I have logged onto this forum after years because I just really needed somewhere to vent (hopefully this will be cathartic). I'm not sure what I'm looking for from starting this thread - I guess I'm looking to see if people have ever felt the same way as reassurance that I'm not alone in this?
About a year ago, I started a stressful (but very exciting!) job and my acne (cystic) flared up again - and today I found I'm just about to have a huge atrophic scar owing to this massive cyst on my face that has only just subsided after about 3 months. I'm on Roaccutane (6 weeks in now) 10mg a day, for 4 months to deal with the acne but I'm desperate to start on the scarring treatments.
Anyway, I broke up with my boyfriend yesterday and with the acne scar appearing today I'm suddenly convinced that no-one will ever find me attractive again because of my scars. I know it's ridiculous: I've certainly never been put off by acne scars on boyfriends (or acne) and I know that attractiveness resides in your personality and achievements and so on but I seemed to be okay dealing with my break up until I came to the realisation about this flipping new scar today!
My friends would tell me I'm being silly, that they can't tell but they don't see me in the way I see myself and none of them have acne (I'm 28 as are they, generally, and their acne disappeared by the end of their teens) or acne scarring.
I know I'm lucky - I have my health, my family, my friends, a job etc. but I feel so flipping unattractive today. Grrr.