.

Also, when you ask the derm for it, try to be composed and argue why you think it is right for you. Since you have already tried a lot for your skin and it didn't work, you have proof enough that you should take it.


Regime smile.png
-Clean and Clear Morning Burst (twice daily)
-Biore Exfoliator (nightly)
-Loreal Toner
-Garnier Frutis Gel Moisturizer for oily to combo skin
-First Aid Gel Moisturizer (2nd best)
-Fresh Moistuirizng Gel Lotion (for really bad days)

-Evening Primrose Oil Capsules
-Biotin capsules



Makeup:

-Kat Von D Lock It Tattoo Foundation (When I feel extra ugly/Special occasions)

-CoverFX Pressed Powder Foundation (With Kat Von D)

-Revlon ColorStay Pressed Powder foundation (When i feel ok)

-Revlong ColorStay Foundation (When I feel semi-ugly)

-Garnier Fruties BB Cream (When I feel pretty/lazy/giving up on life)



Failurisms--

-Tretnoin (Retin-A)
-Clindamycin
-Benzol Peroxide
-Doxycycline
-ANYTHING HOMEMADE
-Minocycline
-Lemon
-Cetaphyl Facial Soap
-American Dermatologist
-MURAD


Willing to try again--

Apple Cider Vinegar smile.png
My Dermatologist in Mexico Dr. Gonzalo Gonzalez
Ziana Cream at night (aka Retin-A Forte in Mexico)

Different birth control


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Well I think you are just stunning, gorgeous smile.png

It sucks to see such a pretty girl upset about her appearance... but i hope you are able to access effective treatments for your own emotional sake.

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