So, here's the down low (or low down?): I was on accutane for five months in 2010. Cleared my acne beautifully. Completely eradicated my cystic acne and oily skin. I had clear skin for a while, but the pustules slowly began coming back. Right now, I have acne on my forehead (tiny bumps everywhere that turn into big ones) and I get some around my mouth. I went to the doctors and he said that I should get some blood tests done to determine if my acne was hormonal. But he told me to schedule an appointment with my family doctor to make sure she ordered the RIGHT blood tests. (He also prescribed me minocycline, but I have a feeling it was so I wouldn't go away empty handed. I filled it, took two pills, then promptly stopped.)
So anyways, today on the day of my appointment, which would end in a VERY expensive tube of zit cream, I decided I should probably fast before my blood tests, so I wouldn't have to go to the doctor, THEN get up early before work tomorrow to get the blood work done. I thought I would do it all in one day. When I went to the doctor, she just looked at my face, asked me what I wanted to do (fuck if I know), and eventually prescribed me Tactuo (Adapalene and BP combo topical. I think it's the Canadian equivalent to Epiduo.) I wasn't very stoked about having a topical, but it was better than nothing. She then said that by just looking at my face that my acne is hormonal (which I already figured) and that I didn't need blood tests. So, I pretty much went without eating for fourteen hours for nothing.
I went to go and get my prescription filled and that's when the nightmare began (okay, I'm exaggerating.) When I got it, the pharmacist said, “It's sort of expensive.” I looked at the receipt and saw that was not only expensive, it was REALLY FUCKING EXPENSIVE. One hundred and twenty dollars fucking expensive, to be precise. WHAT?! ONE HUNDRED AND TWENTY FLIPPING DOLLARS???!!!! For a tube that's basically Benzyol Peroxide with something else thrown in?! Mother of fucking God. Stick around... I just might shit myself. I thought it would be thirty, maybe forty, if I was unlucky, fifty bucks. But over a hundred dollars?! That in itself wouldn't have caused the surge of rage and rush of panic, but I recently had an accident with my car (ran over a rock, put a hole in the transmission fluid pan) so I have a big, fat tow truck bill PLUS getting my car fixed bill to pay. On top of this medication, that's my entire paycheque I just got. How fun. I was considering buying some CeraVe lotion to use with the Devil Tube which I was recently acquired unwillingly, but sorry, that's another 20 bucks when I have Cetaphil in my house that will do just fine (for the record, I have not much against Cetaphil, it just seems to... Cetaphilly. Heavy, I guess. I wanted to put CeraVe next in the firing line of lotion for intolerably dry skin.) Excuse me while I cry myself to sleep... It's not that bad now that I've calmed down, but in my hunger-induced state, it was a terrible as catching your husband having sex with your mother in your bed... or something. Personally, that's has yet to happen to me.
I just stood in the aisle for about five minutes afterwards, staring at the price. I contemplated somehow taking off the label that said it was prescribed to me and simply leaving it on the shelf and walking out of the store. Can you tell the pharmacist that you don't want it after they've filled it? Perhaps someone... bolder... would, but I am as socially inept as it gets. I wanted to fall to my knees and cry out to the Gods in anguish at that moment.
I'm trying to calm down and look at this reasonably. Yes, it was 120 bucks. But it's a big mofo of a tube (60 g), so it will last me a looong time (I had a 30 g tube of retin-a from 2010 that still isn't even close to being empty. I barely will have to use any, as it is just for my forehead and around the corners of my mouth. If this works, 120 bucks is worth it for clear skin. Also, I spend about that much every weekend doing... weekend activities. Plus, I suppose, accutane or any sort of “acne” med will cost just as much, if not more (when I went on accutane before, I was under my Dad's medical plan, so it cost basically nothing. I feel like such a rich little bitch typing that out. “Oh, I was on Daddy's plan!”). I'm just pissed that PharmaCare doesn't cover fucking acne expenses. So we can be broke but beautiful, or malformed and rich (well, maybe not rich, but not having to resort to dumpster diving in the reject bakery bin in the alley for day old doughnuts, as is my fate as of now if I even plan on eating a meal again in the next two weeks.) I just really wish I never filled that prescription on minocycline, at least I'd still have that twenty-four bucks. However, looking on this site, I see some good reviews for adapalene, four stars, so I'm beginning to calm down.
I will start using this tonight, just on my forehead and around my mouth. The doctor said to use it every second or third night, since my skin is very dry and gets irritated easily.